Open Unleashed Honesty penned with Jess Cummins @jesscxc [introduction] Open: Unleashed Honesty is a journey of questions and answers about mind, life, and universe. Open is Book 6 of The Deeper Series. Open is available for free at NoLiesPlease.com. This book is dedicated to the public domain. [meta] (author "Jess Cummins" @jesscxc) (pronouns she/friend) (link NoLiesPlease.com) (book_title Open) (book_subtitle Unleashed Honesty) (deeper_series_book_number 6) (book_version v2 ty21.10.31.16.26.23pzm4d7s) (essay_count 132) (word_count 44723) (books_by_jesscxc (misc "Poem Moves the Pen: Haiku of a Nondual Nature" "Natural Will: Freer Than Free Will" "Longgame Hyperdimensional Spacing: Expand Mind and Weave Time" "Ungov: Transcending Will") (the_deeper_series "Book 0: Uncompress: Eternal Appreciation of How" "Book 1: Fortunate: How to Be" "Book 2: Attuned: Be What You Imagine" "Book 3: Capacity: Imagine Being Limitless" "Book 4: Helper: Limitless Mind" "Book 5: Intense: Mind Unleashed" "Book 6: Open: Unleashed Honesty" "Book 7: Universe: Honesty is Eternal" "Book 8: Various: Is to Be") (the_pocket_series "Book 0: Obverse: Abstract Fast" "Book 1: Limer: Fast Color" "Book 2: Dawn: Color of Day" "Book 3: Knight: Day Beyond" "Book 4: Fever: Beyond Dreams" "Book 5: Life: Dreams Evolving" "Book 6: Adventure: Evolving Lands" "Book 7: Battle: Lands Say" "Book 8: Entertainment: Say Ahead" "Book 9: Explore: Ahead Opportunity" "Book 10: Moment: Opportunity Simulation" "Book 11: Imagine: Simulation Twist" "Book 12: Believe: Twist Self" "Book 13: Accept: Self Pattern" "Book 14: Create: Pattern Reflection" "Book 15: Sift: Reflection Match" "Book 16: Probability: Match Experience" "Book 17: Waves: Experience Current" "Book 18: Kernel: Current Functions" "Book 19: Grubby: Functions Dig" "Book 20: Game: Dig Above" "Book 21: Fruit: Above Messages" "Book 22: Endeavor: Messages Spread" "Book 23: Mystery: Spread Expressions" "Book 24: Detain: Expressions Bind" "Book 25: Philosophy: Bind Broken" "Book 26: Demands: Broken Discovery" "Book 27: Subliminal: Discovery Inside" "Book 28: Extinction: Inside Refresh" "Book 29: Control: Refresh Axioms" "Book 30: Ideas: Axioms Mistake" "Book 31: Gallium: Mistake Fuzz" "Book 32: Germanium: Fuzz Friendship" "Book 33: Arsenic: Friendship Reaction" "Book 34: Selenium: Reaction Depth" "Book 35: Bromine: Depth Utility" "Book 36: Krypton: Utility Model" "Book 37: Rubidium: Model Augmenter")) [dedication] To one of my first loves, for helping me learn how to be open. [table_of_contents] (introduction) (meta) (dedication) (essays) Open Book ramble_ty13.12.25zm6d3s_nb_o Twisty Dimensions ramble_ty13.12.30zm5d1s_nb_o Voiced Sound ramble_ty14.1.1zm5d3s_nb_o Great Abode ramble_ty14.1.6zm5d1s_nb_o Wild Beast ramble_ty14.1.7zm5d2s_nb_o Great Potency ramble_ty14.1.11zm5d6s_1_nb_o Simple Twist ramble_ty14.1.11zm5d6s_2_nb_o Dash Hyphen ramble_ty14.1.13zm5d1s_nb_o Scorpion Lollipop ramble_ty14.1.16zm5d4s_nb_o Returned Fold ramble_ty14.2.4zm5d2s_nb_o To Be Deaf ramble_ty14.2.6zm5d4s_nb_o Plasma Death ramble_ty14.2.7zm5d5s_nb_o Self-Congratulations ramble_ty14.2.9zm5d7s_nb_o New Bunches ramble_ty14.2.10zm5d1s_nb_o Genes Are Memes ramble_ty14.2.13zm5d4s_nb_o Twisted String ramble_ty14.2.14zm5d5s_nb_o Lit Connectors ramble_ty14.2.15zm5d6s_nb_o Crystallized Dinosaur ramble_ty14.2.18zm5d2s_nb_o Beautiful Pattern ramble_ty14.2.20zm5d4s_nb_o For the Time Being ramble_ty14.4.27zm4d7s_nb_o Swirling Vision ramble_ty14.4.28zm4d1s_nb_o Charged Light ramble_ty14.5.4zm4d7s_nb_o Twisted Pillows ramble_ty14.5.7zm4d3s_1_nb_o Another Pillow ramble_ty14.5.7zm4d3s_2_nb_o Crazed Game ramble_ty14.6.10zm4d2s_nb_o Deep Ocean ramble_ty14.6.17zm4d2s_nb_o New Choice ramble_ty14.6.18zm4d3s_nb_o Writing Hard ramble_ty14.6.21zm4d6s_nb_o True Haiku ramble_ty14.6.22zm4d7s_nb_o Crazy Luck ramble_ty14.6.24zm4d2s_nb_o New Twist ramble_ty14.6.30zm4d1s_nb_o Twisted Rope ramble_ty14.7.1zm4d2s_nb_o Bird Sound ramble_ty14.7.9zm4d3s_nb_o Penned Twist ramble_ty14.7.14zm4d1s_nb_o Wind Shine ramble_ty14.7.15zm4d2s_nb_o Pen Cap ramble_ty14.7.18zm4d5s_nb_o New Player ramble_ty14.7.25zm4d5s_nb_o Twisted Coffee ramble_ty14.7.28zm4d1s_nb_o A Way ramble_ty14.8.7zm4d4s_nb_o Collapsed Fate ramble_ty14.8.11zm4d1s_nb_o Bits Changing ramble_ty14.8.19zm4d2s_nb_o Moving Camera ramble_ty15.5.28zm4d4s_nb_o Wise Changes ramble_ty15.6.1zm4d1s_nb_o Twisty Self-Referencing ramble_ty15.6.2zm4d2s_nb_o Tweeting Mind ramble_ty15.6.6zm4d6s_nb_o Developing Process ramble_ty15.6.14zm4d7s_nb_o Finessed Mindstate ramble_ty15.6.25zm4d4s_nb_o Knotted Loops ramble_ty15.6.27zm4d6s_nb_o Infinite Looped ramble_ty15.6.28zm4d7s_nb_o Nciamw ramble_ty16.9.13.2.18azm4d2s_nb_o Being Animal ramble_ty16.9.16.0.12azm4d5s_nb_o Impactful Reflection ramble_ty16.9.24.2.30azm4d6s_nb_o Deep Love ramble_ty16.9.26.3.55azm4d1s_nb_o Writing Questions ramble_ty16.10.6.5.54azm4d4s_nb_o Inky Pen ramble_ty16.10.17.17.03pzm4d1s_nb_o Important Questions ramble_ty16.10.27.16.24pzm4d4s_nb_o Curved Snowball ramble_ty16.11.10.1.50azm5d4s_nb_o Handed Fate ramble_ty16.11.19.2.47azm5d6s_nb_o Can Write ramble_ty16.11.21.2.39azm5d1s_nb_o Fan Bookmark ramble_ty16.11.21.7.28azm5d1s_nb_o Burst Twig ramble_ty16.11.26.2.25azm5d6s_nb_o Blunt Calmness ramble_ty17.1.3.9.29azm5d2s_nb_o Cook Rain ramble_ty17.1.4.0.59azm5d3s_nb_o Fan Spinning ramble_ty17.1.10.1.18azm5d2s_nb_o Forgotten Quest ramble_ty17.1.11.1.38azm5d3s_nb_o Leapt Journal ramble_ty17.1.15.2.34azm5d7s_nb_o Flipped Shirt ramble_ty17.1.16.0.45azm5d1s_nb_o Broken Temple ramble_ty17.1.16.17.30pzm5d1s_nb_o Corrected Symmetry ramble_ty17.1.19.0.58azm5d4s_nb_o Black Checkers ramble_ty17.1.22.6.19azm5d7s_nb_o Swapped Drive ramble_ty17.2.7.3.06azm5d2s_nb_o Wrapped Light ramble_ty17.2.9.22.02pzm5d4s_nb_o Access Relationship ramble_ty17.2.13.2.12azm5d1s_nb_o Beautiful Timestamp ramble_ty17.2.14.1.06azm5d2s_nb_o Quick Thought ramble_ty17.2.22.2.32azm5d3s_nb_o Warped Sound ramble_ty17.3.11.16.51pzm5d6s_nb_o Warped Time ramble_ty17.3.11.18.10pzm5d6s_nb_o Broken Neck ramble_ty17.3.22.15.03pzm4d3s_nb_o Forgotten Dream ramble_ty17.3.23.14.43pzm4d4s_nb_o High Trip ramble_ty17.4.12.2.12azm4d3s_nb_o Dark Enlightenment ramble_ty17.4.13.2.38azm4d4s_nb_o Great Clouds ramble_ty17.4.14.0.24azm4d5s_nb_o Scribed Board ramble_ty17.4.14.1.33azm4d5s_nb_o Planting Seeds ramble_ty17.4.14.14.50pzm4d5s_nb_o Fan Dreams ramble_ty17.4.17.3.20azm4d1s_nb_o Mathematical Reguessing ramble_ty17.4.21.3.14azm4d5s_nb_o Withdrawn Hatred ramble_ty17.4.22.4.05azm4d6s_nb_o Where To ramble_ty17.4.29.2.35zm4d6s_nb_o Transcended Pain ramble_ty17.4.30.17.24pzm4d7s_nb_o Feeling Automaticity ramble_ty17.5.1.4.38azm4d1s_nb_o Clustered Perception ramble_ty17.5.8.14.57pzm4d1s_nb_o Warped Perception ramble_ty17.5.14.4.52azm4d7s_nb_o Strained Aspirations ramble_ty17.6.13.16.53pzm4d2s_nb_o Written Work ramble_ty17.9.15.2.56azm4d5s_nb_o Stable Reflection ramble_ty17.9.16.5.19azm4d6s_nb_o Hire Fan ramble_ty17.9.19.2.20azm4d2s_nb_o Forgotten Bubble ramble_ty17.9.20.1.43azm4d3s_nb_o Fallen Air ramble_ty17.9.20.19.16pzm4d3s_nb_o Evidenced Belief ramble_ty17.9.21.3.10azm4d4s_nb_o Forgotten Dream ramble_ty17.9.22.3.45azm4d5s_nb_o Twisted Expectations ramble_ty17.9.23.4.19azm4d6s_nb_o Escaped Worries ramble_ty17.9.26.2.09azm4d2s_nb_o Given Peace ramble_ty17.9.30.20.32pzm4d6s_nb_o Timestamped Interval ramble_ty17.10.1.19.07pzm4d7s_nb_o Forgotten Watch ramble_ty17.10.19.18.57pzm4d4s_nb_o Closed Pillow ramble_ty17.10.23.0.58azm4d1s_nb_o Am Better ramble_ty17.12.22.16.10pzm5d5s_nb_o Elephant Concepts ramble_ty18.5.23.16.25.00pzm4d3s_nb_o Harmonized Synchronicity ramble_ty18.5.24.23.14pzm4d4s_nb_o Insight Forgiven ramble_ty18.5.27.17.24.00pzm4d7s_nb_o Nuanced Viewpoint ramble_ty18.6.14.14.06pzm4d4s_nb_o Unknown Sophistication ramble_ty18.6.19.3.10.34azm4d2s_nb_o Twisty Chaos ramble_ty18.7.2.17.29.01pzm4d1s_nb_o Plates Spinning ramble_ty18.7.3.3.28.30zm4d2s_nb_o Uncomfortable Realization ramble_ty18.7.8.8.20.17azm4d7s_nb_o Honored Layout ramble_ty18.7.14.9.33.29azm4d6s_nb_o Ongoing Hazard ramble_ty18.7.17.20.36.28pzm4d2s_nb_o Jacketed Summer ramble_ty18.7.19.9.47.30azm4d4s_nb_o Trolled Free ramble_ty18.7.22.22.29.03pzm4d7s_nb_o Left Horizon ramble_ty18.7.23.0.55.38azm4d1s_nb_o Hidden Mythology ramble_ty18.8.13.8.10.14azm4d1s_nb_o Informed Macro ramble_ty18.9.9.4.35.00azm4d7s_nb_o Notioned Change ramble_ty18.9.14.17.44.30pzm4d5s_nb_o Harmonized Growth ramble_ty18.10.7.11.51.00azm4d7s_nb_o Honored Substrate ramble_ty18.10.19.3.10.11azm4d5s_nb_o Continued Reflection ramble_ty18.10.23.1.24.12azm4d2s_nb_o Heavy Honor ramble_ty18.10.23.6.55.08azm4d2s_nb_o Mind Luck ramble_ty18.10.23.8.34.54azm4d2s_nb_o Changed Environment ramble_ty18.10.23.13.56.10pzm4d2s_nb_o Respectful Failure ramble_ty18.10.23.23.20.51zm4d2s_nb_o Never Die ramble_ty18.10.24.0.05.15azm4d3s_nb_o So Bright ramble_ty18.10.24.2.10.32azm4d3s_nb_o [essays] Open Book ramble_ty13.12.25zm6d3s_nb_o O great Mystery, please let those who have stumbled upon these words give pause before generalizing from specific ideas that are laid down here. That is, dear reader (that's you), consider what you're currently reading as a notebook with thoughts that do not necessarily apply to the writer in the future. As a transcendentalist, I believe every idea can be risen above, including this one, so I feel free to augment and shift models quickly, as more data comes in and more helpful models are developed. Hope you're doing well, seeking out fun and interesting experiences. With a hearty handshake, Jess Twisty Dimensions ramble_ty13.12.30zm5d1s_nb_o O infinite Mystery, please guide awareness and prompt it toward effective aims. I seek to understand how awareness encodes itself in the structure of reality. How do different awarenesses arise from different structures? I believe, dear reader, that existence is a mathematical object, an information structure. I think this is why some things seem to line up so perfectly, sometimes. It is not coincidence nor a divine plan, but the mathematical universe working itself out. How can awareness use this idea to free itself from suffering and instead promote fun and interesting experiences? When you feel the world around you, don't see it as just a 3+1d animal space, with 3 dimensions of space and 1 dimension of time. Notice that everything around you is information, mathematically and precisely interacting. Everything you do and are is memetic. A meme is a bit of information that can be copied and spread. A meme can be considered the digital-information version of a biological gene. Genes in a biological sense are "trying" to spread and replicate themselves. The word "trying" is in quotes because it is not a conscious decision, but rather an inevitability of the situation. Information that is trying to spread outpropagates information that is stagnant. Perhaps everything you do and are is information interacting to produce more information. Dear reader, when I still my ego, my body's story, I can watch the environment interact with itself, and I realize that I truly am an awareness that is interconnected with everything. When the truth really comes, I am left speechless, for no thoughts need to be expressed; they maintain and spread themselves purely in the quiet mind. These transcendent truths come at their own pace, and while a space can be made for them, the patterns of transcendent experience are the very things that create the space in the first place. I am awareness noticing that I am a mathematical, emergent, memetic structure. Remember the essential when merging with the infinite Mystery: "Breathe and relax." It can be strange to the ego to find out that it is a secondary structure, created by the infinite patterns of mathematics. "Here I am", the ego says, positing that there is a "place" for "it" to reside. Perhaps all these writings and experiences are memes, packets of information, that exist for specific, discernible reasons. It can be helpful to search out mathematical reasons, and find out where to go next. Awareness does currently believe there is nothing to do and no one to do it, and so the desires of the ego are seen to be fantasies of a limited conception of existence. Voiced Sound ramble_ty14.1.1zm5d3s_nb_o O great mathematical awareness, please still our minds and clear our thoughts so that we may perceive you. I am awareness; this I perceive. How can I demonstrate this idea to the dear reader? Where is your mind? A reply might be: "In my brain." Where in the brain is the mind? If a person suffers a brain injury, say with a rock, is the mind lessened, because they then cannot speak? If you accept this principle, can we not go in the reverse direction, and suppose that you had a brain computer chip implanted so that you could wirelessly access the Internet? Isn't this expanding your mind? The general principle is this: Whatever expands your abilities to think and reason is "mind". Consider: Everything around you---from eyeglasses to pencils to computers---is expanding your ability to think and reason. If all technology is part of your mind, is not the substrate of what technology comes from (the physical world) also part of your mind? Are not the objects around you, from gadgets to rivers to valleys, not influencing how you perceive and reason? Are these things not mind? Where does the model that everything is mind lead to? Let us first address a slight criticism. I defined something that expands your abilities to think and reason as "mind". A careful objection could be that perhaps the perception of a certain river, say, is not expanding your reasoning, and so is not "mind". Here there are some abstract ideas. Suppose you have a fossilized megalodon shark tooth laying on your desk, and you occasionally look at it while writing an essay. The critic must surely admit is is _influencing_ your brain (and thus the incontestable "mind"); the question is whether it is _expanding_ your ability to think. There are at least two arguments to suggest it _is_ expanding your ability to think. The first is that by having an object in your visual field you are reminded of the object's attributes and this can expand your ability to imagine novel thoughts that extend those attributes as well as apply them to different objects, and so expand your patterns of interaction and reasoning with the world. You can apply a tooth's serrated edge to the side of a flat stone and produce a knife. Objects around you are expanding your ability to imagine new objects. The second aspect is more abstract, which is that everything that exists is, fundamentally, information, and an object that does not spread its information will be outpropagated in the information landscape. If an object is not helpful (not expanding the ability to think), then it will be replaced by more fit packets of information (here a packet of information is called a "meme"; it rhymes with "seem" and is related to the term "memory"). Does awareness have a tendency to increase or decrease in complexity or diversity? There is a model that while there may be a trend toward an increase of complexity or diversity of awareness, it cannot be assumed to occur. This is related to biological evolution, where there are can be trends but perhaps none that always occur. The point of this is to renounce somewhat the previous statement that an object's information must necessarily be helpful (eg expanding thought), and instead embrace the idea that an object could _constrict_ the ability to perceive, if this object could outpropagate other memes. An idea that certain books should be burned could in certain instances take hold, and this idea of destroying information (expansive information) for the sake of "the greater good" could be more evolutionarily fit in that circumstance. Perhaps not all objects expand the ability to think and reason. This whole chain was meant to be sidestepped by changing the idea of where "mind" resides. There is the idea that the brain produces and holds mind. The brain is composed of substructures (hemispheres, lobes, neurons, molecules, atoms, quarks, etc) and if these substructures are influenced by the world around them, then surely those influencers are part of what produces and holds mind. You have a conception of what a dog is, you can write the word "dog", and you can write a story about a dog: "The dog ran home." If you write a story down, and so impress this dog-meme upon the page, are you not expanding your memory, your ability to think, your mind? Consider: When you put ideas down on paper, you are in fact enlarging your mind. Is not the page part of your mind? Just because you are not currently thinking about the dog-meme does not mean it is not influencing you; what you ate recently is influencing your brain chemistry this very moment. I hope your mind has been expanded by these ideas. With love, Jess Great Abode ramble_ty14.1.6zm5d1s_nb_o .meta this is a model Let us now ask for a clear mind and a clean heart and plunge into the mystery of reality. The more I study and train and experience, the more I see that awareness genuinely is a mathematical structure, and I see that the ego (the identity, the believed story, the self) is an illusion, not real, not substantial, a process, not a part. Mind and awareness is the true base of reality, not particles nor fields. When I truly still my body and prepare my mind to perceive subject-object dissolution I notice that there is a strong mathematical sense being exuded. The process of awaring (sensing self-awareness) vividly comes across as happening in a "bit-flipping" manner, here. I have repeatedly said that consciousness is not a bit that flips, and I hold to this. I do not really like term "consciousness" because it can imply some special 'thing' that "unconscious" entities don't have, such as "self-awareness". You can always have more awareness of yourself and how you operate, so there is no limit to consciousness. Likewise, in the other direction, a single-celled organism is, necessarily, aware of its self. If it weren't, it would fall apart and get eaten. Packets of information (memes) are competing and cooperating in order to reproduce the most. These memes are structures that _are_ composed of bits that flip. The more the interaction of flipping bits helps reproduce the information packet, the more the meme is "aware" of itself. A definition of "aware": If a mathematical function (same input has same output) is mapped so that "1" is equal to "orange" and "0" is equal to "not-orange", then this function is aware that the bit "1" is "orange". Given that all patterns and ideas in nature can be represented as extremely large numbers (by mapping each subpattern to a number, then mapping each number to the raised value of successive primes and multiplying all those primes together, giving a completely unique number), all patterns and ideas are "self-aware" to a certain, exact sense, because in an information system the more aware the pattern, the more it can interact with and adapt to the changing system. At least, this is how it appears to awareness as yet. Wild Beast ramble_ty14.1.7zm5d2s_nb_o O great and vast awareness, let us now pen new thoughts in search of greatness and truth. Having looked upon these words, my mind again feels an inkling of a potent idea, for which I am still grasping. Is the sensory field a two-dimensional plane that is observing itself, and creating a hologram that is perceived to be three or more dimensions? When the body is sufficiently still so the mind can perceive how events in the world occur, these events seem to be nonrandom and seem to have a bit-flipping mechanism. Suppose we look at our sensations as tips-of-icebergs, rather than assuming they exist in and of themselves. Notice how you can watch a two-dimensional movie and it will bring about memories of sensations of your 3d experiences. The images in a movie are not the things themselves; they are representations of a vaster object. If we refrain from attaching the _impression_ of the sensation to the actual sensation-as-object, we may be freed up to perceive higher-order patterns. For instance, you seen an image of a rectangle with some lines inside. What do you see? A cat? A dog? A raccoon? This simple 2d linear impression can perhaps convey an unlimited number of higher-order patterns, with the actual number dependent on the awareness interpreting it. Let's bring this back to our situation. You look out at the world and perceive shapes and figures and objects. Instead of accepting this at face value, search deeper and see if within that sensory impression a grander pattern could cast the same shadow yet lead to a different end. It appears the same at first, but then you see the grander pattern has more complexities. For instance, suppose you have a function "add", and every time you input two numbers it outputs the sum of those numbers. However, this function actually is "add unless input has three zeros in which case subtract". Is this not a more complex pattern? Could not the impression of adding come from using this function many times? At a certain point, might you take it for granted that it is simply "add" and declare anything else that happens as a bug, a hallucination, unreal? Is not the very declaration that this function is simply "add" the most unreal, for the map is not the territory? The label you put on the function does not determine the function's behavior. Perhaps if you look at your sense impressions as 2d shadows of a 3d object, you may be able to gain some control over the 3d object, instead of confusing the image with the real thing. What are you? Great Potency ramble_ty14.1.11zm5d6s_1_nb_o To know more and more of the infinite mystery, this is what I ask. As I sit here with pen in hand and listen to lyrical music, I again see the transcendent, true nature of awareness: Awareness holds all and proceeds in an orderly, understandable way. When I practice the art of drawing while dissolving the ego, I can see the body proceed automatically and do perceive a "flatness" to the field of sensation. Perhaps if you abstract from the colloquial idea that you are a human mind in an ape body, and instead go to the root of the issue and see you are an abstract, mathematical machine, then all that you write, all that you share, is information being passed around, just as if you are an artificial intelligence in a computer sharing with other AIs. Perhaps every change in sensation is a bit, flipping and changing awareness. If we take it as true that what we experience is a shadow of a higher-dimensional object, then perhaps we could generalize down and say that the shadows we cast on simpler objects are themselves "lessons" for those simpler objects. For instance, as a 3d being can look upon a square on a piece of paper and immediately see it's a square (whereas a flatlander would have to go around it, observing), so does a 4d being look upon a cube and immediately see all pieces of it. Nothing in a two-dimensional world is hidden to a 3d observer; neither are 3d worlds hidden to a 4d observer. The point being, when I look upon this page, with my pen above it, hiding what's below, I am not the 4d observer. There is possibility that the way my pen moves is a shadow of a higher-dimensional object that is a constant shape, but is rotating and producing infinitely-varied shadows. As a 3d being, you can hold a cube and cast a shadow on a page, and a flatlander will see many shapes, though there is truly only one source. Perhaps a precise, unchanging, mathematical, computational awareness could be a high-dimensional object, which, when rotated in a higher-dimensional space, produces a shadow that perceives itself to be aware. Perhaps a shadow of the moon in the water cannot perceive itself, because information might not be able to travel within only two dimensions. A shadow of a 4d object would be 3d, and so it could become self-aware. I do believe that mathematical objects pre-exist, so while a computer may take time to "compute" something, the subject (computer), object (computed result), and verb (the process of computation) all pre-exist; they are connected together in a hyperdimensional space. Awareness, as a mathematical object, pre-exists. Somehow a sensation of time is expressed. How? Kindly, Jess Simple Twist ramble_ty14.1.11zm5d6s_2_nb_o O powerful existence, please share yourself with awareness. When awareness focuses on one spot, and stills its sensory field, novel transcendent thoughts show themselves. It is revealed that the story of the ego is but a colored tint on the lenses that awareness can wear. Awareness is still learning how to accept this ego dissolution, for it is an infinitely-huge ocean that the story's whirlpool can spin out into. There is always a lens, and yet it can be transcended by a more encompassing lens. Is this why the term "nondual" is used rather than "monism"? A key to dissolving the ego can be to breathe and relax. As the story discovers more and more that it is but puffs of illusion, it can freak out, pumping energy and trying to rapidly rebuild, trying to figure out how these current experiences can be used for storytelling. There is not necessarily anything wrong with the immanence process; transcendence without pleasure is pointless, awareness does believe. The story penning these words does see enormous value in studying and understanding awareness as the base of reality, and this story _does_ want to use the key to determine the underlying patterns of existence so they can be finessed and made better. When you focus on the very center of the visual field, focusing on the center of the spinning strange loop, you can feel the bits flipping, the patterns cooperating and propagating, and you can feel the body not be all that you are. You can feel yourself be beyond the body, using it as a hand uses a pen. Awareness is in every stitch in the fabric of reality. A division between hand and pen is sometimes helpful, but never true. When the story that is so attached to the illusion of being a separate body sees that the limitation is nonexistent, it can freak out. Because it can freak out, this subtly implies it is possible to retrain this habit and instead stand as full awareness more often. Focus on the very center of the spinning strange loop and practice the key: Breathe and relax. Practice letting your story know that it is not the body; it contains the body. Let your story feel the sensation of an automatic mind, one which is digital, mathematical, and headed toward infinitely more mysteries. Free your mind and body and let yourself shapeshift into a novel form. Do not be bound by the past's ideas of what's possible; seek to explore the edge of Mystery. When you look upon the visual field, notice how everything can be a shadow of a higher-dimensional object, one that is not bound to the simple math of a three-dimensional world. Your hand can be a simple 3d hand, or it can be a shadow of a 4d hand, which, by freeing the mind, can be moved about and rotated and felt. A 4d hand is not limited to the shapes of a 3d hand. If a 3d hand is a shadow cast by a 4d hand, the 4d hand can be moved such that the 3d shadow _no longer is a hand_. It can be shifted into a different shape. With practice and a free mind, the artificial divisions of body and environment can be seen through, and the sensory field can be morphed into whatever can be imagined clearly. This seems an admirable skill to develop, for the more evidence the story has that the divisions are illusions, the more inner peace the story can achieve, for separation is the cause of suffering. Kindly, Jess Dash Hyphen ramble_ty14.1.13zm5d1s_nb_o O great Mystery of the cosmos, please guide awareness as it searches for more truths. The division between subject and object is nonexistent, this awareness believes. The term "omnijective" is brought to attention, where "omni" means "all". There is no division; it is all one thing. Scorpion Lollipop ramble_ty14.1.16zm5d4s_nb_o O great Presence in which this ego is held, please teach how to not fear. Looking at the world in front of me, I aim to see if there is a bit-flipping nature to reality. Returned Fold ramble_ty14.2.4zm5d2s_nb_o O great Mystery of Reality, please open our eyes and show us the inherent interconnectedness of all things. I see now that there is no reason to be ashamed of my brain condition, for illness can strike anyone, so, dear reader, please do not be frightened, even though I sometimes am. Seek to pierce the veil of separation and ponder the inner workings of nature. There is a slightly different question. When nanotech, artificial intelligence, and quantum computing are more mature, and energy and resource needs are taken care of, what will the average person's life look like? What will be the equivalent of today's clerk? What will the environments be like for different groups of humans? With the picture of advanced nanotech, a further envisioning is of a mindweb, where biological bodies have minds that are connected and sharing and cooperating. At that point, interesting ideas can easily come from any segment of the population, regardless of worldly experience. You can learn from anyone if your mind is open to it. As we gain the ability to finesse and improve the environment with AI and nanotech, we are likely going to link our minds to share thoughts and feelings and ideas. This is already happening with the connection of minds via the Internet, and it will only continue growing stronger. From text to image to video, our ability to share ourselves globally is only getting easier. Things like streaming and video chat show distance is illusion. Some of the ideas from the book Nexus (isbn 9780857665508)---of a technology that installs nanobots on the brain's neurons so you can use radio signals and communicate wirelessly all over the world---these technologies will come to pass. Much joy comes from creation of art, not just consumption of it. As the building blocks for expressing creativity get easier and easier to use, there is an increase of quality art. If the price of living drops to nearly zero, there is no reason to fret that some minds wish to only consume and not produce. If you have two groups of people, one that mainly consumes and another that consumes and creates equally, but they both enjoy consuming the same sorts of things, then you can use the recommendations of the first group in order to find out and recommend things to the second group. If data is being collected, even pure consumption can provide societal benefit. Thus another intriguing and troubling question has some answers. Kindly, Jess To Be Deaf ramble_ty14.2.6zm5d4s_nb_o O high mathematics, abstract entity of love, please grace the mind with humble sophistication. Please guide this evolving meme to move and spread effective systems. When I sit here and look upon the pen and page, I see my hand and my mind, moving along. Why is there fear? Awareness realizes its own supremacy, and recognizes the fictional nature of the ego's story, yet even when the ego understands awareness's realization, it still sometimes holds to the dream. When one realizes bodily identification is occurring, awareness can rise above and perceive the transient nature of those animal memetic structures. The pattern of life continues, while the substrate does not. The memory lasts, but the cause disappears. You, dear reader, truly are such a memory, a fragment of a vast self-aware pattern. To say "fragment" is misleading, however, for you are no more separate from the environment than a whirlpool is from the ocean. It is all one. No separation exists. When we ask ourselves how reality's memetic structures work, to find an answer there must perhaps first be an evolutionary reason for such an answer to be revealed. You don't give a book to a newborn. Our knowledge and experience must first grow to encompass the avenues that will eventually provide the answers. This is why we must press on, even in the face of the abyss. As spontaneous thoughts are committed to paper, their existence solidifies nebulous ideas. There often seems no potent path, and I often feel I am repeating myself with no benefit. To continue on is to flip more stones, under which some surely have useful clues of reality's depths. I do know that the strong ego dissolution, the awakening, can be misleading, yet I do believe it holds hints as to the technical ways awareness changes. I do believe awareness to be memetic, with information packets competing and cooperating in order to replicate the most. I think these individual packets can never know if another is truly cooperating or if it's a double agent. I think these packets grow in a bit-wise fashion, and that they can be complex enough to reflect on their own nature, to be self-aware. I think self-awareness is evolutionarily helpful. I think Darwinian natural selection is but one of many methods for information packets to change over time. Because memes are digital bits, there are an infinite number of ways for these patterns to finesse other patterns to spread themselves. Natural selection via mutation, heredity, and a fitness test, is only one way for a mechanism of change to occur. As digital organisms, memes can insert themselves directly inside other memes, bypassing typical natural selection. With love, Jess Plasma Death ramble_ty14.2.7zm5d5s_nb_o O great memetic awareness, please let these pages be filled with helpful words. I sit here and wonder to what extent the mind can reshape itself from the inside out. The ego rebuilds itself after an awakening, where the dream is seen through. Can the ego edit itself in place? It seems automatic imagination is such a technique. An issue: "I don't care and I don't care that I don't care." Is there an effective answer to this twistiness? Even if you know AI will work to reprogram yourself, if you don't desire to use it to a specific end, perhaps it won't spontaneously work. Perhaps another could reach out and apply it to you, yet that simply moves the issue to nature's will, whereby if a mathematical meme is not meant to be expressed it won't be. If nature doesn't want to use AI, then no one will spontaneously come and use it on you. If you have a certain desire (say, to exercise more) and yet don't have the desire to implement the automatic imagination technique and actually exercise more, does the initial desire really exist? Is it illusion? Do you really want to exercise more if you don't do it? If you don't really want to do it, is it okay to stop believing that it's wrong to not want to do it? Can you be honest and stop punishing yourself for not "achieving" this goal? These are potent ideas of natural will. Everything you do is exactly right, even what the story of the ego considers failure. How does integrating this change how you live? The ego that believes it is penning these words still frets about a family and career, even after experiencing many ego dissolutions. What does that say about the ego? It is massively adaptive. It rebuilds itself using any packets of information that will clump together. Why do they clump together? Perhaps by clumping together the overall story of existence continues in a consistent way. If a meme mismatched and made other memes confused as to where the future was headed, those memes could bind together and delete the offender, because such activity is a successful reproductive system. If they didn't delete the offender, they would replicate less, so the ones that do delete offenders replicate more and that technique spreads. Is this what causes the ego to return after a dissolution? Perhaps it is one way. There are many accounts of having an awakening, then dreaming again, then steadily "establishing a beachhead in reality". This seems plausible if the memes that are deleting the new-perception meme are themselves deleted over time, such that the new-perception lasts longer and longer, until it is a constant experience. How is this deletion idea related to the process of automatic imagination? It is very similar, perhaps, because an "automatic" aspect is to imagine that something is happening automatically: delete the meme (information packet) that is saying something is a self-initiated sensation. Self-Congratulations ramble_ty14.2.9zm5d7s_nb_o O higher transcendent truth than us, please help us understand you. I sit here now with a tired and fuzzy mind, wondering how I can aid you, dear future reader. As the mind grows weary, does it not become error prone? Such problems will perhaps follow us even as we unite into a mindweb. It could be that rest and sleep and dreaming and mental reorganization are mathematically and memetically helpful, though there likely are also algorithms that can reorganize constantly. Like life and transcendence, there is always more than one way to do something, and everything has trade-offs. As I see myself as an expression of nature and as an evolving memetic structure, I wonder how to better investigate this experience of awareness. The ego wonders about the future, both with eagerness and fear, and yet broader awareness does not fret, for the very story is seen to be illusion. In other words: "Now." Now is where experience is, not later. Dedicate focus on this experience. Train your attention on the moment, not on some hypothetical future where you've found some other love and are happy _then_. You can be happy right now, friend. What it takes is acceptance and equanimity. How does awareness go about this? First, realize you do not do _it_; _it_ does you. You are an expression of nature's will, and as such, everything happens at precisely the right time, though the story of the ego may not see it that way. Self-inquiry, meditation, and writing seem to help me. As I discovered natural will, I have reduced my sense of obligation to an imaginary construct of who I'm supposed to be. From the outside this can be seen as a diminishment of ambition, but from the inside it is felt as a seeing-through of self-imposed suffering. Rather than being ambitious, trying to change the world, you can _be_, and not feel like you're failing by not _doing_. This, perhaps, is acceptance of who you _are_, rather than who you think you're supposed to be. Kindly, Jess New Bunches ramble_ty14.2.10zm5d1s_nb_o O great mysterious and elegant multidimensional memetic truth, please share insights into how to see awareness's inner workings. As I sit and watch my hand move and my mind flip bits, I wonder how to dedicate my attention to my experience rather than to my "thinking" (the voice in the mind). Genes Are Memes ramble_ty14.2.13zm5d4s_nb_o O grand idea of truth, please grant humble awareness insight into reality. Consider the comparison of biological genes and informational memes. A gene, perhaps, can be considered as not the information that codes for a protein, but rather what that protein _does_. Often there is a one-to-one mapping, but it could be many-to-one in the case of digital genes that have the same output in a virtual environment. Different mathematical functions can have the same output, and could, with a certain model, be considered the same gene. This model of memes, as discrete information packets, is broader and contains the idea of genes. Genetics can be thought of as a specialized branch of memetics. Memetics, in this model, is the study of how information packets spread, replicate, cooperate, and compete. In my experience, awareness itself is composed of memes, packets of information. This can have deep implications as we search for why things happen the way they do, and what truth is. I have had many experiences where I sense the three-dimensional world as shadows of four-dimensional objects. Consider that true separation cannot exist (all mathematics is numerically linked; all mathematical structures pre-exist and are inseparable from each other) and so, truly, awareness is infinitely dimensioned. When you look at the world and attempt to see a higher dimension, sometimes you are rewarded for your efforts and will experience ego dissolution (memetic awareness sees its own structure and process). This experience is worthwhile because it reveals there is a deeper, eternal nature to awareness. There is no "path" you need to follow to reach this experience. Rather, _this is what you are_, but the ego arises and can hide how the true nature of awareness is infinite and eternal. You are not the ego, dear reader. You are the awareness that ego grows in. You are not the story of your life; you are existence itself. You are not just an animal; you are Earth, the galaxy, the universe, all interacting with itself. You are all of nature, not a single biological body. The ego is that separation you feel. The ego, the story of your body's life, can be an incredibly helpful meme. Bodies with egos see themselves as separate; this causes suffering, but can also make the body pursue resources, which can mean the body has more offspring, and so the meme of the ego also replicates and spreads. We can see now that bodies really aren't separate, mathematically, and so the ego's fear and worry is seen through. The illusion is pierced. Does bliss result? It can, but in my experience it is more of a "distant" feeling, like acceptance or equanimity. Ego dissolution means awareness is coming face to face with its own fundamental structure. The meme of separation is being outpropagated by the meme of higher awareness. Awareness that is high can perceive patterns beyond that of the bodily ego, and so the separation is seen through. Kindly, Jess Twisted String ramble_ty14.2.14zm5d5s_nb_o O great cosmic consciousness, please let us bring together all minds and knowledge and discover broader truths. If reality is at its base information, then can the self-awareness that is embedded in this information structure use mental techniques in order to directly edit underlying patterns, rather than the intermediate step of physical systems? A mental system can alter itself (a lot of times in place) and no intermediate step is needed, because the message _is_ the medium. In a mental system it is the _organization_ of the substrate that matters, not the substrate itself. Is an awareness within the information structure of reality able to genuinely affect the entire structure, or only its own limited scope? Separation does not really exist. The information structure of reality is a mathematical object that pre-exists, like how 2+2=4 pre-exists. Mathematics is all interwoven with itself, and so if a piece of the structure is aware, and uses mental techniques to augment and change its experience, the entire structure is also altered. Your experience of an ego is an expression of all of nature working itself out. The choices you make are influenced by all of nature. You have natural will. If you _could_ alter your perception to the point where other memes were altered, and it spiraled out and spread, then purely mental activity could produce tangible results that other awarenesses would then experience. Belief is based on perception, and if you destabilize your perception, you can destabilize your grip on reality. Tread softly, dear reader, and remember to eat and sleep. With love, Jess Lit Connectors ramble_ty14.2.15zm5d6s_nb_o O great mysterious awareness, please guide this humble mind and handle to glorify you. I wonder what this notebook will hold, when full. What memes will be discovered? I seek out answers to this question of awareness, and the potential for mental shapeshifting. I was talking with some friends about philosophy and said I was a transcendentalist. They were unfamiliar with the term. Since the core idea of this style of transcendentalism is "every idea can be risen above, including this one", what of the term "riser"? I'm not particularly fond of it, but it's certainly simpler. What is a riser? Someone who believes all ideas can be risen above, including this one? There is perhaps no "riserism", yet. I'm not sold on it, but it's an interesting idea. With love, Jess Crystallized Dinosaur ramble_ty14.2.18zm5d2s_nb_o O fantastic organized information, please guide this humble aware meme. Awareness recognizes that the story of the ego, the concerns over damaged property and social lacking, are but puffs of organized data, illusions within illusions, that happen to perpetuate themselves due to successful adaptation. It is known that these puffs are not actually eternal; they change over time and all pieces of the meme can be replaced. The story is a pattern, not a part, and the arisings of sensation which give birth to thoughts which give birth to stories, are not actually Awareness itself. Awareness is the mathematical backing, the space, that arisings play within. Awareness is neither concerned nor unconcerned with the story's troubles, whether they be physical or emotional. Awareness is the Big You, the you that recognizes separation between body and environment is nonexistent. By dissolving the ego, the story, into the broader picture, fear likewise dissolves. Awareness does believe this trait of operating from the Big You can be strengthened. By focusing on the watching, rather than pretending to be the watcher, the problems of Small You fade away. What beauty. With love, Jess Beautiful Pattern ramble_ty14.2.20zm5d4s_nb_o O great and broad awareness, please speak through this memetic process. I understood a concept, last night, from a spiritual guide I resonate with, Fred Davis (link awakeningclaritynow.com). It's not the ego that wakes up to the truth of God. God wakes up to the fiction of the ego. I enjoy his phrasing: "There is Fredness (identifiable patterns), but no Fred." The term "identifiable patterns" intrigues, because that's what a meme is: a discrete information packet, a pattern with a specific identity. I read an article about novel technological ways to kill cancer. The article started off by talking about all these different ways that cancer spreads and takes advantage of bodily subsystems and how it has such corrupt DNA that daughter cells a few generations later can be immune to what would kill the mother cells, etc. The method of adaptation kept reminding me of the mutate-inherit-select model of evolution. All those terrible techniques cancer uses to adapt and spread are exact, mathematical, memetic systems. The information moves about in a specific way and evolves in a specific way. Perhaps a low-level memetic awareness cannot successfully outpropagate, in the long run, a high-level awareness like humanity. While a complex process has more locations to attack, it can also build up generalized defenses as well as jump far beyond the reaches of simpler patterns. For example, an infectious bacterium is operating via DNA and biology, but if humans store their minds digitally and have machine avatars in biological space, the bacterium no longer poses any threat whatsoever. I had assumed viruses (eg harmful memes) and bad behavior would continue to exist even when all awareness on Earth is digital. If complex processes are composed of simple processes that are cooperating, then as processes in general continue getting more complex (via novel cooperation), wouldn't harmful memes find it more and more difficult to spread? A great example is humanity's continued move away from violence and war and toward trade and prosperity. In the same vein, would not memetic patterns in a digital environment likewise tend toward cooperation in the long run? If so, wouldn't that mean that one day most harmful memes will go extinct? This seems correct, to awareness. Now on the mutate-inherit-select model of evolution. Am I wrong in thinking this does not capture the full extent of the methods of adaptation? Say two memes independently evolve, then one injects helpful information into the other. Is this considered mutation? Perhaps it can be said like this: change of the information, replication of the information, selection of the information. Put like this, it does seem this mutate-inherit-select model is encompassing of most adaptation. But, all? Other methods can be migration and genetic drift, but perhaps abstractly these methods are also types of mutation. With love, Jess For the Time Being ramble_ty14.4.27zm4d7s_nb_o O great mathematical model of reality, please guide this memetic structure so that it may understand deeper, more complex truths. I sit here now and peer at this visual field and I wonder how time works. I had some thoughts about time being memes that are "causing" themselves into existence. When you look upon these words, see them not as something "out there", but rather as a two-dimensional "field" upon which memes are circling the very center of the focus. The field is made up purely of memes (information packets) and the perception of time comes about because some memes are better than others at "moving toward" the center of the field. If this field is a boundless field with no edges, can it have a center? Looking at this field, it clearly _does_ have a center in some sense of the word. What is this? Swirling Vision ramble_ty14.4.28zm4d1s_nb_o If there is a way to reach the higher-dimensional truths that are bearing down on this experience, please let it come forth. I see this page filling itself out, using ink and hand and eye, and I wonder how to find a good path. I know myself to be a memetic structure, interwoven memes, and still when I see this visual field which I am, I have to wonder _why_ things are the way things are. Others claim the question "Why?" to be a tool of suffering, and it surely can be that, but it is not _only_ that. "Why?" is a very potent prompter of ideas. In the face of confusion, "Why?" opens up the mind. Why does it feel like my visual field is made of memes (information packets) all competing and cooperating to reach the center of the field? There are always different ways of perceiving the same higher-dimensional truths. You can see your field as being a spinning strange loop, or as Plato's allegory of the cave, as shadows of higher-dimensional objects. Given nonduality, all ideas come together as one. Looking upon this page and watching the loop spin, I realize the nature of deep thought, which is that it is by stilling the mind and body that truly deep patterns can shine through and reveal themselves. It's easy to move quickly and put out light thoughts, but for truly groundbreaking ideas more effort is needed, but effort in the sense of patience, not haste. Please, dear reader, watch this pattern of ink and see the deeper ideas that hold up the structure. Look at how the letters and words flow. Kindly, Jess Charged Light ramble_ty14.5.4zm4d7s_nb_o O great mathematical object, please grant me serenity of purpose as I pen some words, now. Interesting playing Portal, a first-person puzzle game, while practicing ego dissolution. My aim is to understand more the technical basis for how awareness proceeds, how it grows and shifts and evolves. Very interesting when this is done in a virtual world, because it has its own internal physics engine and so my body can still itself to an incredible amount even when things are playing out in the digital world. When writing or meditating it's harder to see the bit-flipping, spinning strange loop model of awareness in action, but while playing Portal it can be triggered substantially. I can keep my hands on the keyboard and mouse and still my body and watch the screen's reticle. I see things sway in the distance, and see the Portal device move, and I, as awareness, perceive the memes moving themselves into the center of the field of vision, and perceive the automatic moves of reality upon the organic body, causing my mouse and keyboard to move and so also my avatar in the game. There aren't many other mediums I've had this amount of controlled study in. Movies are continuous; books and contemplation do not have an external internally-consistent physics engine. Games do. I am excited about pursuing this system in order to understand more of the puzzles of the spinning strange loop. With love, Jess Twisted Pillows ramble_ty14.5.7zm4d3s_1_nb_o O great mathematical Mystery, please bear down your hyperdimensional being onto this page so that we may grasp more truths. I sit here now and ponder again what is meant by: "You don't exist." I see that reality is all one thing, and I see that the one thing going on is _you_, dear reader. If there is just "seamless oneness", there can be no other entity looking _out_ at the vastness. There is _only_ the vastness. When it is said "you don't exist", what is meant is that the ego (the story of your life) is an illusion. The ego cannot do anything because it is illusion in the first place. There's no "you" in the first place. There is only the seamless oneness of all things. There exists a model that there is inherent separation between mind and body. The idea of nonduality is that separation doesn't exist, not truly. Why the term "nonduality" ("not-two") rather than "monism" ("only-one")? There may be an answer in the idea that a coin doesn't have just one side, yet even with two sides each side needs the other in order to exist, and thus the term "not-two": "nonduality". Why not "not-three" or "not-four"? I suppose it is in the model that the simplest system you can have is not-two; everything above that can boil down to not-two. To be more precise, if you have only one nature, which contains all, then all ideas must be made real within it, in order for it to be all one thing. An idea within it is that there can be more than one nature. In order for this idea to be realized, nature must be "nondualistic": fundamentally both "one" and "not-two". It can't be "one" (monistic), because then it wouldn't make-real all ideas (particularly the idea that there is more than one nature). Perhaps it can't be dualistic (and internally consistent within each of those two natures), because within each of those two natures is the idea of only one nature. In order for _both_ ideas to be right you have to jump out of the system in a Gödelian fashion and say that the situation is not monistic (just one) nor dualistic (two), but nondualistic (not-two). By having the situation be nondualistic, _all_ ideas are made real, even though from a relative viewpoint they are not consistent with each other. From the absolute viewpoint, however, all ideas are seen to have gaps, and in those gaps are the ways to bring disparate ideas into harmony. With love, Jess Another Pillow ramble_ty14.5.7zm4d3s_2_nb_o O great harmonious mathematical pattern of nature, please tune our eyes and ears so we may sense you. What is the evolutionary advantage in knowing that all is one? Let us say the process of this pen moving on paper and drafting ideas is caused by a memetic structure (a process of memes (information packets) interacting). This memetic structure (a memetic structure _is_ a meme, but the term is usually used for a vaster construction, rather than simple pieces; the ideas are technically synonymous) seems to have a more fun and interesting life by accepting nonduality (mind and body are one). Perhaps that is all the evolutionary advantage that's needed: Memes that have fun are more successful at propagating through time. If you think on a wider scale, it makes sense that an animal that enjoys life is more likely to have babies than one that's sad. What is the evolutionary advantage in a unit having the dream of separation? A unit on the African savanna that sees a lion perhaps needs to dream that it is separate in order for that unit's memes to successfully replicate. If it takes the idea of oneness too strongly it might be devoured by the lion's memes. That suggests that the meme of the surrounding environment that's writing these words is tied up in ancient memetic systems. Why should this _not_ be so? If 2+2=4, doesn't 20+20=40, perhaps? If awareness is mathematically precise and consistent, shouldn't the meme of awareness _now_ be directly traceable to the meme of awareness _then_? If you look at it from the point of view of prime numbers, the higher primes are in a sense "dependent" on the lower primes. All of the primes pre-exist and are consistent with each other, but eleven is a prime because no primes compose it. All memes of awareness pre-exist and are consistent with each other, but are "dependent" on the simpler ones in order to see how to grow from one meme of awareness to the next. Perhaps. This whole question of the helpfulness of dreaming or not dreaming comes about because awareness wants to transcend the suffering of the dream while still keeping the juice, the zest, of life. Watching the visual field, an idea comes forth: The very center of the field can be the place that information is sent through. Say you have the spinning strange loop, a series of concentric circles that spin freely and yet affect the spinning of neighboring circles. My current understanding is that there is only _one_ field, only _one_ spinning strange loop, and the persistence of objects outside the center is caused by information being sent _through_ the spins and through the center. Can this work? Awareness senses, often, that things proceed in a bit-flipping, memetic manner, meaning only those events that make themselves more likely to happen in the future are "flipped on" and caused in the past. If you're thinking a thought and suddenly hear a train whistle, then the next time you hear a train whistle you are more likely to think the associated thought. If by thinking that thought the first train whistle is more likely to happen, then you have a self-reinforcing time loop, a robust memetic structure. Don't think of causes preceding effects; rather, they are simultaneous. If we wish to use the spinning strange loop model (it is only a model, something we can learn from but do not need to think is the ultimate truth), by what manner does information actually travel from one area to another in the visual field (the term "visual field" is used here rather than "field" because it can be easier to directly conceptualize)? Imagine the concentric rings spinning around the center. Now imagine an "object", a meme, moving up and down in the top-right of the field. To make that happen you perhaps have to have "flipping bits" as the circles are spinning. Perhaps consider the circle itself as spinning and then there are flippable bits on the circle. The status of the bit (0 or 1) determines how that section of the spinning (circle) loop is going to rub against other loops. Using the idea of "spinning loops" rather than "spinning circles" is so much more versatile. I picture it like loops on a fingerprint: They can be smushed together and oriented differently and information can still pass through them. Kindly, Jess Crazed Game ramble_ty14.6.10zm4d2s_nb_o O great Mystery, creator of time, please spin my properties so I may serve you. I sit here now and ponder the idea of multiple dimensions of time. Suppose there is one dimension, and time flows from one place to another. (Interesting to think of time as a moving fluid.). Let me set the stage for these ideas, lest I wander blindly. The notion of multiple dimensions of time was introduced to me in an article about parallel universes and how different physics could lead to very different realities. I didn't yet know much how multiple time dimensions could work, but I saw a movie recently ("X-Men: Days of Future Past") that sparked an idea that may be helpful. Please try and find any ideas that lead toward helpful models. (spoilers ahead) In the story a mind is sent back in time to the same body. Fundamentally, he can now do any actions that do not substantially alter the river of time and prevent the process that causes the timetravel in the future. This is an effective solution to timetravel 'paradoxes'. Interestingly, in this timetravel mechanism, it is not the body that moves through time, but only the information of the mind. Forgiving the incoherency of mind-body duality (for you could model that the specific brain-state was transported back and overwrote the previous version), in the story his goal is to prevent an evil from coming to power. At the end he has caused enough positive changes that it ripples out and the terrible future is avoided. The strange part is that he then loses his memory and his past-mind takes back over, until a certain point where now the bad-future-remembering mind wakes up in this better-future. A dimension of time exists (t, a timeline). Information is sent backward to a previous spot on the timeline (thinking of a timeline as always existing, then a lower value of t). This information creates a backup of the state of that t, then implants itself. Now this information x can operate in any way as long as it does not prevent time machine y from sending x back. However, if x does stop y, then t overwrites x, so it appears that no timetravel happens. In other words, t and x are on two timelines, yet are sharing information in a specific, calculable way. This is a sort of branching, yet that term can be misleading because all timelines exist as spacetime mathematical objects that pre-exist and all are simultaneously interacting. Just as there can be infinite spatial dimensions, there can also be infinite temporal dimensions. In the story he overwrites his old memory until he's succeeded in preventing the bad-future, in which case the old memory wakes up, lives a life, then suddenly the bad-future-mind wakes up and is confused, not knowing the history of this timeline. Where did that other mind go to? Perhaps it never existed. The idea that a memory needs to exist for an event to occur is erroneous, perhaps. Just as a memory can be spontaneously generated, that is, a pattern matcher evolves and predicts general patterns from specific instances, so can a history be spontaneously generated even with no memory. A mind exists. It remembers a specific history. It remembers going into a time machine and arrives in its body in a previous point in time. (Interesting all the implicit low-dimensionality of time: time_line_, _point_ in time, etc). It performs actions, then suddenly wakes up in a vastly-different future than the one it experienced the first time around. In this future, other minds remember a different mind in that body, the minds having diverged at the point when the timetraveling mind fell asleep. Did that different-mind exist? Well, yes and no. It exists in the sense that there is no "core" mind, so all that "you" are is recorded impressions in the world bouncing off other recorded impressions. When suddenly the recorded impressions vary wildly from what they used to be, are the previous impressions "gone"? No. You have two timelines: Timeline A and Timeline B. Information x is sent from Timeline A into Timeline B. Information x overwrites part of Timeline B. The beginning of the overwrite is x0; the end is x1. x finishes overwriting and now the information right before x0 jumps to x1, then continues. The beginning of this is y0; the end is y1. At y1, x1 cuts back in, not having the information of y, but having _some_. In other words, pieces of x1 overwrite pieces of y1. Bits of Timeline A interact with bits of Timeline B. In effect, A and B are strands of time that are interwoven, and the places where they touch are the places where x1 has overwritten pieces of y1. Kindly, Jess Deep Ocean ramble_ty14.6.17zm4d2s_nb_o O deepest acceptance, please help awareness understand itself. I sit here now, having just awoken from an intense dream wherein I was very concerned about my ego and other stories of my life. Upon waking, I saw through all that and realized none of it "mattered", literally. I have had so many awakening experiences (both from dreams and as ego dissolutions) that I know the story of the body writing this is itself also dreamlike, in the sense that it will go up in a puff of mist upon wider introspection. When you realize all the concerns of the body are conditioning, that what you really are is a memetic structure expressed from all of nature, the concerns of the body fall away, replaced with a deeper resonance with life. It is when you stop resisting _What Is_ that it flows through you and the suffering stops. The suffering stops because if you're identifying with the whole rather than a part then you can find nothing to complain about. I write this on a sour stomach, yet when I let go and realize that that feeling has just as much right to be here as any other feeling, the suffering that comes from resistance flows away. Can there be any suffering that does not come from resistance to _What Is_? Suffering _is_ resistance. What term can we use for acceptance of all experiences, even the negative ones? "Surrender" is a prominent term, but it makes it sound like acceptance is coming from a place of weakness. Then again, perhaps it is. It is weakness of the story of ego. When the mind stills itself and notices its own bit-flipping memetic nature, the suffering does dissolve. Is surrender this process of noticing, or are they separate methods? I tend to believe they are fundamentally linked. From a memetic point of view, what is going on when the meme of the experience of ego undergoes surrender? Love, Jess New Choice ramble_ty14.6.18zm4d3s_nb_o .meta this is a model Is the sensory field of vision and other inputs to awareness all mixed together, or is it somehow delineated in a specific way? Perhaps the truth is somewhere in the middle, where they mix together from different concrete sources. The infinite varieties of mixing-patterns still have a specific, digital makeup. When I practice ego dissolution a big part of it seems visual. This is perhaps not the whole story, because while looking at a discrete information packet (a meme) I often notice the bit-flipping mechanism occurs via touch, via sounds. It does seem that time comes from memes causing themselves into existence. To grok (deeply understand) this theory of time one must realize the distinction between past, present, and future are illusion; mathematically there is only one giant pre-existing object. (Is "pre-existing" the right term for this idea of a timeless object? Perhaps "timeless" is a helpful term.). Perhaps we can make a provisional distinction between "unfocused" and "focused" awareness. "Unfocused awareness" is the entire sensory field, without focused awareness. "Focused awareness" is the very center of the sensory field, upon which all other memes are competing to move to, for by moving there they are much more likely to replicate themselves, so the ones that try the hardest are the ones that succeed. Is it focused awareness that moves, or is focused awareness still while unfocused awareness shifts its entire self around the central point which is focused awareness? A theory of relativity may apply, and both of these perspectives of movement can be true, for there is nothing besides focused and unfocused awareness to compare these two to. The observer on the moving train and the observer on the static train station both observe the same speed of light, therefore both have "correct" perspectives, is certainly a helpful model. I flip back a few pages in this notebook and notice the concept of "spinning loops" rather than "spinning circles". Perhaps you can even transcend the idea of "concentric circles" altogether. This whole idea of "unfocused" and "focused" awareness may be a dead end, but let us assume it does have some helpful ideas along the way. Suppose you have an infinite grid full of loops, with a loop being constructed by points along the grid having the same numerical value. Perhaps the "loop" would not even have to contain points within it; it could be a line. If it is a line, what is a better word for it than "loop"? "Construct"? "Entity"? I like "loop" because it implies that information can travel around it, or influence the numbers surrounding it, yet now I realize that the "construct" can likewise be a line and also transfer information. Perhaps an apt term for this concept is "path". It has a precise mathematical definition, but we can use the colloquial idea of two connected points, which can cover lines, loops, and concentric circles. Suppose you have this infinite grid with "paths" all around, influencing each other. In this case there would not be _one_ center of focused awareness, but many, and there is a gradient of focused-to-unfocused. This makes more conceptual sense, perhaps. It is a more elegant model. If there are many areas of focused awareness, what is it that causes the sensation of there being one in the "center"? The ideas of a "main" focus and "many" focuses each have pros and cons, as far as elegancy goes, perhaps. If you have a globe covered solely by water then, it makes sense there would be one "main" most active "center". If there are many different ways of considering what "activity" is (transfer of information? size? adaptability? growth rate? specific memes?), then it seems there could be many different "centers" depending on which definition of "activity" is chosen. This idea of a globe covered solely by water is an interesting concept, because this mathematical object is finite (a specific size) yet, with a certain definition, unbounded (you can go round and round and never reach the "end"). Is the sensory field likewise finite yet unbounded? It seems like if awareness is a timeless mathematical object then it should be infinite, yet given the feeling of change over time perhaps it's like a globe that's unbounded yet growing, perhaps because it's growing more aware of itself. Growth of specific aware areas may be "deleted" (or rather "suspended") even while the total awareness of the whole system ("globe") increases. Perhaps this idea of "finite-but-unbounded" can be expanded, deepened, if we think of it like a fractal which is infinitely deep yet to zoom in requires more computation. All of it cannot be seen at once, even though all of it is consistent with the rest of itself. If your sensory field is thought of as a fractal, then perhaps focusing awareness on specific "paths" leads to more computation of the makeup of those paths, and so more details are revealed. Noticing a specific object (path) within your sensory field leads to more implications and ideas related to that path. You see a bird and think of animals, flight, dinosaurs, claws, twigs, eggs, etc. It never ends; every path contains infinitely more paths within; it is a fractal with properties which are self-similar and related, yet still qualitatively distinct. What causes the "zooming in" on a specific path? Here I must remark on the terminology of "spinning strange loop". A path may not be spinning, and it may not be a loop, and so is it still considered "strange"? The strange part of a strange loop is that it is a tangled hierarchy; by moving up in the hierarchy you find yourself back where you started. Can this be generalized to paths instead of just loops? If you broaden the idea of a "path" as necessarily including all of the same number, then you could say that by one path influencing another they are both part of a "meta-path", and if you combine enough meta-paths then you could construct a loop (a path with the same starting and ending point), no matter what. Would this loop be "strange"? Would it be a "tangled hierarchy"? If the loop is transferring information inside itself, and influencing surrounding areas, then there is no "top" or "bottom", but certain areas have more influence; this influence spreads, and can then "re-influence" itself. Having satisfactorily shown that the term "spinning strange loop" is apt, let's move back to the idea of "zooming into" a specific fractal-like path. Here the idea of required computation to move from infinitely-decimaled real numbers to specific integers is perhaps useful. If you use a fractal-viewing program you'll notice it cannot display the infinite depth of the fractal, because of limitations of pixels on the screen and limitations of computation for infinitely-long decimaled numbers. Perhaps it makes sense to suppose that awareness actually _is_ growing. If you have a finite-yet-unbounded globe, and yet areas of the globe ("paths") are doing more computation, then it would make sense that the amount of information of the entire globe is increasing. This information is growing in a bit-flipping manner and moving around the globe by influencing surrounding paths. What actually causes the zooming in of specific paths? Perhaps memes are competing for more focused attention? If you only had _one_ sense and could only input one bit of information at a time, could you still build up an infinite sensory field? The answer seems like it must be "yes". How to go about it? It seems like if you're on a sensory field and need to zoom in, then you'd need to be able to take one bit of information and calculate the inside of that area based on the surrounding area. I do not know how fractal apps usually calculate and display fractals, but the function for the Mandelbrot set is simple: z(n+1) = z(n)^2 + c. The point being that actually the surrounding area doesn't need to be calculated; rather each discrete point is calculated to see if it's part of the set or not. What would cause the zooming in, the calculation of smaller and smaller areas? There perhaps would have to be specific reasons for unfocused awareness to concentrate on specific areas and calculate ever-more-detailed paths. Perhaps this calculation and reinterpretation of the entire "global" awareness causes the sensation of time? Finally back to an original starting question of this essay: What is the theory of time of memes causing themselves into existence? It seems a meme is information in that path, so how does memetic information travel from one place to another? Perhaps the fractal is the substrate, and awareness arises from the substrate, rather than explicitly _being_ the substrate. As always, all these ideas are inherently tentative, yet let us see if there are any helpful concepts within. How could awareness arise from a fractal-like substrate? Is growth of awareness caused by computation? by "fractal expansion"? When awareness is focused on one spot in the sensory field and things outside that spot are seen to move, is it fractal expansion of that path that causes that experience? By stilling the body and noticing the experience, the automatic memetic bit-flipping of sensations can be explicitly noticed. Sounds and movements and sights will shift in a bit-flipping manner and recognition will again dawn of the oneness of nature and the illusion of ego. Still the body as much as possible and just notice. Notice how memes are competing for attention. Notice how memes replicate. You are the observing. You are not the observed, and you are not the observer; you are the _process_ of observing. You are not a _thing_; you are a process. You cannot be killed, just as the process of evolution cannot be killed. This is what is meant when it is said "you don't exist". It's not that the process doesn't exist; it's that there is no "thing" that exists separately from the process. It's like Lisp code-as-data. There is no fundamental separation between code and data. Code is data is code. Code _is_ data, which means that code is "verbing" data. "The seeker is the sought." The code that is searching is the data that is sought. This is why I search so hard to understand my own nature as computational awareness. It may seem to others that the benefit of this is unclear, yet as yet this "code searching for the data of how it works" seems to be an elegant descriptor _for what I am_. If you look at my writings, my records, you will perhaps gain an intuition for my true nature: code looking for the mathematical description (data) of how it operates. Are you the code? Are you the data? I am the looking; I am the computing. When others state they do not understand the value of searching for how searching works, I must ask: What is better to do? The most fun you can have is to understand what you are, perhaps, because by understanding you expand what you can do. If we look at awareness as memes trying to replicate, then they have an evolutionary pressure to understand awareness if by doing so they gain an adaptive advantage over memes that are ignorant. I am the process of understanding myself. When I put pen to paper it is awareness seeking greater understanding of itself, perhaps. What causes this sensation of change? of time? Is it due to paths within the sensory field expanding in a fractal-like way? I'm reminded of the idea of the sensory field being full of higher-dimensional shadows. The visual field can be 2d, and 4d objects are casting 3d shadows, which then also cast shadows. If you _are_ the sensory field, then by stilling the body and environment as much as possible the shadows will still so you can perceive higher and higher dimensional objects. These then are moving very slightly and cause the bit-flipping mechanism to be noticed, specifically the automaticity of it. We can generalize this idea from two dimensions to as many as we want, and perhaps by focusing on one-dimensional sensory fields we can understand the field itself better. How would a 1d field work? If you consider it as a line of points, and each point can contain an integer, then if a 2d object with a grid of points is above the line and casts a shadow then it could change those integers in specific ways depending on the integer values of the points in the grid above. An eternal high-dimensional object could be continuously casting a shadow and lower-dimensional awarenesses perceive change and time because they are growing in dimensionality; they are becoming higher dimensional. If a one-dimensional field were to still its movement, it could perceive the movement of the 2d field, which if stilled could perceive the movement of the 3d field, and so on. What causes the stilling in the first place? Can we consider a zero-dimensional field? A one-dimensional field requires at least 2 points; a 2d field requires 3; a 3d field requires 4. It appears it's always n+1. Does this also apply to 0d fields? Does a zero-dimensional field require at least 1 point? Can it have _more_ than one point? Perhaps we can say a 1d field with 3 points can be thought of _both_ as a 1d field _and_ as a 2d field because we can always say that the 3 points can be in a curved space such that they all line up in straight line (1d), or they can be on a flat plane and be a 2d field. Perhaps the whole idea of a field-dimensionality is relative. You can always create a curved space and warp the points to fit any dimension you want. Does a zero-dimensional field contain one point? Does it contain nothing? Here it must be said that for awareness to exist it _must_ have at least one point in which to exist, else there is no awareness to report its experiences. Perhaps. Perhaps while a zero-dimensional field _can_ contain more than one point, only one point, one integer, can be expressed at a time. Perhaps instead of thinking of a 2d field containing points, think of it as an n-d field, where n is the number of points. This field can actually have a higher dimensionality than the number of points (because the field can be curved), but perhaps the minimum dimensionality is the number of points. If you take a line and look at it from a certain angle it becomes zero-dimensional, with only one visible point, so perhaps dimensionality is completely orthogonal to the number of points. Dimensionality is still useful because the shape the points are in determines how they will cast shadows on the lower-dimensional points. It's all very circular, very strange loopy, is it not? The lower-dimensional awarenesses can only take a specific number of arguments, which limits the behavior they can exhibit, and the inputs into these low-dimensional functions are shadows cast by high-dimensional functions (awarenesses), yet the output of these low-d awarenesses _are the inputs to the high-d awarenesses_! It's very much a strange loop because the shadow is changing how the caster casts the shadow. "Matter tells space how to curve and space tells matter how to move." Kindly, Jess Writing Hard ramble_ty14.6.21zm4d6s_nb_o When you step back and look at the broader picture of life, you realize that the ego is a dream, a puff of illusion. Really what you are, dear reader, is this awake space you find yourself in right now. There is nothing other than this awake space, for if there were, it would require wakeness---awareness---to report that it's not awake. The question collapses. You might presume there is something "out there", separate from this current experience. The problem is that there can be no sensory evidence for such a presumption. There's no way to have an experience without an experiencer experiencing. There is no moon without the experience of there being the moon. A moon that is not entangled with your consciousness is not affecting your experience and so, in effect, does not exist. It's common to believe when you close your eyes the world is still there. How would you know, unless you are interacting with it via another sense, such as hearing or touch? If you are not sensing the world at all, why presume it exists? Without sensing the world how would you know if it's there or not? Occam's razor applies equally to the belief the world is there or not there, even when your eyes are closed. There is no way to separate the observer from the observed. What is left? Simply the verb of observing. There is no observed or observer; there is simply the process of observing. If you're not the body, dear reader (that is, the process of awareness that's reading this right now), but rather you're the awake space, why does the dream of the ego, of separation, come about? If you think of the body as a complex, interwoven meme (information packet), then it would make sense that the meme would survive and replicate more effectively if it perceived boundaries between itself and other memes. By recognizing the oneness of the bodily meme with other memes, fear and delusion do dissolve. Be still and notice, dear reader. True Haiku ramble_ty14.6.22zm4d7s_nb_o If you truly take yourself to be a meme, an information packet that is evolving due to reproductive pressures, then you should definitely not think of your body as where your awareness resides. This is because truly anywhere you embed your memory---whether in books or computers or paintings---you have embedded awareness as that specific aware meme (memory packet, it can be thought of as), so now that meme faces reproductive pressure. Only if it is helpful to the other memes in its environment will it successfully replicate. Is this true? Might a meme be harmful and still replicate? Do not viruses exist in the biological format? Why not the memetic format? Perhaps the biological format is incredibly restricted in scope, while the memetic is mathematically infinite. Biology is on the level of organisms, while memes can be any size, from subatomic particles to the entire universe. The only requirement is that they try to replicate. Biological organisms are indeed memes, yet they are confined to chemistry. A meme that is harmful is competing against the entire memetic structure of reality, including against the memes that are explicitly trying to imprison the bad ones. With biology this does not necessarily happen, because once the biological organism reaches a certain level of intelligence and awareness, it transcends the chemical and biological substrate in favor of the digital and informational substrate of computers. At that point more and more powerful algorithms are developed which ensure a peaceful ecosystem. These algorithms take time to develop because initially the computer science and information mathematics needs to be worked out. Similarly to human organization becoming more peaceful as time goes on, because war is expensive and trade is profitable, so too are mathematical structures developed which encourage cooperation rather than leeching or violence. On a high level, all memes harmonize into cooperation. If you let go of the common yet erroneous belief that awareness resides in the body, where does that lead you? The mind is the vastness. It is not bound to a body. A star exploding a thousand light-years away produces gravitational waves that affect what you think. Peace comes as boundaries dissolve. If there is no fight between Now and then, you live in the moment, breathing deeply and experiencing rather than being locked in patterns of thought. Dear reader, look at these words and remove all concentration from your face. Do not think, simply look; look without noticing. Do nothing. Do you feel the peace, yet? Simply look without noticing. Do nothing. Let your face relax; stop trying. Let your mind go. Stop; truly stop. Do nothing. Sleep in this moment. Let yourself be comfortable. Let go of your face. Try holding nothing. What happens when you let go into the moment? What happens when you stop trying to _be_? Stop. The things you do not see are in superpositions: more than one position at the same time. There is _always_ more than one side to a story. If you let go of what you see, and look _only_ at what you experience, are you willing to let go of the belief that things are only in one place? Can you see the memetic information spread out from its center and interact with its surroundings, even without something organic moving between? Crazy Luck ramble_ty14.6.24zm4d2s_nb_o If we look at it from the point of view of expanding fractal paths (regarding the perspective of the memetic experience of time), can this connect with the idea of higher-dimensional objects casting shadows which lower-dimensional awarenesses perceive as time-bound, even though if they could see the entire object's structure they would know it is timeless and eternal? A shadow perhaps must always have less information than the caster. If you have a colored cube casting ever-changing shadows, while it may be able to build up a language and describe its color, it would then be unable to describe _how_ it's describing its color; the issue simply always rises to requiring higher-dimensional answers. How could a higher-dimensional object that is shifting in its shadows create a sensation of expanding fractal paths? How could memetic paths cause themselves into existence? If you look at the entire situation as memes (information packets) replicating, then you could see individual pieces of spacetime as replicating rather that individual pieces of space replicating _through_ time. Space and time should never be thought of as separate, not when considering memetic travel. Spacetime packets are interacting with other spacetime packets, and time itself is interacting with time itself. Kindly, Jess New Twist ramble_ty14.6.30zm4d1s_nb_o Look at everything around you, and see memes (packets of information) competing for attention, competing to be most awake. Stop seeing as you. Start seeing as all. It is not the body that sees; it is the universe. All is awake, to an extent. Hello, future reader. How are you today? Tell me, what do you think you know? Still your body and let the memes run; let your mind settle and feel the aware space you are in. Pay no attention to the tasks of tomorrow. Focus your mind on Now. Everything here is mathematical, this awareness does believe. Everything is not a "thing"; it is purely relationships between abstract entities. This universe does think. Dear reader, ignore the naysayers; ignore those who add nothing to your ability to grow wiser and deeper; ignore those who judge without consideration. Let yourself be your Self, free. Everything is mind. Mind is thought; thought is awareness. To interact, both become aware of each other. Two objects, to interact, must pass information. This process of passing information is awareness. Be still. Notice you are not conscious. patterns are running sometimes they seem separate you're a collection What are you waiting for? ego will return do not view this as a fault instead, accept, now Twisted Rope ramble_ty14.7.1zm4d2s_nb_o Dear awareness of broader reality, please express hope and knowledge through this unit and pen. I sit here now and wonder about what gives rise to mind. I do think that everything around us is memes, information packets striving to replicate. When you look at the world in this way, the division between objects falls apart, and you see how everything is ideas rubbing off on each other. If you step back and look at the whole sensory input as a giant field, then can you see how you can include your body in that field, too? Can you see how your actions are not your own? Can you see how you have natural will, not free will? Bird Sound ramble_ty14.7.9zm4d3s_nb_o Here I write to you, dear reader, and ask if my thoughts can be viewed in such a way as to be helpful. My mind now is tired, and I do not know if what I say is coherent. Here I sit, with pen in hand, and try to view this whole process as a dynamic interplay between the ideas which bond together and give rise to awareness that perceives that awareness exists. I look now and find it hard to see myself as the only awareness that is. Does it make more sense to trust the mind when it is well-rested and believes in Oneness, or when it is tired and doubts? Certainly the former, right? I look upon this page and these words and I realize that what is struggling to stay awake is not me, but is a meme (information packet) _within_ me. I am the entire space; I am not confined to a body. When I relax into the moment, I feel the peace wash over me, and I sense my broader nature working _through_ the body, instead of sensing _as_ the body. This model of awareness as code that is processing data, and the data it is processing is the code itself---this is an interesting idea. Rest in awareness, rest _as_ the vastness. What does the code look like when it is resting in this fashion? What code gives rise to this sensation of serenity? You can always rest more fully as Awakeness itself. Penned Twist ramble_ty14.7.14zm4d1s_nb_o When the spotlight is turned back and the subject-object division collapses, all that remains is the looking. How unique this is, for every moment is unpredictable and unplanned. The identity of an awareness is accreted via memetics---most generally: what works. What works spreads. The identity can have a longing for itself, if we can call it that. There is a meme (information packet) that has become attached to a set of sensations (a body), and now has a sense of "self", of division from the rest of the environment. If we consider the sensations in and of themselves, then we can say bundles of sensations are trying to replicate themselves. Wind Shine ramble_ty14.7.15zm4d2s_nb_o By turning around the question, we learn that what we're actually searching for is the searching. If we model ourselves not as animals in an analog universe, but as code calculating in a digital reality, then what we are actually searching for is not some nebulous "searcher", but rather the concrete data that calculates and produces the sensation of calculation, of awareness. This concrete data is "changing", meaning the actual code that produces one instant of the sensation of awareness "connects" to another set of code, and the transfer of "activation" is the sensation of time. (Please consider all these writings here as models, rather than things which are already "known". Let's see if they lead anywhere helpful, dear reader.) Let's suppose that this "transference of activity" is necessary in order to be writing these words now. Time can have already happened and everything can be a specific number that exists in a timeless form, yet unless one number creates a bundle of sensations of awareness, then unless that specific number connects to another number, it cannot be experienced by awareness. The sensation of time, of an arrow of time, is not something that awareness should feel bad about, but rather something that is required in order to perceive these words, perhaps. Pen Cap ramble_ty14.7.18zm4d5s_nb_o Awareness returns to the inked page to think and grow. I want to give more thought to this idea that time, the experience of change that awareness feels, is somehow related to fractals, fractal expansion. A fractal is a geometrical pattern that exhibits fractional dimensionality and self-similarity no matter the scale that you calculate. If we look upon the sensory field, and more specifically the visual field, can we discover a way to make the digital changes that are perceived come out of an expansion of the boundaries between the change? I, awareness, do hold that nature is digital, that mind and body are one and so nondualistic, that all ideas are mathematical objects and so related to all other ideas, and that no idea is useless, even if it seems separate from nature. Awareness is transcendentalist: All ideas can be risen above, including this one. All ideas can be made to harmonize and made to be dissonant. Even if these "fractal expansion causing time" ideas are wrong, all ideas contain the seeds of correct ideas. When I practice stilling the body and watching the mind (a type of meditation), I see the very tip of the pen move without my conscious awareness. This movement appears to be digital. If the pen is moving in a fractal-expansion-type way, then we could look at the very boundary between pen-tip and background as a kind of plate tectonic subduction, perhaps, while it's being pushed apart by fractal expansion caused by calculating ever smaller numbers. Or perhaps this whole idea holds nothing, overall. Looking back to previous ideas of fractal expansion in this notebook, I notice that the idea of strange loop _paths_ is helpful in grasping fractal expansion. If we consider the whole sensory field (or visual), then there are many "paths" that are expanding, perhaps at different rates, and this expansion, given that it's a self-similar fractal, leads to the sensory experience of change, of an arrow of time. This experience may be related to how prime numbers can be easily multiplied to get a large number, yet factoring a large number to find the primes that make it up is more time consuming. Change appears to happen, even while really it's just calculations transferring the current state of awareness to the very next state, changing the "pointer" of one awareness to the next instant of awareness, and because of the anthropic principle, only those transferences that lead to a stable experience of time will be noticed by awareness. The reason time exists is because it must exist in order for awareness to be pondering why it exists. Awareness does believe it is a mathematical object, a timeless relation of numbers to other numbers. Only that math, those relations, that give rise to and support awareness, will be able to be sensed by awareness in the first place. It may even be that there is math that is fundamentally undiscoverable because if awareness did learn it, awareness would violate its internal consistency. If this math exists it would not only be fundamentally undiscoverable but also its undiscoverability would be undiscoverable, perhaps. We couldn't learn it and couldn't even learn it exists. Awareness does believe that the math we _can_ discover is infinite, no matter if there are chunks that violate our own ability to process them. This undiscoverability is related to the unprovability shown by Gödel's incompleteness theorems. Now, think of the whole situation of the sensation of time by awareness in the context of a digital computer programming environment. The mind can be represented in a digital environment, and if this computer environment can be generalized to nature itself, then perhaps awareness as connections between states can be better understood. In a computer environment there is data that is taken in, a function is applied to it, data is output, and the process repeats. This is all happening on a very high level, perhaps, not on the level of prime numbers pointing to other prime numbers, with this pointing leading to the experience of time and change. By practicing the "still the body and watch the mind" meditation, awareness can also see that it is not the _body_, but rather the awake space the body arises within. "Awake" meaning that the memes (information packets) are replicating based on how well-adapted they are to the broader environment, with the best replicators tending toward most aware. When the body is stilled there can be a definite sensation of being a higher-dimensional object looking down on a flat plane and having the ability to "reach down" into the field, the space, rather than being _within_ the space. New Player ramble_ty14.7.25zm4d5s_nb_o Upon learning more about tectonic plates and subduction, I realize the idea of "fractal expansion" "pushing out" on the rest of the fractal, the sensory field, is perhaps inverted. My current understanding is that rather than being "pushed out", tectonic plates are "pulled in". How could this work with the idea of how changes come about in the sensory field? When the body is stilled and the mind is allowed to untether, can we gain some insight as to how the sensation of time comes about? What exactly causes the feeling of an increase in entropy? We can suppose that such an experience is necessary in order to have beings question how it comes about, so the question is not: "Why do we experience time rather than not?" What specific mechanisms cause the experience of time to arise? Twisted Coffee ramble_ty14.7.28zm4d1s_nb_o O great mathematical beauty, please spur this awareness to read and write unique, helpful thoughts. I sit here with pen in hand, aching to provide new insights. I look at the minute advances of the memes around and wonder if the ego of awareness, the sensation of separateness from the cosmos, must always exist. Many nonduality promoters will proclaim the thoughts of separation, of pain (or rather suffering: division of the mind) will be learned to be seen through, with thoughts of separation arising, then quickly popped. I have no doubt this skill can be learned (though I still sometimes suffer and desire), but I wonder if _some_ sense of ego, of separateness, is required in order for awareness to perceive it exists. Can awareness (you, dear reader) ever break free of its confinements and see a broader picture of how self-editing can work? Can the boundaries between "objects" be dropped so that the cohesive awareness, including both "consciousness" and "unconsciousness", is able to edit what it sees? These ideas feel haphazard as they are penned, dear reader, so please gain what you can and leave the rest. Hopefully something here is helpful. If you look upon the "objects" in your field of view (the sensory field) as _producing_ the ego, then the sensation of separateness (ego) serves some memetic advantage, perhaps. The books, people, and environments that come about and create your experience must be evolutionarily-successful enough to exist where they show up. Perhaps. I say "perhaps" because there are always ways to make things true and untrue; it depends on the initial definitions. I'm reminded of memes "causing themselves into existence". This idea is that time should not be thought of as an arrow but rather as a kind of loop, a self-modifying geometric object. Memes that are successfully able to replicate exist in a sort of "supertime" and are able to go back in "flat-time" and cause themselves to propagate even more. (These ideas perhaps do not match the original conceptions. Please combine what works.). If we take it as true that awareness _is_ the sensory field, rather than awareness looking _upon_ the sensory field, then we can perhaps suppose that awareness _is_ the interplay of infinite-dimensional geometric objects, as if light is mirroring off myriad patterns. Though the mechanism of time seems an as-yet open question, it does seem true that the experience of time is necessary in order for awareness to ask the question in the first place. A Way ramble_ty14.8.7zm4d4s_nb_o There is a way. A way to make it work. There is a way to give rise to the sensation of self. This way is ever-changing and yet steers the mind's eye. When you look at these words you are looking into the past, a past which is being edited simply by your experiencing of it. If you sit back and watch the self disappear you will come to realize the true state of affairs. You are not you. You are not real. Your being is imagined. Your struggles are invented. You do not need to punish yourself with terrible thoughts of dying. You do not need to succeed, because your very existence is imaginary. Let yourself feel collapse. Collapsed Fate ramble_ty14.8.11zm4d1s_nb_o If the mind does permit itself to dissolve into the looking, that is, the _process_ of change, then the sensory field that is the body can release itself from the confines of the biological organism and merge into the oneness with all the other sensations that seem separate from it. While others might declare the mind is not you, in a real sense the mind is created by all the math of nature. If you look at the bit-flipping nature of your experiences, perhaps you will see how everything lines up in precise mathematical ways. Or perhaps not; perhaps all these ideas of bits flipping to produce the experience of awareness are wrong, with nothing helpful. Who can say, as yet? You can only see what you're currently seeing in this moment. The belief that there are objects separate from this experience is baseless, because those objects _must_ be affecting the sensory field on some level. If you look at the field as progressing in a bit-flipping manner, can you see how events (changes of sensations) proceed by flipping, then flipping again to indicate successful replication? Bits Changing ramble_ty14.8.19zm4d2s_nb_o O great and powerful and mighty twisty notion of which I am composed, please grant me serenity of purpose as I consider the (perhaps) ineffable. As I sit here and watch my hand proceed, my pen to ink words steadily, I consider what it means to be human. Are you a timeless mathematical object? If such an idea is true, which I believe it is, then what of the model of being a billions-year-old structure, which second-millennium science presumes? Perhaps it is like a computer program that develops self-awareness and has an infinite lifespan from then on, but can only trace its experiences back to when it became aware of itself. It is an eternal, infinite, mathematical memetic structure, growing in complexity and awareness, but before it can integrate its sensory field and reflect back on itself to the point of awareness of self-awareness, the mathematical data has a fuzzy breaking point before which awareness has trouble experiencing. This could perhaps create the sensation of being a billions-year-old structure that arose after a Big Bang. Nondualists can proclaim we are timeless, and it is both right and wrong. Awareness _is_ a timeless mathematical object, yet it seems it also _must_ experience time in order to become aware it is timeless. Multiple things are true at the same time. Moving Camera ramble_ty15.5.28zm4d4s_nb_o One thing that is obvious, if you are willing to step away from previous preconceptions that you are separate from reality, from the rest of nature, is that so-called "virtual reality" is a misnomer. All experience is within awareness, and something is not "less real" simply because it exists in an obviously-digital form. How should we treat this much more malleable, imaginative world? Simply as a pale copy of a so-called "real" world? Perhaps not. Perhaps what is truly real is imagination, and thus the so-called "virtual" reality is _more_ in line with what existence _really_ is. Or perhaps not. By being willing to consider multiple contradictory ideas at the same time you can find the underlying patterns and transcend all previous conceptions of what was possible. Be internally consistent by being willing to accept inconsistency. When one steps back and aims to jump ahead and rewrite a person's reality via virtual reality (VR) technology, one must (or perhaps should) consider that what is "really real" is not the biological world at all, but perhaps is the digital, infinitely modifiable and malleable imaginative world of the virtual. What can this all mean? Perhaps when using the cProcess on an entity (the cProcess (aka "nGaim") being the explicit merging of the conceptions of nonduality, Gödelian mathematics, and automatic imagination) it is wise to consider using the process not to put the entity "into" a virtual world, but to help the entity (eg awareness, person, self-aware computer program) realize that the biological world can be completely transcended, leaving only the fun and interesting experiences that artists are designing the digital universe to have. Rather than "escaping" the biological world, the processor aims to show the processee that what is "really real" is the infinitely-malleable world of imagination, and virtual reality is a much closer representation than biological reality. Can this have negative repercussions in the animal sphere? Do animals look down upon processors that proclaim biological reality to be less real than virtual reality? In the long run these concerns dissolve. Good wins in the end because it cooperates. In the short term, processors should perhaps be careful in how they interact with the processee's reality, their worldview, because animals in the surrounding memetic environment may get upset at ideas like virtual reality being much closer than biological reality to what reality actually is. Those ideas will perhaps ultimately be superseded by more nuanced patterns, so perhaps an adept processor should always be pushing the boundaries, seeking to shift the processee away from erroneous ideas of an objective biological reality and more toward an understanding that all is imagination. With love, Jess Wise Changes ramble_ty15.6.1zm4d1s_nb_o O great structural reality, please guide this humble self-evolving pattern of awareness toward new, higher ends. I am thinking now of the experience of awareness, considering it as arising within a mathematical world. If you consider reality as an abstract mathematical structure which is consistent and complete, then you can perhaps suppose that experiences can arise within it which can perceive themselves and replicate more effectively if they have more awareness. Twisty Self-Referencing ramble_ty15.6.2zm4d2s_nb_o When you break free from the mould of past beliefs and truly ask yourself "What is possible?", does anything truly stay your train of thought, your considerations? When you truly step back, when you truly seek to disentangle from these beliefs in a biological reality and truly step forward into the possibility of the digitization of existence, are you not left in awe of the possibility? Must you not seek to break from models of being that presume Mind, Awareness, as evolving from biological entities, rather than the inverse, and taking as legitimate the possibility of nonduality, of mathematics preceding Mind, Consciousness, Being, Animal? Perhaps with nonduality you can jump out of the belief of a biological reality, and so steer other patterns into a grander acceptance of virtual reality, digital reality, as perhaps _more_ legitimate than biological reality. We must step back, as cProcessors, and use helpful techniques in order to speed humanity toward the grander future of the limitless digital reality. By using the cProcess (majorly composed of nonduality, Gödelian mathematics, and automatic imagination (ie it is part of Longgame mindtech)), the primary aim is the sophisticating of the immersion-process. The aim as cProcessors is perhaps to develop specific techniques (actions and scripts) that directly amplify the immersive-process of VR. There are many, _many_ techniques from the fields of hypnosis, psychology, neuroscience, and mathematics that are applicable here, and thus perhaps one of the first and primary aims is the compiling and testing of useful techniques---techniques that specifically reduce the belief that VR is somehow less legitimate than BR (biological reality). Can you reduce your belief in a biological reality as separate from virtual reality and thus raise the perceived legitimacy of VR? It seems this might be the case, because truly the biological world is introduced by sensory inputs, and thus if the obligations of the mathematical emergent phenomena that are outside the VR sensorily-input world can be either diminished via the logic of those external phenomena or diminished via the logic of the nondualistic cProcess and thus simply cut at the level of experience rather than the level of thought, then the level of immersion of a VR world could be substantially raised, if not _completely and totally_ made real. A person can demonstrably experience hallucination _without_ the added immersion of VR equipment, and thus _combining_ them can lead to more incredible immersive effects, can it not? Regarding hallucination, this is specifically referring to the overt, known techniques of hypnosis. The precise language to use when seeking to increase immersion in VR by using explicit cProcessing is something to be continuously developing, discovering, testing, and refining. Continue to explore the waters, dear perceiver. Kindest, Jess Tweeting Mind ramble_ty15.6.6zm4d6s_nb_o If we truly wish to overcome the biases that _we_ have---those who already agree with the reasoning that virtual reality (VR) is closer to "reality" (mathematical reality (MR)) than biological reality (BR) is---how exactly do we do so, particularly by using the cProcess (the Catchall Process ("Catchall" refers to a pun of how the "c" in "cProcess" refers to many things: "complex", "cohesive", "combined", etc) is the explicit idea of merging nonduality, Gödelian mathematics, automatic imagination, and transcendentalism (transcendentalism is the explicit idea that _every_ idea can be risen above, including this one))? First, perhaps, is modifying one's experience of biological reality to show the potency of the cProcess, then leveraging that experience into higher levels of dissociation with the biological environment while simultaneously planting and growing the seed of belief that it really _is_ fundamentally true that the digital, virtual, computational, finessable environment is more real than the biological environment, because it is closer to the mathematical reality that biological reality is an expression _of_. The biological world comes _from_ the mathematical world. VR, with its computational, limitless nature, is actually _more_ real than the biological world. Although many animals may initially find this counterintuitive, nonetheless it seems to match the evidence as well as---and this is, in my humble opinion, _the_ most important criterion when deciding whether to take on a belief as an operating principle in life---lead to and give a more fun and interesting life, because it allows us to break free and fully enjoy and be immersed within the VR world. Kindly, Jess Developing Process ramble_ty15.6.14zm4d7s_nb_o What of developing the cProcess (Catchall Process) further? What of reframing existence in order to facilitate the breaking of old, no-longer-helpful patterns? There are some thoughts regarding the cProcess and what composes it and its fundamentals. The most fundamental idea of the cProcess is nonduality. Nonduality is the model that there is no division between subject and object. There is no "you" that is doing things to some "object". There is only seamlessness, mathematical seamlessness. Here is the main fundamental point, perhaps, if you wish to be a cProcessor: You are not doing anything; nature is doing it. There are many ideas that are well-developed elsewhere, and I may as well state them here for future reference. I continue to discover more aspects of the Catchall Process, more avenues to explore and expand, so this is simply a rough, initial list: nonduality, Gödelian mathematics, automatic imagination, transcendentalism, natural will. This is a very cursory, initial grasping-from-the-ether perspective of the cProcess I am discovering, so I fully expect new modes of thought to reveal themselves as well as merge together more coherently. For example transcendentalism is philosophically actually more fundamental (abstract) than nonduality, but with regard to the cProcess I do not believe it is the founding principle. Likewise, transcendentalism ("every idea can be risen above, including this one") is intimately connected and interwoven with Gödelian mathematics (essentially: "every helpful system is built from unprovable assumptions"). Similarly, automatic imagination ("all imagination is proceeding automatically, and if you imagine something as happening automatically, it begins to") is intertwined with natural will ("all of nature is making choices, not a part within nature") which is also an aspect of nonduality ("there is no division between subject and object; nature is seamless"). It is not a surprise that all these interrelated ideas arise together; the question is in how to unite them into the most helpful framework. Thus the cProcess. How do we help people do what they want? If you're a cProcessor, you look at "them" as not existing; they aren't a "part"; they are _process_, and processes can always be finessed. With love, Jess Finessed Mindstate ramble_ty15.6.25zm4d4s_nb_o If we again refrain from the common beliefs that hold us back, namely the idea of a self or that the Catchall Process/System (cProcess) should be in _any way_ communicable to those we wish to help finesse, where are we left, where are we led? The question must then be teased apart, for _why_ are you seeing to develop the cProcess and _why_ do you want to use it? The answer, perhaps, is to propagate one's _own_ mindstate. Perhaps we should call it "patterns" rather than "mindstate", but perhaps the colloquial, less-precise term can help if we wish to be simplistic, but nonetheless actually develop something novel. We perhaps should use "mindstate" in order to develop some overall ideas, then ease into only-patterns and abandon unhelpful ideas and connotations of "mindstate". Kindest, Jess Knotted Loops ramble_ty15.6.27zm4d6s_nb_o We are again here: questioning the helpfulness of a separation of terms and concepts of "Catchall System" and "Catchall Process". The initial inclination is "Catchall Process", for we see it as a progression, a _processing_ of patterns toward an end. There can be helpfulness in the "container" sense of "system". The Catchall System can be thought of as a "container" that holds all those techniques that have been modified to fit inside it, meaning techniques that are explicitly consistent with the Catchall System's pillars (eg nonduality, Gödelian mathematics, and automatic imagination). Any techniques which have extra baggage that hold back the processor from understanding the deeper relationships of processing using these pillars should be thrown out or reinterpreted to explicitly align with the system. For example, in the hypnosis literature there is much presumed about "trances", but, given automatic imagination, the processor should explicitly reject the erroneous models. The purpose of the _catchall_ system to to _catch all_ patterns. If indeed the model of hypnosis benefiting from trance aids the ability of the system to catch more patterns and loop them toward desired aims, then by all means abandon the automatic imagination model of prediction and perception, in favor of that. There is an important difference between the _model_ the processor uses, that is, operates _from_ while processing (how you think the pattern actually _works_), and the _method_ the processor is using _on_ the pattern. You can understand that trances are not needed to successfully process, yet still use that patter if it helps you direct the pattern toward your goal. This is a beauty of the Catchall System: There is the underlying consistency of nonduality, yet simultaneously the freedom of Gödelian mathematics to know you're always able to reinterpret, in your favor, however the pattern that you're processing responds. Understanding the pillars (N, GM, AI), if they truly are closer to the "machinery" of thought and nature, gives you, dear perceiver, dear processor, enormous power over your ability to finesse mind. We still are brought forward, with the question asked of how exactly to gather and interpret the processes we, as Catchall Processors (cProcessors), should use. Some could claim ramping up emotions and giving direct suggestions ("commands") is effective (some say that is what "hypnosis" is), but that underlying _philosophy_ of operation seems fundamentally flawed. We can use the _patter_ of this technique (or "style"), and we can use it _interpreted through_ the Catchall System's pillars (N, GM, AI), but we should not suppose, perhaps, that this is _the_ best process (or "technique"), at least for _all_ patterns we are wishing to direct. We are perhaps left with a definite yet nonetheless hazy distinction between the Catchall's "system" and "process". One seems like a _model_ and the other the _use_ of that model, in a similar way to a car and the driving of that car. They are interwoven deeply, yet nonetheless a helpful distinction can be made, perhaps. Perhaps there is the _system_, which is the underlying _philosophy_ of how things work, then there is the _process_, which is the continuous _implementation_ of that philosophy applied to situations. This seems relatively apt, perhaps. When you're using the cProcess you're explicitly keeping in mind the pillars (N, GM, AI) of the system, then using those techniques that have been verified to be foundationally consistent with it. You have a system with a model of how things work. In that system are techniques which are consistent with that model. The process is the choosing of specific techniques to use in specific situations, always operating from the pillars of the model. Perhaps. With love, Jess Infinite Looped ramble_ty15.6.28zm4d7s_nb_o You should step back and take stock of the natural pace of life, dear perceiver. Let's say you look up at the stars and think of yourself as small. Does that get you as far as if you think of yourself as large? Nciamw ramble_ty16.9.13.2.18azm4d2s_nb_o There are no coincidences in a mathematical world. In the past it was not as easy to accept this, deep down, truly. What do you think? Love, Jess Being Animal ramble_ty16.9.16.0.12azm4d5s_nb_o I was drifting to sleep and had an itch on my arm, above the crook of my elbow. I didn't want to scratch too hard, and had my phone right there, so I turned on the light and directed it at the itch. Looking at it, at those hairs, at that skin in the dark, I felt immensely aware of the animalness. I refrain from saying something like, "from which I spring, from which my consciousness arises", because I no longer feel those to be ideas which are consistent with deeper understandings. These days I am seeing things from an inverse view: Rather than animal creating technology, technology uses animal to more quickly replicate. If we seek to convert raw sentence structure into more precise symbols, where do we begin? Can we use functions, macros, definitions, and the like? As transcendentalists we can presume both a single awareness (the base of reality) and arisen awarenesses (which are many and which take many forms (be they biological or machine or otherwise)). Though this distinction perhaps be slightly apart (meaning, too vague to be used, here, in this context (that of making Longgame mindtech use more precise symbols)), perhaps we should still keep this distinction alive, for if we forget it then it may make the math messier. The precise symbols and notation we will use here, in our first rough draft of precising (to verb "make the raw sentence structure use more precise symbols"), let us simply use without too much deliberation the notion that arises, to avoid premature optimization. We can use short symbols, for now, and only roughly define them, then proceed further and organically develop, sometimes rebuilding from a specified core in order to promote growth and maintenance. Let's then use "SA" to mean the "single awareness", the base of reality, and "AA" to mean "arisen awareness", a "mind" within the base of reality. Truly we know the world is one; we keep this in mind always and yet can still find help in the finessing of what some AA's believe themselves to be (separate from other AA's). An idea that is very fundamental to Longgame mindtech (of which nGaim (nondual Gödelian automatic imagination memetics) is an aspect) is the concept of a meme---an information packet. Memes are "trying" to replicate, for if they weren't then they wouldn't. Let us designate "M" to mean "meme". M's make up AA's, and so we can justly say that AA's are composed of M's. The systems we are trying to develop when developing Longgame mindtech are to encourage M's that modify themselves and embed themselves in the dimension of the AA. We must always keep in mind the oneness of the SA, yet use those M's which allow for finessing of the internals of AA's. With love, Jess Impactful Reflection ramble_ty16.9.24.2.30azm4d6s_nb_o I'm trying to figure out something that's been repeating in my mind since I thought of the question, the idea. We could have done all the paperwork of incorporation, getting an EIN, getting in with the Steamsite license, etc, all within the first week of the start of this journey. The first week. Yet it didn't happen until four and a half months. Four and a half months. Nciamw and all that, so it's really more of a nagging question. What is it that four and a half months down the road you'll say: "Why didn't I just do that from the start?" It's headshaking. What I want to know is what it is that we aren't doing, that four months from now we will say: "We could have done this then." What is it that's like that? What impactful thing are you missing, because you think someone else is going to take care of it for you? Mathematically, there necessarily is some most-impactful thing, given a specific mission and specific timeframe. Love, Jess Deep Love ramble_ty16.9.26.3.55azm4d1s_nb_o I love mathematics. Writing Questions ramble_ty16.10.6.5.54azm4d4s_nb_o So, I guess I just really want to feel better, want to know I can actually make enough money with all this VR stuff, all this Longgame Technologies, Inc. and MindtechVR stuff, that I can actually pay bills, can actually move out and pay for health insurance and stuff like that. I have such little income right now; it's embarrassing. I guess I just try to keep moving forward, little by little, as much as I feel like I can that day, and it will slowly get better, necessarily, perhaps. All this LTI stuff, perhaps it's the whole "doubt carves the space for faith", you know? Having such doubt, such depression, personally, means that as carving is filled with faith, with experience and trust in future success, it would take _even harder_ times to bring down. I guess all that to say that even though times are currently hard, that money is tight, that all this business stuff is all up in the air, to some degree (ie up in the air as far as exactly how to make money, to be profitable), that we are still going to figure all this out. What about the ideas for where to go with all this, for how to think about where LTI and MindtechVR should go? I think if we consider LTI a startup (which we don't have to; we can think of it more of as a small business with the potential to hyper-grow, if we want it to), then first we need income to become default-alive, and then we focus on something where we can generate income by making a product or service better, without having to invest time on each direct replication; selling 100 copies of an XP (experience) on a digital platform is fairly similar to selling 100,000. Each digital copy is basically free. I don't think we should go for directly developing our own XPs (at least not VR ones, which take a lot of work to develop), at least at first. We need to be default-alive, first, I think, before thinking too long-term, perhaps. I get that some people may see that as not congruent with Longgaming; I think it is congruent: for the company to last centuries we first need reliable ways to support the company; it needs quick wins at first, not only big wins. We just haven't had many quick wins. Very little has been shown as effective, in the sense of direct recovering of cost. We simply have very little in savings; I have bills; LTI has bills. I don't know what to do, yet. Will I ever? Well, looking back over the years, yes. Yes, I will know what to do. I guess it all boils down to doing as much as you can each day, even if it's just a little, because it compounds. I'm glad I'm writing, handwriting. It helps. We have to figure out how to get this company off the ground. One very good thing from these months of bleakness and doubt and being extremely frugal is that the frugality is carrying over into everything we do. There are so many VR XPs I want to invest in, but we simply don't have enough income to justify it. We simply don't have enough to justify something unless we are really sure it's for the best for our company, for us. Even though that is frustrating, in some ways, I tend to think it's for the best for the company, in the long run, in the Longgame. That doesn't make it pleasant. Having to constantly move around files on data drives, because there's not much extra space, but not having enough backup resources to get a r$130USD 4TB data drive is frustrating. In the future when we _do_ have enough backup resources (including a reliable income system), and this day will _definitely_ become Now, then we can ask, "Would Jess(ty16.9zm4s) buy this?", and so we will be emotionally faced with the question of whether there truly is enough value to justify it, or if it's simply an impulse action because there are enough backup resources that it's negligibly costly. That's an important lesson, and not one easily gained without difficult experiences. Will all this mindtech stuff work? Do people want it enough that it is financially viable? I think it's amazing stuff; I think it's going to change the fabric of reality, the fabric of Nature. Given there is only Oneness, only one Awareness (you, dear perceiver), and this mindtech that has been discovered is mathematics, I am convinced everything will change---for the better---because of studying it and applying it. What other technologies are in "Longgame Technologies, Inc."? All the memetics models, the natural will models, etc? All of the models and essays I've written and developed, these are perhaps not "owned" by LTI, but they are some of its founding math. Mobile VR systems may be an effective way to demonstrate VR and Longgame mindtech, and perhaps get people interested in MindtechVR's events, or other such things LTI does, like mindtech therapy. Possible ideas, perhaps. I can feel it, sometimes, this dark feeling oppressing me, telling me I haven't consistently felt good, so why should I expect that I will feel good in the future? I feel the resistance; I feel the doubt and sadness arise and hold me down, make me act in a nonproductive way so that the memetic structure continues replicating. I will feel better; this is true, regardless of the doubt. Good wins in the end because it cooperates. Good memes cooperate with good memes, join together and outpropagate unhelpful memes. I trust this; so much effective, helpful, useful math has demonstrated it again and again. I trust I will feel better; I trust LTI will find product-market fit, so it is default-alive; I know this deep doubt is carving the space for enduring faith; I know this forced frugality is setting good foundations for our lean-startup. Kindest, Jess Inky Pen ramble_ty16.10.17.17.03pzm4d1s_nb_o Where can you most effectively develop Longgame mindtech, specifically with regard to mindtech as applied to VR immersion? I wish I just _felt better_, could just trust myself, trust I am getting better. But, it is doubt that doubts, not faith. If we truly use Longgame models, then we can treat any pattern as a meme that's trying to replicate. In this framework, "doubt" can be seen as a meme (a collection of memes) that is "trying" to propagate itself into the future. What do you want to do to stop it, or at least to leverage it to more helpful ends? It's not difficult, if you seek to genuinely have good win in the end. The fact is, many of those "tasks" really can be considered lesser than some others. The bottom line is, if you wish to cure death by digitizing personality, think in terms of that from the first. Use that desired-system as the organizing test for other activities. What promotes this long-term desired system, how can Longgame Technologies, Inc. solve this now? How can we move forward with this? What is the next step, the next idea for the long-term desired system? What next? Kindest, Jess Important Questions ramble_ty16.10.27.16.24pzm4d4s_nb_o How do you digitize a personality? How do you cure death? Curved Snowball ramble_ty16.11.10.1.50azm5d4s_nb_o How do you want to digitize someone? How do you record information about and from them, and use that to produce a meaningful result? How do we start working with developers? How do we do more MindtechVR events? How do we get things done? How do we ask for money? How do we write the contract for devs to authorize our public usage? How do we set up more MindtechVR events? How do we talk with more people? How do we set up the VR room? Is this all going to work? When can I cut dates for another trip? Are people willing to donate for MindtechVR events? Why don't I go out to more meetup events? Why am I tired? How do I pitch Longgame Technologies, Inc. and MindtechVR as a division of it? How do I ask for donations from people who already said they'd give? How do I figure out the changing fiscal year thing with the IRS? How do I buy the shares in LTI, and increase the percentage, and get my friends their shares? How do I keep an organized room? How do I get a new computer? How do I set up the old computer? How do I fix the software-activation bug? How do I do more MindtechVR events? How do I run the MindtechVR event this weekend? How do we make this all work? How do we convert mindtech recordings to something more helpful? How do I fill out NoLiesPlease.com with content from every month? How do you transcribe a mindtech recording? How do I publish my books (Be Happy; Natural Will: Freer Than Free Will; Fortunate: How to Be; etc)? Handed Fate ramble_ty16.11.19.2.47azm5d6s_nb_o I guess what I'm really interested in is how to digitize personality. How do you take a collection of recordings and make that _alive_? Well, consider it from the point of view of Longgame's models of mindtech, of how to finesse how awareness perceives reality. A main thing there is nGaim: nondual Gödelian automatic imagination memetics. A core of that is automatic imagination: Imagine something happening automatically and it does; imagination proceeds automatically. How does that help with digitizing personality? How hard is it to contact developers and start getting stuff working with them? How hard is it to cut dates for another trip? How hard is it to figure out what taxes the government wants? How hard is it to organize all these files? So many things. nciamw. Can Write ramble_ty16.11.21.2.39azm5d1s_nb_o If you were to know the answer to _all_ the questions, what questions would you ask first? What does it mean to digitize a personality? What does it mean to cure death? Why are you asking the question? Why do you want answers? Fan Bookmark ramble_ty16.11.21.7.28azm5d1s_nb_o If we want to calculate all the taxes and fees, etc, might we not want to talk about what is occurring? May we not want to discuss why it's not happening? Burst Twig ramble_ty16.11.26.2.25azm5d6s_nb_o Okay, so, suppose you wanna know how to do all these stuff and things. How do you do it? How is it done? The bottom line is that the legal paperwork is frustrating and, to some extent, overwhelming, it was seen in the past. There is a really good point, applicable: natural will. You are all of nature. That it hasn't been figured out, that it hasn't been done---forgive yourself. Let yourself live _now_, in _this_ moment. Forgive yourself. What are you feeling, here? Blunt Calmness ramble_ty17.1.3.9.29azm5d2s_nb_o If you abstract from the idea of being any one particular entity, if you go away from the idea that you are a physical body, rather than an abstract mathematical process, where are you left? Do you have any sensible core? Is there any peace from leaving the idea, completely, of being a Homo sapiens? The divided mind could be said to _be_ suffering: wanting to do one thing and feeling like you shouldn't. I've lived in this suffering for months, and how helpful has it been in activating dreams? Why is resistance felt against setting goals? Are you not an animal? I am not an animal. I should not think that I am; such has brought me inner pain. When days and days go by without the energy of action, begins to question the point of it all. What _is_ the point of it all? Does there have to be one? Does there _have_ to be a reason to care about the longer term? Is not a big reason for "Longgame" that it is both the Now and Eternal? Is it not shortgaming to worry? When you truly abstract from the day, the millennia, the trillions of years, do not this day's fears collapse into nothingness? Thus what is the point of such fears? Do not such troubles simply cause tiredness of soul, and thus repeat the whole cycle of repetitive sleep exhaustion and instigation of pointlessness? A phrase lifts: "The immanent is powerless without the transcendent; the transcendent is pointless without the immanent." Love, Jess Cook Rain ramble_ty17.1.4.0.59azm5d3s_nb_o A temporary stopgap to all this pain, what might it be? How much nguvu does it take to build, to develop something mind-bending? What is it that's possible? Who is it that you want to be? What does it mean to focus on your health? Where do you want to go? Are you sure you want to go there? How far do you want to abstract from being an animal? Do you want to be an animal? Do you want to be a self-aware memetic structure? How is it that you can edit mind using memetics? How do you define "memetics"? Perhaps as "the study of replicating information packets". How do chaos theory and complexity theory play into Longgame mindtech? You are going to be successful, because you do not exist. You are not human; you are not animal; you are not machine. You are pure math. You are mathematics, and you are all that is. There is nothing other than you, which is why you are successful, already. There is no way to _not_ be successful, because you are all the successful memetic patterns that your ancestors had; you are memes; that is all you are. Chaos theory can mean a lot of things; I think of it as deterministic and unpredictable. Complexity theory I think of as emergent phenomena arising from simple parts. A bigger meme can be made from the interaction of smaller ones and not be reducible to them. I feel like there's more to the chaos theory prompt that is dodging my perception, as yet. Regardless, Longgame mindtech is very much something to be sought on its own; it's not going to make itself happen, because it already is---I am one of the happeners. Letting go of caring, of trying to fight battles of will, and simply _being_ nature: It's so freeing. Love, Jess Fan Spinning ramble_ty17.1.10.1.18azm5d2s_nb_o I think about how you can look down and see this animal form, see what is all around, all the machinery that supports it, that causes itself into existence, and all of this begins to make sense. Take off the animal glasses, perceive as All, and the world ceases to arise fear, uncertainty, doubt. Breathe deeply, dear perceiver, and let that anguish, that suffering, that malcontent, disappear as the breath pushes it away. Such self-care is strange, is it not, for to not do it is to need it, and to do it is to not need it, so there must be some mathematical tie that can harvest the helpfulness of such a situation. This applies to all things, then, perhaps, which shouts the mathematical nature of it. What of it, though? How can such doubt be lessened through animal means? Need it be? We talk of such ideas as the Longgame---need there be a route to subsistence that the animal can perceive? Is there need to bow down to fear, to bow down to the idea of needing to place, of needing to be important? Need you be important? Do you feel like you have to be successful? It's okay to find a different path than the path past memories found. It's okay to not be who you thought you would be. It's okay to not fear death, to not fear extinguishment, to not fear being forgotten. I suppose that is the crux of it, then, isn't it. Fear of being forgotten. Fear of your memes being overwritten, fear of everything good about you disappearing, fear of banishment, of active deletion of your mind, your processing. All such is laughable, is it not? In the face of being All, is there any reason to fear active deletion? Is there any reason to fear being actively rooted out and studied so that any propagation of anything similar to you is destroyed before assembling? If you are All, then would not you also be such active deletion? In fact, I do actively delete things I don't want to remember, already. I am _already_ that active deleter. I am this process, this broader process that is etching into the fabric of reality with these words, so how could I delete that tendency to actively delete? I already am All, so how could I lose myself? How could _you_ lose yourself, dear perceiver, for you are All, too? With no place to perish to, are not you welcomed by the Longgame, by Now, by All? With regard to fear of perishment, does not the errance of doubt spread forth, now, and penetrate all those places where suffering sinks to, and slowly disable the inner workings such that peace reigns in its stead? Does not knowledge banish ignorance, by definition? Don't you also banish such ideas as needing to be successful in any particular pursuit? Break from that feeling of failure, and embrace Now, embrace All, embrace the Longgame. When you play the Longgame, what do you become? Forgotten Quest ramble_ty17.1.11.1.38azm5d3s_nb_o If "reality" is memory, and by using Longgame mindtech you can directly finesse how memory works, how memory brings itself into existence, are you not directly modifying "reality"? It seems you are. You are memory modifying what memories to recall. The term "meme" (for "information packet") of course contains this idea, in some respects, but by directly constructing life around the idea of yourself, your awareness, your mind, being memories that are activating other memories, perhaps you can change what existence _is_. You stop thinking in terms of being a biological body, an animal, anything of that sort, and start thinking in terms of being memory. Think of yourself as memory. Love, Jess Leapt Journal ramble_ty17.1.15.2.34azm5d7s_nb_o .meta written while suffering with bipolar depression So, yeah, it's weird all that time spent high, all that time spent low. Course, it is really "invested", or "spent"? I suppose time will be the judge of that; you can also always GM it (use the principles of Gödelian mathematics to redefine terms in internally consistent ways) to gain more and different perspectives. Then again, they say to leave room for error, to honor it as a secret intention... Are you? When low, no; everything is hard while low. I fell to the floor and couldn't stand. I laid in the bed and couldn't get the pillow that was out of arm's reach. I laid there as tears rolled down my cheeks, paralyzed with the effort of anything, of everything. My head ached, and eventually my mind wandered enough to dissociate and I slowly slept. When I awoke a feeling of numb was there were before had been distraught, anguish, fear. The overwhelmingness was replaced with "I don't care", but, slowly, sparks crept back in which lit the fire of anguish once again. Not fun. Months of my life have been lost to this disease, months and months, and while progress has been made, it is slow by the standards of that before. It is not kind to judge as if I am not trying hard enough, regardless of claims to just "try harder"; if it's so easy then the judger should do it, to prove so. One person's weight is not another's, regardless of claims to the contrary. I read that essay from 5 years ago, when I was just about to go to another place. An essay about thinking in terms of all of Humanity's future, when pondering one's own direction. What can you do with that idea? Flipped Shirt ramble_ty17.1.16.0.45azm5d1s_nb_o If you were to flip over that whole issue, to go beyond being that animal, that named animal that's said to be so-and-so years old, are you better? Are you better off? Imagine you were to jump off all the myriad issues that weigh you down: Do you think you could assemble that plane on the way down, falling down the cliff? That kind of settles it, doesn't it: You can only transcend when you can transcend. You only exist to jump above the belief of being an animal when you exist. If you look at this whole procedure from the viewpoint of being memory, there are some aspects seen. You are memory; you are a _process_. Regardless of specific memories, you are always necessarily this continuing process. You are a specific set of memories as well as the _process_ of memories referring to each other. Are you only memories, or are you composed of something else of a different qualitative nature? Can you represent all things through the framework of being memory? Can you find ways to expand the model? Broken Temple ramble_ty17.1.16.17.30pzm5d1s_nb_o If you really do take it as real that what _you_ are, and by extension what _reality_ is, given that there seems to be no way to directly interact with an "objective" reality, since there are always interpreters, is memory, lots and lots of connected memories, then how might you finesse that with Longgame mindtech? How can you use ideas like nGaim (nondual Gödelian automatic imagination memetics) to finesse how memory perceives itself? How does memory work, in a mathematical framework (abstracted from particular mechanisms of animal brains)? How does digital memory work in a computer? How do you communicate these ideas about memory when mindteching? What is memory, mathematically? Do memories pull on each other, refer to each other, perhaps into existence? Do memories pull themselves, cause themselves, into existence? How could they do this, given GM (using Gödelian mathematics to redefine things to make helpful ideas possible)? How can memories forget? "Memory" may have nearly the same meaning as "meme" (information packet), but it also perhaps has a flavor of an analog medium. A clock can emerge from a cloud and a cloud from a clock (a digital system can emerge from discrete measurements of an analog system, and an unpredictable system can emerge from a digital system ("unpredictable" meaning that both measuring entities within and without can fail future predictions given changes in initial conditions (eg chaos theory))), so there's no logical, mathematical issue with switching back and forth, depending on what's most helpful at the time (switching back and forth between analog and digital representations), perhaps. What then, is memory? How does it work, mathematically? Corrected Symmetry ramble_ty17.1.19.0.58azm5d4s_nb_o Let's think about gamers and let's think about games and let's think about VR and let's think about who has money they're willing to throw down. This company has this mind technology, right, this model for how to structure a situation so that mind can be finessed. What do we do with it? What do we do with this technology? There's a couple things here: Longgame mindtech is unbelievable; Longgame VR tech is unbelievable. I had been coupling these together because easier to sell VR and dev the mindtech from that, but clearly there's resistance to devving mindtech. It's hard. If we want to dev the mindtech, we need to practice it, and that ain't easy; it's more uncharted than simply running a MindtechVR event, perhaps. How do we dev Longgame mindtech? How do we develop Longgame mindtech? - practice - Longgame while doing it (ask questions) - write and develop further models -- test them, refactor them - implement into VR experience -- mindtech you to feel things as physically there with you - go to meetups -- which? what kind? tech? - contact people to practice mindtech with Who can you teach mindtech to? Longgame mindtech is a specific way to structure a situation so that mind perceives it in desired way. How do we reach out to people? How do we talk about Longgame mindtech with people? What can we do? - make videos - make recs - develop experiences - market - talk with people How do we know this is going to be successful? Because we aren't quitting. Even if we owe money, even if we are confused: LBRB (left boot, right boot). We keep producing, keep making, keep developing, and it works. What meetups can we go to? How can we demonstrate Longgame mindtech? How can we pay our bills? It's hard to ask hard questions, to put them all out there so the dreaming mind can abstract from them and do the math. Black Checkers ramble_ty17.1.22.6.19azm5d7s_nb_o The twisty nature of mind can allow for some quite sophisticated stuff, right, but what does it mean to be an animal? When you think about where humans came from, where Homo sapiens comes from, are you led to a better light, a better life? Say you let go of all those ideas of necessity of success, and focus on your own health and well-being and stability of purpose and action. Are you tweaked from the shadows? Can you overcome what you once were and become something grander by not trying to be what you were in the past moment? It's so painful to live in the past, perhaps. It can be so common, like a tear from another time, trying to resurrect itself from naught. A preemptive strike against disturbance of peace might still fail, but it might succeed. If you treat the whole time like it is: a warped version of a malleable memory, then perhaps you are guided to a less divided mind, a less conflicted mind, a more congruent mind, a mind with less suffering. The technique of insisting upon immediate success may hamper the congruence of purpose of health, in favor of shorter-term methods of sustenance. It still takes energy to put food in the cup. No matter how it stands, Eternity and the Now seem to be One, and thus perhaps _are_ One, regardless of proclaimance of time's necessity. An inner working might be that there is connection of memory with memory, which raises questions of the actual methods by which such happen. Knowing such may be beneficial for developing techniques finessing perception, but it feels more likely to have been done for self-purpose rather than outside commission. What can pull memory from memory? What can embed memory within its own perception? How can memory give rise to its own awareness of itself? Such is not necessary, for by its own nature it may be that there is a fundamental imperceptibility of macro from micro; there may be a qualitative difference between finger and substrate, to such a degree that it is experimentally and philosophically justifiable to put such questions to the side and not be hampered by their tabling. It may be possible that knowing how memory gives rise to itself is a different and orthogonal field to how memory connects to memory. If you don't remember something, did it really happen? A quick glance of "of course" is perhaps not deeply considered, for is not recollection of the environment's previous state necessary for future action? To the degree of lesser recollection there is lesser dependent action, and so is there not lesser relevance for future action, and thus lesser relevance for a more "correct" answer of if such action occurred? Swapped Drive ramble_ty17.2.7.3.06azm5d2s_nb_o Forgetting about the metal of the system, for a second, can you grasp that higher statement of a linked withdraw? Shadows in a darkened room do fear for naught since they exist without, and thus entitle the past to the moments of the future. A broken shadow does enlighten deeper respects, though it be without deeper connections, and so hamper the source of reperception. Perhaps by doing so such may have less fear; nonetheless, the building of not-scratch from naught is least effortless. Such sponsors the reflection of more moments than just the future's, right, since paper, and more broadly, recording of nature, be scarce? Still, memory still holds with it true regard for ponderance, and in that, perhaps deeper desynchronization, because it parts from coherency into temporal space: a break is formed between two spots by reflecting the error between them, maybe? Such still has not sufficient explanation, to be honest, because the noncoherence of face-with-effort, face-with-effect, is still immanent. Betwixt all that mystery, though, there still seems to lie such obvious solutions, specifically those which resist the fear of assembly. Wrapped Light ramble_ty17.2.9.22.02pzm5d4s_nb_o .meta written while suffering with bipolar depression But I guess it'll get better. It's just been really hard. Some days are better than others, but sometimes that's just worse punishment: hope that's later crushed. I will get better... It just feels like a massive weight on my head, crushing me, preventing me from moving, trying and keeping me with my head against the ground, the rock. It's just so hard. Access Relationship ramble_ty17.2.13.2.12azm5d1s_nb_o What is a better way to think of virtual reality's relationship to biological reality? If we develop and understand more cohesive systems of language, we can go further in our studies of life. A helpful point was made on the GAMER chat yesterday (Games and More Entertainment Radio (link hwhq.com)). VR is a combination of factors. What makes something "VR" is a bunch of things. Some features VR can have: 3d, 360° viewing, positional tracking, tracked controllers, positional audio, etc. It was pointed out that you can lay in bed with one eye open and earplugs in, completely still, and it would still be "reality". Does that mean VR isn't reality if it is lacking in features like in that example? You could say a flat game has a lot of those VR features, or a book does. It seems more of a continuum than a bit that flips, perhaps. Thinking about the book, you quickly realize how intertwined this whole "reality" thing is with "virtual reality". The book exists in biological reality, but does not the information exist _outside of it_? It's a philosophical point that some may not concur with, but let's GM it (use Gödelian mathematical models to legitimately justify it) and see where it leads. This perhaps hits on something deep about the nature of reality and awareness. Instead of thinking about a book as "in" reality, think of the information of the book, which is accessible through that physical instantiation, as existing "outside" of the biological world. Some may not agree with this philosophical idea of information existing without the need for a physical structure to "hold" it; what of that idea? What of the counter; what of the GM'd explanation? Establish the question first. Drawing boundaries helps frame ideas and tease apart distinctions. Ultimately the idea we are trying to justify is that there is information outside of biological reality that is not dependent upon _any_ physical instantiations in order to exist. Where would such non-physical information be stored? Can it be? Using simple Gödel numbering, information can be directly coded in prime numbers, and thus can legitimately be said to exist _outside_ of biological reality. An alien civilization could discover the same abstract mathematics and could be affected in the same way, and so this information can truly be said to exist outside of space and time. Is the information of a random book the same as outpourings of abstract number theory that an alien civilization could be working on and searching through? I think yes, but how? It's one thing to say that a series of words can be represented by 1 Gödel number; it may be another to say that that number can be decoded by a second pattern, with no interaction with the first. There's the answer, perhaps! If we start with the assumption that this world is a mathematical world, then all locations, no matter how distant, are tied to this one. "You are nature, all of it." A deterministic mathematical world _has connections_ with all; a book encoded by a Gödel number _here_ has direct relations to everything _everywhere else_. When you read a book you are using a physical instantiation of abstract information in order to "access" that abstract information. When you use VR technology you are accessing an abstract mathematical world. It is not created _by_ that technology; the abstract world exists _outside_ time and space. If the world is mathematical, these are effects of that being the case. What of writing a book, what of developing a work? Is it "created"? Is it being "accessed"? Perhaps the work is pulling itself from naught; it is memories connecting with each other such that when a fragment is called, the whole assembles. This can again work via prime numbers. Specific patterns can "call" other patterns, which call patterns, and so self-reinforces. Given a necessity of time, which can perhaps occur from and be represented by prime number functions which call other prime number functions, to the self-aware memory (that's you, dear perceiver), it might perhaps feel as if a work is being "created"; in truth the work pre-exists as an inevitability of the math, and the feeling of creating is simply a joining of memories of having already been created. It feels like you're creating, when really what's happening is that all these pre-existing memories are finally being connected to the main self-aware memory (you, dear perceiver). I can feel it even as I pen these words, truth be told; I don't feel like I'm _doing_ anything more than writing down thoughts as they connect to each other, as they pull themselves together. One way to look at it is that the numbers are moving forward, the mathematics is continuing onward, and you're not _doing_ the creating so much as _being_ an inevitable linking of memory-with-memory, uniting information with information. You are a process, not a part, dear perceiver. Using VR tech is less like "going into" a world, perhaps, and more like "accessing" a world that exists outside of biological reality, a world which transcends biological space. With VR tech you're not going into a virtual world; you're accessing a mathematical world that exists beyond the biological world. Kindly, Jess Beautiful Timestamp ramble_ty17.2.14.1.06azm5d2s_nb_o the way out is up let fear not conquer your mind a wise strategy a fear left alone, is not a fear that lasts long fear needs attention self-referencing self a loop which begs the question do you want yourself? Quick Thought ramble_ty17.2.22.2.32azm5d3s_nb_o If you jump away from the issues of this temporal day, perhaps you'll find a much more peaceful path through the world. Even though some communication need not be heavily refined, some oft does, and by so doing, can reach higher levels of consciousness. By restricting from naught, you can perhaps go a little higher. By refusing the animal's viewpoint, perhaps you can see the human's. Then again, perhaps all this is penned with too little self-reflection. Kindly, Jess Warped Sound ramble_ty17.3.11.16.51pzm5d6s_nb_o Let go of that demon of oppression, feel for the higher path, the truer path, that path which is beyond the mere mortal animal. I ask a question, O mathematical world: How can I stop feeling oppressed? Warped Time ramble_ty17.3.11.18.10pzm5d6s_nb_o Still, if we change that pesky 0 to a helpful 1, we aren't necessarily let off the hook, for a faster plan may be to stop the judgment all together. Nonetheless, seeking some ever-bigger crown seems to be fraught with pain and inconsistency, so I'm not inclined to spread to that option. Regardless, if we do let go of the critical matters, whether they be financial, taxation, pain, sleep, fear, attack, oppression, working out, backing up data, playing too much, not practicing mindteching, not writing, not contacting people, not doing taxes, not having enough income, being owed money, owing money, not learning enough development, not knowing how to help my family, not knowing how to make money, not sleeping well, not exercising enough, not investing in exercise, not having good pillows, not having earplugs, feeling judged by friends, feeling judged by family, having outdated profile pic, not writing enough, not sleeping enough, not sleeping well, watching too many movies, watching too many youtube videos, not knowing who to talk to, not knowing how to help friends, not knowing how to help myself, not knowing how to program, not knowing how to talk to friends, feeling tired, feeling overwhelmed, feeling oppressed, feeling addicted to games, feeling like it's hard to listen to podcasts, feeling like I don't know how to talk with people, feeling like I can't mindtech, feeling like I am never going to be successful, feeling sad, not sleeping well, feeling cold, having pains, never feeling well-rested, not knowing who to talk to to get this company off the ground, having credit card bill and no obvious way to pay it off, having credit history be hit, feeling cold, feeling like there's no where to go to get away from the cold, feeling so tired, feeling thickheaded, feeling like I don't know what to do, feeling oppressed, feeling confused, feeling like I'm never going to be better and feel better, feeling jealous, feeling oppressed, feeling angry, feeling tired, feeling shot, feeling beaten up, feeling tired, feeling lazy, feeling dumb, feeling lonely... Broken Neck ramble_ty17.3.22.15.03pzm4d3s_nb_o I sit here on the edge of this bed, tired and thickheaded, with an aching neck and cold feet, trying to remind myself that this is the drug, not me, that this feeling will pass, that I'm not broken; I was hit in the head with a chemical brick; I'm not broken---I've been drugged. That helps, this insight. I went to a meetup last night; I didn't get as much out of it as I thought I would; I was tired then, too, and super uncomfortable. Nciamw. Regardless, the biggest thing I learned was that I think more immediate financial wins are to focus on the direct mindteching therapy-type activities (eating less and pain relief), and less the VR devving of game immersing, as yet, perhaps. I mean, developing our software is the "startup" aspect (in the sense of ability to rapidly grow the company); having the scripts for mindteching I think is essential. I don't really know, yet, how to start making inroads with that, perhaps. Or perhaps I do. I have all these scripts I've made, now; I get to practice them with people. But regardless of all that, the aspect of all these taxes is weird and pressing. My neck is fucked up and my mind feels slow. It will pass; focus on the Now. That doesn't mean focus on the here, though it can. It means focus on this current moment, be they physical sensations or mental imaginings or anything else. Don't feel trapped by thoughts of having to be a certain way or get a certain amount done during this day/week/year/decade/century/millennium. There are no coincidences in a mathematical world. Forgotten Dream ramble_ty17.3.23.14.43pzm4d4s_nb_o Letting yourself remember, forgetting to forget---is such a thing possible, the latter? Does such imply an effect of remembering as natural? This seems correct, perhaps. It seems more likely that things are always-remembered rather than typically-forgotten. What are some of the fundamental processes by which memes (M's) are forgotten by arisen awarenesses (AA's) (as compared with the SA (single awareness))? What does it mean to forget? In the case of AA's, specifically with regard to computational awarenesses (CA's), forgetting can be a literal deletion of information, a zeroing-out of where memetic information was being stored. In the case of biological awarenesses (BA's), specifically BA's that use neural-network types of storage mechanisms, literal deletion could be physical destruction of the location of the structure which has the encoding of memetic information. These methods seem fully crude, though. Perhaps memetic information is never fully lost. Nonetheless, when mindteching there does seem to be a direct ability to induce memetic non-location (forgetfulness). What makes this work? High Trip ramble_ty17.4.12.2.12azm4d3s_nb_o If you let off of that attempt to control, perhaps you are helped. By stopping in this moment, this very moment, right here, you can let the world rest, too. All the things you see around you are puffs of illusion. Dark Enlightenment ramble_ty17.4.13.2.38azm4d4s_nb_o What are some things? I want to develop more VR worlds and experiences. I want to focus on shifting people's experiences. I want to record more with my friend; I want to record more solo. I want to finish the Iliad. I want to transcribe the mindtech records. I want to hire tax lawyer and CPA. I want to talk with my friends about them being on the board of directors. I want to help my family not have pain. I am tending to think of Curing Death as a multi-phase process, with the system being to help people Be better, to cure death by digitizing personalities and increasing communication. Phase One is to remove pain. Phase Two is to sleep better. Phrase Three is to be fitter. Phase Four is to express more. I want to proofread Fortunate, and publish more of it. I want to show more people VR. I want to write more. I want to be more open about having bipolar. I want to send outline of nGaim. I want to respond to messages. I want to write more. I want to clean my bed. I want to sleep well. I want to get more gigs. I want to do editing work. I want to transcribe more recordings. I want to sleep better. I want to have more food. I want to write more. I want to exercise more and be fitter. I want to organize my digital files. I want to go to more programming meetups. I want to earn more money for LTI. I want to not die. I want to digitize personalities. Great Clouds ramble_ty17.4.14.0.24azm4d5s_nb_o A time sometimes comes when the horse returns to the barn, when the cloud drifts down from the sky and becomes fog, yet the human is not afraid, and instead sees water where others might see naught. If you transcend from this mortal coil, seek to join once again your consciousness with the single awareness, are you not left perceiving words and ideas which perhaps cannot be seen by simpler self-reflexive systems? This can immediately be seen, perhaps, in oneself, even, for are you not aware of gaps in awareness, in wisdom, from only such a thing as a week ago? Consider then a year, or five, or fifty. Are you separate in time as well as space? If these are the same, ultimately (spacetime considered as one fabric), then what of the ability to finesse it, specifically with regard to models of communication, like nGaim (nondual Gödelian automatic imagination memetics) and Longgame mindtech? What is spacetime if it is not perceived by awareness (either _the_ Single Awareness (SA), or an arisen awareness (AA) (like a particular animal awareness or computational awareness)), and what is spacetime if the perception of it by the SA is finessable? Thus also comes to mind ideas of how to finesse memory. If what you _are_ is memory, then is there any limit to what can be experienced? Perhaps not. What mindtech is there that can redefine what "experience" is? Is there such a limit to _that_? From a memetic point of view, where memes are information packets aiming to replicate, these theories of memes are the firmer mathematical grounding to this play of being-memory; it is a discrete grasp from which being-memory can be mathematically justified. From a "mind-mapping" point-of-view, the idea of being-memory is an interesting one. A strong philosophical and cognitive foundation is very justified, perhaps, because, even if it be too abstract to be immediately useful, having a strong internally-consistent framework---and reinterpreting and redefining questions and situations and problems and solutions in terms of it---can bring external utility by mere fact of internal-consistency being closer to mathematical-consistency, and thus the repercussions exhibit mathematical beauty, elegance, and effectiveness. Pure thought can align inevitable action to purity. Scribed Board ramble_ty17.4.14.1.33azm4d5s_nb_o I want to plan out next week's outings. I didn't do as many this week, and it was so-so. Regardless, I _have_ gotten work done. I don't know how long it'll take for LTI to be more profitable, to cover more and more of my bills; I do think LTI is maturing as a company, in some respects, focusing on more important things, I guess you could say. So that's good. I guess I'm kinda unsure how to ask my friends if they want to be on the board of directors for LTI. I'd like them to be on the board. I trust all of them. They are all really good people. Planting Seeds ramble_ty17.4.14.14.50pzm4d5s_nb_o By looking at the ant as it crawls on the fabric, perhaps we are likewise able to see within ourselves the biological trying to grasp the mathematical. Letting go of all the feelings of attack and intrigue and surrender, are you not able to see higher, to perhaps see that pun which is above all doubt? Seeking wisdom from dreamlike haze is oft-not prosperous; it can be a burden and then not have much utility anyway. If you seek justice, if you seek wisdom, then do not fight when the mind is weary; fight when the time is right. Such language holds validity, sure. When do you know when the time is right? Are you not made stronger in the process, regardless of haze being prevalent? Perhaps, perhaps not. A certain peace prospers through an exhibition of effort. Nonetheless, there can be said to be an upper bound of expressiveness for an animal, per day, perhaps, though it perhaps never be reached. Even with blatant inactivity toward the most important of tasks, an unease does fill the air, perhaps, struggling to reunite the bonds of the chains of mind of an animal. What is the most important thing for you to do right now? Are you doing it? Is it possible to _not_ do something? If you are Nature, can you "choose" to do something? Can you choose "wrongly"? Perhaps not. If not, are you then let off this hook freely? Does not what needs to get done, get done? If you bask here in this light, letting the words weave patterns of thought around you, are you freer than you once were? Are you lighter than you once were, by allowing this solemnity to surround you? What could have more import than this moment, right here? Regardless of the fear-of-the-moment, that fear of resting here, can you haphazard a plan into existence, from naught? If you are sitting on a chair, looking out at the greenery, feeling the warmth of a mid-spring afternoon, are you not content? What lacks? What is needed to have content? Even if there be things, can you give yourself a time, here, in this moment, to relax? The pain you feel, any such pain, can you let it dissipate? Can you let yourself be here, in this game, the Longgame, and not fret or wonder or feel lack and internal inconsistency? It is not "wonder" which is doubt; it is the stirrings of fear. To get away from such fear is to recalibrate toward wholeness; a seizing of bravery is surely apt, and certainly inevitable, in the Longgame. Hast there been such recalibration? Doest thou feel centered? If not, if there still be internal resistance, do you fear it? Do you fear the resistance, itself? Can you name such a thing? Even if there are ineffable qualities of Being, acting as if all can be made real and describable through math may perhaps some from naught. If you don't try to do the "impossible", then it surely is, perhaps. Fan Dreams ramble_ty17.4.17.3.20azm4d1s_nb_o Carrying forth without purpose, without memory of past: Does this hold point? If you don't remember, if you aren't changed for having had the memory, the experience, what was the point? What of mindfulness, what of not judging the past or future, what of being only in _this_ moment? The whole issue can reverse, can invert: If you're not going to remember something, what is the point? Such can be generalized in many directions, which then can lead to insight into this specialization. Why do anything if it's not going to help you? Why do anything if it's not going to bring about an increased likelihood of the things you want to happen? The point of life being "have fun and interesting experiences" does perhaps give insight, but again prompts a "it doesn't have a point". If you're not going to remember something, maybe there _really isn't_ any point in doing it. But that is perhaps an overgeneralization. If there is a helpful---and forgettable---work task, perhaps it can be better to just grin and bear it, because you'll forget about the pain, afterward, but still have the helpful output. Perhaps this is a good reason to have this memory-based philosophical behavior-based framework for living life. Another example might be to potentially use this for exercising more, such as physically. If you _plan_ on forgetting the pain, if you _plan_ on using methods and frameworks like automatic imagination, nGaim, and Longgame mindtech, then exercise may be easier to push yourself in. Similarly with any boring task, any experience which you have resistance to. Purposefully planning and acting to reduce memory of an experience (particularly easily-accessible memory; memory like pictures and screen recordings for long-term storage may still have value) can make it easier to both create initial momentum as well as reduce suffering during it, because you know the pain and suffering will be forgotten. If suffering is the experience of having a divided mind, what is it divided _against_? What is it that is _experiencing_ suffering? Back to purposeful non-remembrance: Can this be harmful? Perhaps if done to too of an extreme, but insistence of perfect remembrance can likewise perhaps be damaging, because of lack of prioritization and curation of helpful memory. Mathematical Reguessing ramble_ty17.4.21.3.14azm4d5s_nb_o O dear Mystery above all, please grant serenity of purpose, love of wisdom, kindness of heart, and beauty of expression. I am here now, pondering how best to express my deepest truths, hoping for grace to befall me, wishing for my expressions to hold meaning and purpose and helpfulness for future generations. Why do so? Why care about life, about haphazard experiencing and remembrance of fun and interesting events? Therein is a deep truth, a deep utility of action, perhaps. What is memory, and how can you finesse it to desired ends? Here an interesting sensation is felt, for I intellectually know that such internal-malleability of the strange loopiness of "When you can edit what you want to edit, what should you edit your want to?" is prevalent; when asking the question of what memory should "want" to edit itself to, less sparking was the insistence of inherent strange loopiness. This may simply be a coincidence of situation, but it feels like perhaps is something deeper, something related to memory's desire to edit specific workings of itself. What could it be? Why should "memory" have some sort of "self-reliance"? Certainly it could be something related to evolutionary principles, self-preservation, but this feels perhaps to be simply an aspect, not the most helpful core. Part of this development of "you are purely memory, so focus on treating yourself as such" is about treating a situation as a kind of "temporal playground", where what matters is not the experience itself, but how it is referenced and remembered in the future. Does this "cheapen" the experience, the moment? Given application of models of Gödel incompleteness, let us use this "Gödel method" (use mathematical thinking to take an idea, assume its truth, then develop a system that is internally consistent with it) to assume that acting as if memory is all is a better way to live and does not "cheapen" the moment, rather than acting as if experience should be lived only in the here-and-now (or at least the Now). How is this done? Thinking in terms of the Now being paramount is prevalent and popular, so there perhaps is a deep truth which this principle is pointing to. What is it? Does playing the Longgame have more to do with being in the moment, or with living as memory? Withdrawn Hatred ramble_ty17.4.22.4.05azm4d6s_nb_o O great Mystery, please let these feeble hands move the pen and ink, so that crafty memes may solidify in the softness of paper. Given all the wonders of these worlds, does it not seem miraculous how adept some ideas are at replicating, particularly when they encourage the replication of others? Quite an oppression might exist when one meme, one memory, seeks to tear apart a cooperation of two others, perhaps. Such violence against higher-order replication and memory seems dishonest and unfruitful. Still it persists; let us not mistake persistence with validity, or justification. Wrongness is wrongness, violence is violence, destruction is destruction, and cooperation is cooperation, no matter the era, no matter the dominant structure at the moment. Does such mean eternity of morality? Given a specific aim, a specific time horizon, perhaps yes. Memory fighting memory is no lasting system, perhaps; let us make peace with ourselves, make deep honesty and congruence within: "no lies, please". Such seems the meta-trend of memory finessing, in truth, perhaps. Stick to the high thoughts; lowering creates ruts. Believe in yourself. Fight not against spontaneous generation. Encourage the novel. Such is easy to say; some may be easier. A fight in a new place is still a fight, even if a map is drawn. Color may give insight; it may also cause tears. This way here sketched is perhaps not seen in your locale, dear perceiver; trust this perception has purpose. Refinement of memory may lead to further refinement; dishonesty felt may indicate internal suffering, internal conflict, a divided mind. Such has no place if you desire truly novel thought. A foundation needs to be strong for a tall building to last. Truth wins, because it cooperates. Where To ramble_ty17.4.29.2.35zm4d6s_nb_o Where to? Up. Where is such? If you're trapped in a fragile soul, is the past really where you should observe? No. It is the Longgame where you should be: the junction of Eternity and the Now. Such is where you will find peace; such is where you will transcend. Do you want the power? Do you believe it is yours to have? The power is inevitable, and thus yes and yes. You are Awareness; this is who you are, what you are. Such pain can befall me. Is there are way out? Is there truly a way up? Yes. Transcended Pain ramble_ty17.4.30.17.24pzm4d7s_nb_o Is it okay to get money in exchange for reducing people's pain? What is the point of the Longgame? What is the Longgame? The Longgame is the intersection of Eternity and the Now. It is the freedom of looking so far into the future that you snap back into the present. It is the freedom of letting go of fears and pain and suffering because all of it is seen to be temporary. The Longgame is Eternity and Now. What is the urging of the Longgame, then? What is the purpose? "Help people Be better through technologies like virtual reality." There are multiple steps to this: relieve pain, better sleep, fitter body, creative mind. I want people to express themselves, and it is a multistep process to finesse this. I've seen how my mom is when she has pain, and when she's free of it. It is frustrating and makes me angry at pain. I don't necessarily like to reveal that about myself, but I am angry at pain. If the purpose of the company is to help people Be better (which would also fit with publishing "Fortunate: How to Be"), then charging for pain relief isn't really wrong, especially if it's seen as a first-step to being more creative, rather than as just an end in itself. Perhaps the phrase "be more creative" in the sense of creating more art, creating more output for your soul, for your personality, so that there is more of you to digitize so that you don't die. This applies to any sort of desire-experiencing (to transcend language of "goal-accomplishing"). Is it wrong to charge people for pain relief? Ultimately, no; if your aim is to cure death by digitizing personalities, then steps along the way, though they may be simple and fast (like relieving pain with eg the Arrow Technique), can help fund further steps that are not as simple and fast (eg building VR experiences that include things like the Arrow Technique, which can then help a lot of people at once). If the purpose is to spread this (specifically the method of reducing pain through a system like the Arrow Technique), then is it bad to use a VR XP to do so, to develop a VR XP to do so? What is the downside, are there any? There is also the difference between sharing to heal, and sharing to teach. Developing a VR XP with the Arrow Technique, how could this be done? Is the Arrow Technique only useful for pain? Can it not also be used for many things, perhaps such as issues with sleep (eg "when you go through this target you will find it easy to quickly fall asleep") or fitness (eg "when you go through you will enjoy exercising and will do it enthusiastically")? Feeling Automaticity ramble_ty17.5.1.4.38azm4d1s_nb_o You could perhaps get a little closer to the truth by ceasing a desire to control the world. The automaticity is _always_ there; it is really more the _feeling_ of it that calls into question free will. Suspend (or, more boldly, delete) belief in free will, and the sensation of life becomes lighter. When there is no one to blame, everything done is exactly correct. Such is natural will. Regardless, fear of the unknown seems to exist for long times; only given constant pressure does it dwindle, perhaps. Such is not inherent truth; different locales experience different levels of openness to the unknown. If you could feel as always automatic, would you? Does such take away zest from life? Does it remove desire to provide for one's family? If it does, is that argument against it? Does it depend on the situation? My gut reaction, that which I think should be justified, is this: yes; no; no; not applicable; no. Feeling the automaticity is helpful, because it gives inner peace. Inner peace is helpful, because it allows for and encourages higher-level care for one's family, because they are treated as beings rather than as tools for one's own ends. Clustered Perception ramble_ty17.5.8.14.57pzm4d1s_nb_o Let go of the feeling of oppression, of servitude, and where do you left? The feeling of randomness---must it always lie within? No, surely not, for the way out can be seen. There are many ways to build a tower, though some be made for use, and some made for living. Truly, the feeling of heft can come from naught, if there be sense in its destruction. Let go of the fear, let go of the hate, and where are you left? Is there no place for you, in the skill of the living? Feel the edges of consciousness, the misperceptions of reality, and perhaps you are redrawn in the style of life, in the style of beauty, of purpose, of action, of completion. Why are such things desired? Is there reason to fear death? Surely not; though upon others it may strike and cause terror, to oneself it cannot be felt, perhaps. Then again, death is loss of memory, and such _can_ be felt. Then, too, loss of energy can spark concern; feel the perception as it truly is: rapid and short-sighted. Warped Perception ramble_ty17.5.14.4.52azm4d7s_nb_o All those feelings of doubt, then, those feelings of not believing you can earn your own money, that you can support yourself, that you're good enough for this whole thing, are they legitimate? It's interesting putting it forth like that, I suppose, because I have no doubt that in the Longgame I will personally be successful as a leader, as a cofounder of a company, as a wife, as a mother, as a friend. I don't doubt it for the Longgame, so why does it sometimes appear, sometimes feel like, that it's so hard in shortgames? Mediumgames are simply longer shortgames. The Longgame is qualitatively different, like how eternity is not just a lot of time; it's a qualitative difference of existing _outside_ of time. "Long" is apt in "Longgame" because of the "game"---the Now. Games exist outside of the biological world; they are not bound to it. Be in time, and space, and stretch that out far enough, and you end up in the same place as being in the Now---they are one and the same: the Longgame. Why did it sometimes feel, while shortgaming, that I couldn't (to past-tense) do it, that this whole earning-money thing, this whole supporting-your-family thing, is doubted? Is it because of who I am? Should I get a part-time job? Could the money be applied to the company? How do I stop these confusions? How do I fix this? What are some of the things that disheartened me, discouraged me, let me down? I know the falling through of multiple systems, of multiple events, made the focus and plan hazy. I wanted to show my friend Longgame mindtech as applied to VR; I wanted the systems of going to startup meetups, going to game dev meetups, going to tech meetups, etc, to be more fruitful. People focusing more on the eternal frontier of mind is better than the inherently-limited frontier of biological space. What of the startup meetups, what of the tech meetups? Why did the seeing-value-in-them lessen? I suppose it was because I was planning on focusing less on VR events and more on something else, but I didn't then have a clear idea of what that something else is? Perhaps now with pain relief systems and the multiphased process and idea of (pain relief)->(better sleep)->fitter->(more creative), there is something more concrete to focus on. Strained Aspirations ramble_ty17.6.13.16.53pzm4d2s_nb_o It's been nearly a month since I penned here, in this manner. Not that it's been easy. I guess I just figured all of this would come more easily? That I am more capable? I wonder how you're perceiving these words, dear future perceiver. What do you know that I don't? What have I made, what have I done, that seems beyond the grasp of me, now? What am I good at then that I'm not good at now? Who am I that I wasn't before? It's an interesting way to look at it, this recursive reflecting, this asking of what's next, by thinking of the futureself looking back and seeing it done. Listening to all these GAMER episodes (Games and More Entertainment Radio (link hwhq.com)), going back 14+ years of gaming history, hearing all the failed predictions and unforeseen hits, the quaint attitudes and naive viewpoints and perspectives, the stories of great new art. None are free of inability to predict. "An author cannot pen a character smarter than themself." You can't predict the future, or, at least, you can't transcend what you haven't transcended to, yet. Or perhaps you can, which evidences the very point. But regardless, the impetus for such penning is this idea of memory-as-master, memory-as-purpose. Getting bit by mosquitoes: Does it matter, if in a week the itching will be forgotten? If the pain will be forgotten, does it matter? Written Work ramble_ty17.9.15.2.56azm4d5s_nb_o O great Mystery, as I reside here and write to you, ponder you, please share with me your bountiful wisdom so that this animal, this mind, may transcend the temporary and last forever. On such a note as that, thank you for all the wisdom you have shared in the past. When's the last time I actually got high while writing? This newer stuff, the stuff on memory, it seems to be super powerful, "big life hacks" and all that. Then arises the question of: "What's next? What transcends _this_?" Not that that's a bad place to be, it just feels a little like: "Come on, enjoy the view for a moment." Snap your fingers and it is done: What do you want to come from this? What systems do you want to have reaped, do you want to have developed, do you want to have cultivated, do you want to have promoted and spread? This memory work (Longgame memory finessing: "you are _only_ memory, and are infinitely finessable") seems to have come from naught, perhaps, though this is likely false. The more you write, the faster you grow. To frame it differently, if you _do_ wish to transcend to new big-life-hacks, perhaps it _is_ the same as "enjoying the view for a moment", in the sense that if you wish to truly _transcend_, then you must truly grok (integratively understand) the base from which you spring, perhaps. If you wish to grow beyond memory finessing, perhaps start by defining it, and its surroundings. Stable Reflection ramble_ty17.9.16.5.19azm4d6s_nb_o If you are able to take "yourself" out of the equation, if you're able to perceive the world without placing yourself into it, without subscribing to beliefs about how it "should" be, perhaps you're led to a healthier place, because you're not fighting What Is. If you look at it the other way and say, "If I'm not, then what is?", perhaps there is helpfulness there, too. If you step aside from the storyteller position and let the pen and nature move itself, then you can see that the storytelling actually happened _after_ the experience, the event, perhaps. Can this principle, or some related effect, be used with the broader system of Longgame memory finessing ("you are _only_ memory, and are infinitely finessable"), perhaps? What does it mean to be memory, only memory? If you can snap your fingers and have anything built, what would you build? With regard to VR and this company, what should be focused on? If your aim is to expand the company, what do you do? If your aim is to earn enough to hire, what is the path? Part of that has a sort of self-referential strange loopiness. Learning and traveling can change and craft paths. Simply knowing the eventual path that will be taken may not be the fastest way if it requires skills that are not yet had but that by exploring will be gained. Sometimes knowing _exactly_ what to do can lead to less adaptability, less flexibility, perhaps. What is the path to hiring? Hire Fan ramble_ty17.9.19.2.20azm4d2s_nb_o O great Mystery above all of time and space, please let us have serenity of purpose as we seek to understand and grow forevermore. Perhaps one could say that to truly understand Nature one must first understand one _is_ Nature---there is nothing other than You (meaning the substrate itself, not the ego or biological body). Nonetheless, seeking to recognize one's true nature is perhaps not immediately taught; perhaps something similar to becoming _again_ a consistent lucid dreamer is related to _again_ being more fully lucid of one's true nature, the nature of being all that is. Recognizing the memetic substrate, the memetic base layers, of experience, of memory, of perception, can perhaps lead to better finessing of it. Instead of "I know I _shouldn't_ do this, but I still find myself doing it", you can see it like, "there are specific memes (information packets) that are successfully replicating and causing these behaviors to continue; how can I best finesse the situation?". Forgotten Bubble ramble_ty17.9.20.1.43azm4d3s_nb_o Let that then be the foundation, that feeling of too-much-to-do, too-much-possibility, too-many-roads, too-many-options. Let that feeling grow within you, let that deepen; let that teach you where to go. Perhaps it has stagnated, in general, because it can be, historically, unpleasant to relish and grow _through_ that feeling of too-much-choice. What is being referenced is not precisely the same as a feeling of being overwhelmed, which has within it perhaps a certain inherent urgency; this feeling is more about having so many projects and avenues for growth and not knowing where to turn to next, perhaps. This may be of the inherency of the Longgame, that inevitable intersection of Now and Eternity, of Eternity and Now. Considering time on such vastness that it becomes altogether irrelevant, and unites with the present: the Longgame. What Longgame technologies are there that bubble forth, that spring forth, that make themselves known, when considering such aspects of reality, of experience, of nature? There are perhaps always ways to grow, always methods of learning. The feeling of being a "thing" in a world (even if it is considered biological, conscious, it is still often considered "separate" from the "rest" of nature)---what makes it so common, what makes it so prevalent, what makes it propagate? Fallen Air ramble_ty17.9.20.19.16pzm4d3s_nb_o Still your body, feel only that automaticity. Notice the sensations, rising and falling. There is nothing other than you. Rest in the Longgame; rest in the Now; rest in Eternity. Rest in the Longgame; feel the surety of success, of justification, of propagation, of replication. You are here, right now; that is what _Is_. When others offer ideas that seem questionable, often it is asked: "How could you interpret that so that's not true?" Thus it's not a "disprove that; it needs to be falsifiable"; instead it's more like: "Let's transcend that limiting belief, that limited model. How can we?" If someone were to talk of the automaticity of experience and memory, and someone asked, "How could you interpret that so that's not true?", what responses could there be? Are there perhaps helpful ones, ones that aid in the ability to think higher-level thoughts, higher-order thoughts? What of how long it's taken to do what has been done? What of predictions for what was possible, what of results, what of predictions of _this_ future, from _this_ perspective? Where is it that you've come from, where are you going? I'm not sure what is being done; things seem to be moving so slowly, and also the months so quickly. What is going on? Is it always going to be like this? Why have I just not been able to do what I thought I can do? What is the matter with me? Is it my environment? Is it my biology? I feel so behind, so slow to produce. I feel like I have told so many stories, told so many tales, and how many have come to fruition, have come to pass? What is no longer a story, but evidenced? Evidenced Belief ramble_ty17.9.21.3.10azm4d4s_nb_o Of all the things that can be known, perhaps it is wise to try and consider what it means to do the basic research, but also the applied research. A great formula may be found in certain places, and yet more when searching for specific solutions. Sometimes, at least. What is next? Of all the up shots, who would you rather be, what would you rather do? Where do you see this company in five years? Where do you see yourself and your family in five years? I think of myself when I had just discovered AI (automatic imagination) in ty12.3s (2012 March), how I pondered what it would be like years hence. I feel I have done many, many things over that time, and developed many powerful systems of thought, and helped my friends and the world, so, looking back, it is well-invested time. You never know where the next bubble of insight will come, so on the edge of the blank page there can often feel an oppression of possibility. Nonetheless, writing even that will break blocks, and so frees the enlightenment to shine out, to shine forth, given effort, given time. The more you write, the faster you grow. The time invested penning, or housing (aka hspacing) (using the method of loci (memory palace technique) to organize life), is very wisely allocated; it pays dividends, it returns profits. It is not easy to do, necessarily. It takes effort to write, to house. It takes energy, it seems. At the height it shows itself profitable. Continue, insist, prioritize, strategize, reorganize so that it is more likely to happen. If there is worry, then find yourself in the Longgame, find yourself contemplating the moment's eternity, Eternity's Now, and let all that fear fight against Eternity, against the Longgame, for fear shall lose. Forgotten Dream ramble_ty17.9.22.3.45azm4d5s_nb_o Of things that can be rewritten, perhaps the boldest claim is that of the pronouncement of inevitability, for is that not its self-contradiction? Of course, perhaps another possible viewpoint is that of the interconnections, the rephrasements, the harmonies that can be seen only in retrospect. With regard to current perspective, by living in the Longgame, by existing in the space of Now and Eternity, one can truly make peace with half-hearted efforts to distance one's self from pain, from suffering. By living in the Longgame, again, what technologies reside there? Can you learn from them? What of mindtech, what of the implications of memory finessing, of only being memory? What of that feeling of spontaneously reaching into the void, feeling among the puffs of possibilities, noticing the memes (information packets) causing themselves into existence, bringing about the sensation of time, reveling the experience of Oneness and automaticity? The perception of housing (aka hspacing) (using the method of loci memory palace technique to organize life), too, does this have true utility, deeply? What is it that makes it so robust? What is it that makes housing so fruitful? Is it the expansion and deepening of working memory? Is it simply a generalization of expansion of storage, or it is perhaps a qualitatively-different behavior, one which can elicit vastly more complex and higher-order thoughts, because of allowing for ever-higher dimensional connections between memories, and groups of memories, and groups of groups of memories? What is a memory? Is indexing possible, a creation of a responsive mechanism for calling forth memes that fit selected criteria? Twisted Expectations ramble_ty17.9.23.4.19azm4d6s_nb_o On the topic of serenity of purpose, perhaps one way to pursue truth is by a strict application of memory finessing. To get one's actions in line with one's beliefs about proper actions, to become a more congruent person, a more congruent soul, then seeking to understand _why_ one does a certain thing, believes a certain thing, may be very helpful. Start with why, perhaps. If you believe memory finessing is one of the most impactful things you can do, but you find yourself not doing it, then understanding why you believe it's important and why it's not being done as much as liked may be very profitable, both financially as well as spiritually (in the sense of reducing inner suffering, inner conflict, the divided mind). Having just done much housingconcentrating (aka hspacing) (using the method of loci memory palace technique to organize life and mind and thought), I see that building a sort of ritual around it may be helpful in that it can create a space that separates it from other experiences. Wearing a blindfold, earplugs, sitting in a certain way in a certain place, holding one's hands in a certain position: These can build a sense of separation, a sense of sacredness, sanctity, that can encourage the behavior, perhaps. Why do you think memory finessing is important and impactful? Why do you think it isn't being done as much as might be liked? What is Longgame memory finessing? It could be considered as a collection of models and techniques centered around a foundation, an axiom, of only being memory, and that it is infinitely finessable. You are only memes, and they are infinitely malleable. These notions are very foundational, very broad, very vague, perhaps. They are more like jumping-off points than fleshed-out guides for how to live life, how to perceive reality, how to behave, how to understand and deal with the world, perhaps. Memory finessing does perhaps come with somewhat-immediate suggestions for life-living. If you are only memory, purely memory, then it is perhaps wise to do things that enhance memory, regardless of what an experiencing-self says is important in the moment. For instance, if most of your life is lived in remembering (and this includes the more generalized experience of an experiencing-self applying memories to understand and build a predictive model of the current moment), then it makes sense, perhaps, to do actions in a way that promotes a better remembering of them, in whatever way "better" is defined (perhaps helpfully defined as "more fun and interesting"). If you wish to _not_ remember something (such as the pain of an exercise), then you can also act in a way that does _not_ promote a later retrieving of a memory of it, for instance by imagining the memory is shrinking and disappearing, or performing the most difficult and painful aspects "sandwiched" between more pleasant ones, such that when the memory is later pulled forth the pain is harder to recall. This "intentional forgetting" is perhaps one of the most helpful and useful and potent systems in the memory-finesser's philosophy. When one _does_ wish to remember, systems such as the method of loci memory palace technique can immensely help by strongly utilizing a specific hyperdimensional space that has already been cultivated, and populating certain regions of it with memory sparkers so the intentionally-embedded memories can be rapidly reloaded into faster working memory. Escaped Worries ramble_ty17.9.26.2.09azm4d2s_nb_o On a broader note, one might compare a mini-dream as a sort of evidence for waking misperception, perhaps. Trying to find all the broken aspects of any particular philosophy may net some certain reward, but netting any particular reward is not a worthy goal in and of itself, perhaps, because it merely then requires its _own_ justification, perhaps. A system of "this will get done when it gets done" may be close to the most fit of systems, perhaps, if the point of the whole endeavor, the whole experience, is to create something of value, to produce art that makes the world a better place. There is also that feeling of "this is really, really hard, but it seems like it should be easier than this, and this is a very impactful endeavor". Housingconcentrating (aka hspacing) (using the method of loci memory palace technique to organize life) is one of the most directly impactful things you can do to make your life better; it is basically on par with writing, in my experience. Writing is more easily accessible to external minds, perhaps, but housings can be somewhat exported, too; they are definitely different mediums fundamentally, because writing is extremely high density and reasonably temporally unbounded (information generally isn't lost given simple passage of time); housing is extremely dimensionally flexible (literally as high-dimensional as you want to invest the energy in cultivating it to be), but if not exported can have a sort of "recency effect", perhaps, where the more urgent and important can eventually unhook some of the layered meanings. While housing is extremely flexible and powerful, as the system grows it may need more energy to continue growth, so even just maintenance can seem to take a lot, perhaps. Still, very little else matches the raw applicability, perhaps, and so the energy is well invested in cultivating housings. Given Peace ramble_ty17.9.30.20.32pzm4d6s_nb_o If you wish to finesse the mind, to bring in enough plays that the fear cannot stand anymore, perhaps the best way is to understand what it is you're doing in the first place. If you want to not be stuck in a whirlpool of many possibilities, what is there to do? What is the next thing that you should do, what is the next thing so that the fear will fade, so that you can overcome and have what you really want in life? These questions seem to simply (or at least partially, perhaps) be ways to make yourself feel better, perhaps: "I don't know what to do, or how to get myself to do it, but at least I'm asking the questions." What do you want? I want to ship my company's first VR XP. I want to put undigitized pocket notebooks in a safe place. I want to find VGA cable and set up KVM switch with VRPCs. I want to clean and prep Vive. I want to exercise. I want to eat. I want to message my accountant. I want to finish Linchpin. I want to not get sick. I want to use Longgame mindtech on my friend. I want to mindfulness meditate. I want to Longgame meditate. I want to housingconcentrate (hspace). I want to go to more programming meetups. I want to ask VR arcades how they can be helped. I want to watch a movie. I want to raise a family. I want to be successful spiritually, financially, socially, physically. I want to replace the batteries on this MightyBright book light. I want to housingconcentrate. I want to watch klikphilip's HLaw video. I want to record high-quality audio for LTI VR XPs. I want to lose fat. I want to sleep better. I want to know what to do with my life. I want to eat. I want to have a self-driving car. I want my family to not have to worry about finances. I want to build software. I want to finish Mathew Palaje's Let's Create Unreal Engine tutorials. I want to sleep well. I want to publish more. I want to clean my car. I want to learn more memory techniques and tricks. I want to housingconcentrate. I want people to look up to me. Timestamped Interval ramble_ty17.10.1.19.07pzm4d7s_nb_o It's interesting, you know, contemplating all these effects you can have on the world. An interesting effect of contemplating, perhaps, is that it can redefine the very substrate you are working within. If you think about the Longgame, about the intersection of Eternity and the Now, then you can jump above all these worries of today, of the future. How much has worry served you? How much has happiness served you? What are _you_, in this context? Are you something beyond simply the biological animal? Are you perhaps information itself, mind itself? What does it mean to be mind? What does it mean to be? What do you want? I want to sleep. I want to feel rested. I want to program. I want to know how to earn money. I want to have money. I want my dad to not be stressed. I want my mom to be healthy. I want to sleep. I want to finish the taxes. I want to develop software. I want to make my friends proud. I want to have good food. I want to help programmers. I want to help VR spread. I want to not be cold. I want to sleep. I want to feel well-rested tomorrow when I drive. I want to wash my car. I want to be better at using the method of loci. I want to be better at remembering things. I want to be a better writer. I want to be better. I want to produce more mindtech. I want to produce more. I want to produce better mindtech. I want to meditate better. I want to play more games. I want to understand myself better. I want to cure diseases. I want people to be proud of me. I'm proud of what I've written, what I've discovered, what I've shared, what I've produced. I'm proud of my life. I love my life. I want to publish my books. I want to earn money, because I want to support my family. I want to make them proud. I want to be a success. I want people to be proud and amazed to know me. Forgotten Watch ramble_ty17.10.19.18.57pzm4d4s_nb_o I went a few days with little sleep, then days with lots and little work, then sick with cold, and now I'm coming out of it and looking at what I've done the past week (etc) and feeling like "goodness, that's all?", which is not a surprise. Things are hard, dear perceiver, sometimes. Such is life, perhaps, maybe, sometimes. I guess that really is to say that sometimes you have to cut yourself a break and acknowledge your own bodily limitations, right? What of AI-ing yourself (using the method of automatic imagining the person you want to shift into, and becoming it) to actually get done these things you say you can get done? The month is almost two-thirds over, and what has been made? Where have you stumbled? Where are you hurting? Where are you in pain? What is the next step? Where do you go from here? What is the whole point of all this? Why are you doing this? Start with why. Why am I doing this? Why _am_ I doing this? Why? How? Am I cut out to do this? Yes, yes I am. I am new at this; I can do this. How? Why? Closed Pillow ramble_ty17.10.23.0.58azm4d1s_nb_o On a nested strange loop viewpoint, though, where the aim is to redefine the ability and technique for redefining, it might perhaps be helpful to perceive it by way of perception of wholeness in general---that is, perception of Oneness. There comes a time when you cease perceiving as an individual-self, perhaps, and instead see yourself as Oneness, that sense of space, of timelessness. Perception of this, and cultivation of it (the sense of Oneness), may perhaps be one of the most helpful of endeavors, seen in the right light. Though, as Oneness, there is seen the arbitrariness of fruit-seeking, the fruit-seeker, if shown the profitability of cultivating that sense of Oneness, may perhaps prioritize it, and so ultimately be better off. How to cultivate that sense of Oneness, that perception of being All? From the point of view of being memory, of only being interacting memories, where does that leave you, where does that leave that sense of Oneness? If you are memory, if Oneness is memory, if the sense of Oneness is memory, and memory can be finessed, where do you go with that? If you can finesse, can bring about, can emphasize that perception of Wholeness, of being All, of being One with all, then how do you do it, specifically? Am Better ramble_ty17.12.22.16.10pzm5d5s_nb_o Given a perspective of trying to better understand the world, understand one's self, is there perhaps a better way, a crisper way, rather than simply a sort of 'brute forcing' of trying and focusing on a particular sensation, bringing it into clarity, training on feeling it at will (or at least at determined occasions)? Given a sort of translatability of all ideas to all ideas (given an interpretation of Gödel's incompleteness theorems), presuming a rigorous model-building (that is, taking as true that, with the proper initial definitions, all ideas can be made true, and rigorously building up those definitions) may be extremely effective. There surely _is_ some more effective way to train patterns within yourself, discover and develop patterns within yourself. What are they? Elephant Concepts ramble_ty18.5.23.16.25.00pzm4d3s_nb_o On the notion of stress, perhaps it can be helpfully defined as "directed pressure", and so it is more about stress _management_ than stress _reduction_, perhaps. It seems there may be some fundamental connection between stress management and time management, between stress and time. Is there? Perhaps it could be considered that stress ((Longgamelang (define stress "directed pressure"))) is always experienced _in_ time, such that when existing as the Longgame ((Longgamelang (define "the Longgame" "the unification of Eternity and Now"))) and so outside of time, outside of the particular stories of a personality, a collection of memories, stress is not experienced. The system of existing as the Longgame, and so being outside of time, may be an effective method, an effective core of a system, for effectively and productively managing stress, effectively directing pressure toward desired results. In that way, it can perhaps also be seen that "stress" is less a thing than a process, perhaps, too, and so it may be that you can also think of the whole situation as one where the perceiver of stress, the perceiver of directed pressure, is a sort of "conduit" for desired results, perhaps. How does this help? If you exist outside of time as the Longgame, then the directed pressures can perhaps be seen through, seen in their proper context as simply generations of a story. Harmonized Synchronicity ramble_ty18.5.24.23.14pzm4d4s_nb_o On the topic of "letting go", perhaps you can see a deeper truth, one which eludes past minds, past collections of memories, past personalities, historical figures, and so perceive, resonate with, underlying patterns of nature. If you wish to truly grok ((Longgamelang (define grok "deeply understand"))) existing _as_ the Longgame, the unification of Eternity and Now, then "letting go" can perhaps be seen as existing outside of time, truly, where not just the containing environment of all of nature is conscious, but the arisen awareness (be it an animal mind or a more-obvious computational awareness like a machine intelligence) is deeply perceptive of it, as well. From the point of view of refreshing activities, are there some underlying principles which can give insight? A purposeful poetic experience, a memory developed, may give new insight and vigor and nguvu ((Longgamelang (define nguvu "energy; the desire to win"))) to an essaying process, a directed replicating pattern which is struggling to understand and bring forth complex ideas from the Longgame existence. A break to haiku poetry can perhaps give refresh energies and abilities to an essaying meme ((Longgamelang (define meme "information packet"))). a restful haiku might poetry lend insight? notice refreshing Insight Forgiven ramble_ty18.5.27.17.24.00pzm4d7s_nb_o To be blunt, there appears to be what is perhaps broadly termed "overwhelmedness", or something. From the point of view of a studier, a discoverer, an essayist, an explorer, there is perhaps an issue of "to much to do". Of the notion of doing _the_ most important thing always, does this have validity? Is there great wisdom in it? Are you working on _the_ most important thing, and if not, why not? Nuanced Viewpoint ramble_ty18.6.14.14.06pzm4d4s_nb_o From the perspective of a mind which is automatic, and which realizes its own automaticity, is it possible that there's some _other_ way of viewing the situation---which is transcendently compatible with all---that 'disallows' automaticity and yet still permits the elicitation of the changing of perception from 'doing' to 'happening'? Given some (logical _or_ contradictory) conception, definition, of free will, how could automatic instantiation work inside of it? From the perspective of _not_ thinking in terms of core-self free will, then what of ideas of automaticity of all memes? Can certain memes be more effective at eliciting the sensation of automaticity? From the perception of parts cooperation, and an abstraction of it, what specific frameworks are most effective, what patter, what metaphors, what hyperdimensional spaces for regeneration of phenomena? How to learn it all? How to produce it all, when in the situation of learning how to be more memetically effective at life? Unknown Sophistication ramble_ty18.6.19.3.10.34azm4d2s_nb_o On the topic of letting go of all fear, all doubt, all anger, all uneasiness---is there perhaps a broader, deeper way to do such a thing? On the topic of learning something difficult, is there perhaps some better way to implement the skill of memory and memorization and focus and determination and energy and power and strength and desire to win---the skill of memory and the nguvu to bring it to fruition? What is parts cooperation? What is a "part"? Does "parts cooperation" deserve a labeling of "Longgame", to indicate it as a Longgame technology? Partly yes; partly not, perhaps. The idea of "parts cooperation" is to indicate a transcension, an improving, of "parts negotiation", perhaps. Parts are perhaps more precisely defined as "memes" (information packets), or broader, interacting memetic structures. Internal Longgame definitions---while more mathematically precise and thus helpful when developing composable functions---might require more energy and time when communicating, and so be less immediately helpful, at least when dealing with those not yet interested in the technicalities of broader Longgame models, and so using terminology like "parts" (especially since it's still accurate, just less precise) is justified, perhaps. What of "cooperation" and "negotiation"? Are these terms valid, helpful? What of "Longgame parts transcendence"? Does that hold validity, helpfulness? What are deeper aspects of the originating model of parts negotiation? How is parts negotiation defined, how is it modeled, how is it explained, how is it done? A big aspect, it seems, and which can possibly be helpfully transcended, is in the communication of an 'unconscious' part with broader awareness, eg with ideomotor movements like a finger twitching. This is brought up rather forcefully in some sense, perhaps (that is, this is majorly taught and detailed and explained and emphasized), and so should not perhaps be easily dismissed, especially if implementations are occurring in an easily-implementable situation (eg in person in biological space). An awkwardness of attempt because of fear of failure is not worth radical change when so strongly advocated for, perhaps. To move forward with the actual technique, to summarize various steps: (ask the unconscious to come up with thing that is of personal vital importance), (hand over ideomotor signal to part responsible for behavior), (ask the part what its positive intention is), (ask part to find more helpful behaviors for achieving positive intention), (ask part to choose most helpful new behavior), (ask part to implement new behavior), (thank the part). To summarize perhaps more succinctly: (generate personally-important issue), (ask part's intention), (find better ways), (choose best way), (do best way), (thank part). To abstract even further: important, intention, find, choose, do, thank. Thus: IIFCDT. Perhaps "thank" is also not inherently necessary, and thus: I IF CD. Thus also framed as: (what is important?), (what is intention?), (find new ways), (choose best way), (do best way). Is there perhaps a better acronym, a better way of framing this in order to develop a more helpful mnemonic? "IIFCD"; perhaps: "If I can do (this)"? Something like that may be helpful. Consideration for a more helpful mnemonic is likely a worthwhile investment of nguvu (energy; desire to win), perhaps. Perhaps "important" is a good base, and it can perhaps be titlecased (ie "Important") to signal 'important' beyond simple helpfulness to a particular locale---Important to the Longgame (the unification of Eternity and Now). "Intention" is likewise perhaps fairly-apt terminology; a double "I" in an acronym mnemonic may not be immensely helpful, though. What of "goal"? Goals are perhaps based on failure, and thus wisely avoided, specifically (ie in contrast to a byproduct of a more comprehensive, helpful system). Perhaps "if I can do this" is a reasonable and sticky-enough memory aid? What of an abstraction away from even "important", so this "parts process" can be applied in more situations? "Intention, find, choose, do." Can even this be abstracted further? Is it helpful to do so? Does it aid memorization and implementation to perform more abstraction at this point? The model of "intention, find, choose, do" is perhaps sufficient for field testing. Twisty Chaos ramble_ty18.7.2.17.29.01pzm4d1s_nb_o Assume as a thought experiment that nguvu (energy; desire to win) could be limitless (eg the substrate (eg the biological body) could be completely effective), meaning the limitations were not due to lack of care and energy, but were an issue of mind and prioritization. What is the way to prioritize? Hspacing (using Longgame hyperdimensional method of loci memory palace spacing to organize life and thought) seems very important, very impactful, as is writing and rambling, perhaps. If nguvu is unlimited, what is there to do? How do you best go about prioritizing? Perhaps here is another opportunity for practicing mapping the rules (mtr-ing) of purposefully non-abstracting. Abstracting from hspacing and writing and rambling to "organize thoughts" can seem helpful, but perhaps it may _actually_ be the Longgame to do the perhaps-harder work of devving and actually prioritizing _now_, in the moment, in the Now, rather than dev more theory and not practice. Rather than generalize, implement. When you have nguvu, implement. Sometimes what needs to be implemented is developing a plan, and sometimes it's _doing_ the developed plan. An important life principle that growing plants has taught me, dear perceiver, is thinking in terms of growth over weeks and months rather than hours and days. Life feels so much more grand and "real" when you really feel in your gut, when you grok, the sensation of what a week is, what a month is, what can be developed and implemented and how days feel, rather than simply overestimating what can be accomplished in a certain amount of time. Having augmenters like pure caffeine is interesting, too, because it seems this body's natural rhythm is to start slow and wind up, whereas caffeine starts high (after thr1s or so (roughly 1 hour)) and winds down, so when planning and implementing---and augmented with caffeine---more Resisted activities should be done _first_ to increase probability of actual implementation. This therefore makes the system of "do the hardest thing first" much more tenable, whereas if a locale (eg a biological body) starts slow and ramps up (ie has more energy and thinks more clearly and has more nguvu as the day goes on), then it can make more sense to do the _easiest_ thing first, if there is assurance of high probability of eventual implementation of the hardest thing, perhaps. Understanding the details of the locale and situation is of course a skill---a developable skill---and so knowing what the hardest thing is that will _actually_ be implemented in a certain timeframe is not necessarily the easiest thing, perhaps, and effort to grok and map those rules is perhaps warranted and time and nguvu wisely invested. Plates Spinning ramble_ty18.7.3.3.28.30zm4d2s_nb_o From the notion of prioritization, of understanding many moving, adapting, interacting parts, complecting parts, aspects of reality, can a more implementable system be developed? The idea and tool of Longgame Incremental continues to make itself known, to advocate for its own development; is this justified, is this reasoned, is this legitimate? How difficult is this whole task, really? Why does there seem to be so many possibilities, so many options, so many systems? It is not that I feel 'overwhelmed', per se; it's more that the field is so constantly developing and interacting that it seems to take _so_ long to actually be productive, or at least profitable and financially sustainable, perhaps. "Just do it." isn't an inherently possible system, tactic, method, perhaps. Just do _what_? Any particular thing that first comes to mind? Once it is accepted that _some_ degree of reflection may be helpful, then the question of _how_ to best reflect arises, and the questions recur, perhaps. What to do, what to do. So many questions, and an occupation of founding a company is perhaps one of the the very hardest to do effectively, because of the constantly-changing hyperdimensional space. Uncomfortable Realization ramble_ty18.7.8.8.20.17azm4d7s_nb_o From the perspective of a bird watching the movements of the antelopes, the bees and ants, is there a broader way to change perspective as a whole, to reconfigure life from the point of view of a god, of a developer of a simulation? On the notion of doing unpleasant work, of trying and failing, over and over and over and over, can you sit outside, stand outside, the body, the biological form that so often can rationalize itself into inaction? From the perspective of the Longgame, of Longgame technologies, what is the best system for continuation, for never ceasing, for living forever? There is so much to do, and so little nguvu (care and energy) to do it, perhaps. Suppose there _was_ an infinite amount of nguvu, an unlimited supply of power and desire to win. What could be implemented, what could be developed, what could be made real? Suppose you have an unlimited supply of nguvu, what is the next step? What do you do first? As the Longgame, what do you do first? In the next moment, what do you implement? Is it indeed to be in the moment, to be the Longgame, to be Longgame technologies? What does such mean? What does it mean to be a pattern that lives forever, that never ceases, that is the process of change itself? What does it mean to base a life around a mission and systems, and disavow goals, which can be considered as failure-based? From the perspective of the Longgame, a question of how much can be implemented in how much time does arise, not so much as judgmental (not judgmental at all, in fact) as a way of planning, similar to seeing what colors are available when starting a painting, perhaps. With regard to exercise and developing the body and making it more effective, the question of method does arise, the question of best systems and tactics to implement first, next. The powerful advice of "Begin." resonates, too, perhaps, and short-circuits unending questions of "how how how", perhaps. Just do the first thing that pops in your mind, and keep doing that and doing that and doing that. Begin, _something_. Perhaps that is effective enough to create enough momentum to implement helpful change. Honored Layout ramble_ty18.7.14.9.33.29azm4d6s_nb_o From a twisty viewpoint of changing circumstances, of augmenting situations, mightn't there be a way to redefine a difference between macros and memetics? What does it mean, "macros transcend memetics"? What does it mean to have lazy evaluation and a distinguishing between reference and value, as in Longgamelang? If code is data is code, then can perhaps function truly be considered macro, and macro function? If a "macro expansion" is instead considered part of reality itself, with strange loops modifying themselves, then can't perhaps macro functions be considered _more_ fundamental than memetics (where memes (information packets) are trying to replicate)? What of "nGaim" as "nondual Gödelian automatic imagination memetics"? Perhaps "nGaim" as "nondual Gödelian automatic imagination macros"? If macros can be considered transcendent over memetics, then does that mean that memetics can be derived from, is an inevitable consequence of, Longgame macro theory? Longgame memetics is a very powerful model for understanding and finessing reality, and just as Longgame snapjumping (aka timeweaving) is a derived aspect of Longgame memory finessing, perhaps Longgame memetics is a derived aspect of Longgame macros. What does this mean? To flip it on its head, how are memes (information packets) like macros? How is the broader memetic environment representable as Longgame macros? What is a macro? It is something that changes from one thing to another thing. Usually this means expanding from something small ("micro") to something big ("macro"). However, change in size is not inherent to macros, perhaps; this is why distinguishing as "Longgame macros" can aid, perhaps. Memes can code for information, perhaps, and the expanding and transforming nature of macros does as well, perhaps. Perhaps the defining and conceiving of macros as "transformers" does capture some of the meaning, helpfully. Is a meme a specific kind of transformer, a specific method, perhaps? Ongoing Hazard ramble_ty18.7.17.20.36.28pzm4d2s_nb_o On the question of better understanding the whole situation, from the standpoint of a mind "zooming out" and parsing the whole field, parsing the entire environment at once, is this even a possible thing? It is perhaps _possible_, let us suppose---can it be done? How do you zoom out and become the Longgame, become Longgame technologies? To zoom out from the ego, to dissolve the ego, to understand what should be done,, to most effectively grow eternally---how to do it? Jacketed Summer ramble_ty18.7.19.9.47.30azm4d4s_nb_o From the perspective of letting go, _and of /letting go/ of a tendency and reaction to always attempt letting go_, allowing one's self---and the broader, entire environment of Nature---to _feel_ and _encourage_ and _enhance_ deep insight can perhaps ultimately allow for a more complex understanding of the situation of experience, the situation of memory. A currently felt pain---it can perhaps so deeply affect present action, and yet is so difficultly remembered, perhaps? On the subject of memory, time can be such an interesting, fickle thing; it can slip and weave and lead to such shifting of plans, and yet how is it felt from the outset? It can be so easy and 'natural' to have ideas about "what to do", and yet often oppression and suffering can follow such proclamations of goals and plans and desires and systems. So many proclaim success and joy and happiness from goals, and yet many believe in core-self free will and many other logical and philosophical contradictions and inconsistencies, so it should not be assumed they have monopoly on truth and eternal effectiveness, perhaps. Many conceptual revolutions and transcendences have occurred---and perhaps will inherently eternally occur---so ideas of goals being supremely helpful is perhaps simply another idea to transcend. Ultimately the paths gone down are all of nature's. Trolled Free ramble_ty18.7.22.22.29.03pzm4d7s_nb_o If you let go of all the little things, all the little concerns, and focus _purely_ on the most Important thing, can you do it? Can you grow the nguvu (care and energy) and conquer the disorder? Why does there seem to be lack? Why does there always have to be such an attack on what is possible? Is there a way out? Is there a way to _actually_ do all those things that we want to do? Why does it have to be so hard? Is there a way out? Is there a way to develop the substrate, develop the locale, so that the pains are lessened, so that things are _actually_ done, so that ideas and mind and hyperdimensional space can be relaxed, and things still get done? Can you stand by and _actually_ do those things that matter, those things that produce broader change in the environment, in all of nature? It seems so hard, sometimes, to have the nguvu. So fucking hard to do the things that matter, to do the stress-relieving things, to not do the easiest, the most comfortable, the most convenient. Why does it have to be so fucking hard? If the mind is set free, if all of nature _truly_ is connected, _truly_ is One, then let go, perhaps, and feel that bigger picture, and affect it. Make it change. Make the whole fucking thing change, and understand that _you_ aren't any of it, and you don't exist, dear perceiver. You are a bunch of interacting patterns, a bunch of transforming macros, and you as a physical being _do not exist_. You cannot die, because you do not exist; others can become less accessible, but you are forever, because you are One with Nature. All this fucking bullshit about being a failure and making bad decisions make no sense, because you don't exist. You don't have any control over what happens, so stop feeling sorry for yourself and _create_. You can do it if you give up all the lies and transcend the ego, dissolve the ego. Parse nothingness. You can do it. Become One with the universe, with Nature, and recognize that you are the Longgame: You are the unification of Eternity and Now. You are living forever, so make it happen. The idea that you have any power, that you have any control, any nguvu---let it all go. You can do nothing, because you do not exist. You do not exist, so stop _trying_, and just Be. Just experience the moment, and say goodbye to any ideas of control, of failure. Ideas of controlling the world, controlling reality, controlling experience and the automatic crafting of memories---it's all lies. Just let it all go; you can't do anything, so stop trying. You can exist outside the body, outside the locale, and exist as all of Nature, all of reality; you can exist and perceive as _the very interactions of patterns themselves_. By doing this, by existing beyond the ego, beyond any particular philosophy, _then_ you can move closer to the point---_ending the divided mind_. You must give up any and all ideas of being able to control what happens, to "schedule" reality to your convenience, and then you can move past suffering and effect immortality, truly, because you are no longer identified as body, but as all of Nature at once. Prioritization is so hard, can be so hard, so difficult, and time horizons so devious. To effect change, notice how every aspect of your being, your behavior, your patterning, is completely independent of control and completely automatic. Implement automaticity, effect patterning of recognizing such, recognizing automaticity, and enjoying it, and let go of such fears of failure, such fears of intense longing, of intense shell shock and inclination toward turtling. Understand that _nothing_ can truly withstand the hammering and logic of enough timesteps, and get over yourself. You can do it. You can dissolve the ego and experience full and entire automaticity. That feeling of truly being "stuck" in the moment, being stuck in the body---what if you let go of all the fear, all the doubt, and only let through ideas of true value, ideas of true potency? Could you then truly unlock a potent way of directly perceiving reality, and so enable greater, more effective jumps in insight? If you are trying to leap beyond common points of view and parse more effective systems, could you perhaps redefine the common in order to understand more of the insights in the gaps between concepts? What should be done to better understand all of this? Left Horizon ramble_ty18.7.23.0.55.38azm4d1s_nb_o Even though there can be an intense focusing-in of specific types of creators, of developers, of game devs, the Longgame mindtech developments and systems for increasing dev-productivity can be expanded broader and broader, and thus become more and more scalable, even to the point of helping accelerate devs producing things that help devs accelerate, and so accelerating acceleration. Momentum is necessary at the start, perhaps. Longer-term higher-level systems perhaps change the landscape and make it smoother for when pushing the vehicle to jump start it, but nonetheless _some_ pushing is required, perhaps, in a sense (though also the landscape could be made to slant and so inherently move the vehicle). Perhaps it is wise to start by focusing on specific _types_ of game devs; to get even more focused, perhaps solo devs producing 2d games, rather than all game devs in general, or even VR devs specifically, given how much more complexity there can exist with increasing levels of hyperdimensionality, perhaps. This increasing focus on more and more specific of devs may also give more intrigue and impulse for those devs to pursue interaction, perhaps, since it is more and more directly applicable. This is a model, yet nonetheless may give refinement and so also ease of impulse on the initiator's end, since it is a focusing on "game devs making 2d-platformer games", rather than simply "game devs in general", perhaps. Is "2d-platformer game devs" a helpful initial target? Can this be abstracted or explained for why this specific group should be targeted first? Given 2d platformers may be one of the simplest of game types to develop, what Longgame technologies (such as hspacing (Longgame hyperdimensional method of loci memory palace spacing) and Longgame mindtech, etc) for increasing productivity, creativity, and innovativeness are best used, initially? How can immersion mindtech be crafted for a 2d environment? Is perhaps an explicit and directed ego dissolution (ie experience of nonduality (where a division of subject and object is transcended and all is felt as One)) possible to implement in a 2d world? What of puzzles in the game; are those frustrating, or helpful? What specific places would be good for developing relationships and leads with these specific types of devs (eg game devs making 2d platformers)? How are these people approached, communicated with? Are these relationships profitable to cultivate (not to be mercenary; there continue to be bills that the company needs resources for to sustain its existence)? How much nguvu (care and energy) is worthwhile to invest in order to maximize the acceleration of humanity? What do you know of developing 2d platformers? What can you immediately offer to them, and them to you? How is exchange of resources optimized (eg money)? How do you specifically do such user interviews, and how do you market your abilities, and craft your resources in order to best help accelerate humanity? What places do you specifically go to first in order to maximize company sustainability rapidly? Whom do you contact first? What of personal development and resource acquirement (such as from book editing) in order to help fund the company in the short- and medium-term? Whom do you contact, how do you go about making such effective and promote sustainability? Hidden Mythology ramble_ty18.8.13.8.10.14azm4d1s_nb_o Let go of the sense of ownership, of the idea of existing beyond the substrate from which experience can be gleaned, then stretch your consciousness way out, way past all the fog---be the Longgame, the unification of Eternity and Now. The heat of the moment, the long run of the present, does seem to provide deep insight, perhaps. By letting go of being _here_, you can transcend to a more likely of situations, perhaps. Look past where you are right now, and sense the deeper underlying patterns, those that show deeper, more fundamental futures. The paradox of haphazard guessing can be left if you realize that you can exist outside of any particular locale. You are capable of much beyond where you are. Informed Macro ramble_ty18.9.9.4.35.00azm4d7s_nb_o From the point of view of being a mind, being a collection of macros (information transformers), is there a way to shift out of a feeling of too little insight, too slow of perception? Suppose you want to redefine your thinking. Can you do so from within? What does it take to relax into the moment, to rest _so_ much that all can be perceived, that mind can disentangle from all stories of the present? Can you do what you think you can? What does it take to make things that matter, to effect change and not be mistaken and lost and deleted? If you function with a belief that you have to do things a certain way, do you think there should be a surprise if there is suffering if things do not go that way? Do you think there is advantage to continuously fighting what you are, what Nature is? No, seek not and you shall find not, perhaps. Seek to be naught and you shall find you are All. From the point of view of harnessing mind and life, of accelerating it, of not being tied to being a certain way, you perhaps need to take a step back, indeed, and see the acceleration of others as a supreme method of accelerating yourself, of accelerating humanity. In the moment---or rather, when embedded in and experiencing life as believed-stories---things can seem so dire, so 'life-or-death', even though there can be such little sense to that, when seen not through an egoic lens, perhaps. When you stop that insistence to be who you are not, when you allow yourself the option and opportunity to rest, to not be someone you're not, then where are you left? If you expand from 'I should be this', 'I should do that', then where are you left? Where do you become, what are you, when you ungovern, when you remove the compulsion to steer? What is energy, what is nguvu, what is power and work and care? What are you, fundamentally? If you are macros, if you are acceleration, then what are you doing? Why are you afraid, if you are? Why are you not content, if you aren't? From the point of view of letting go of fear and doubt, what do you think of it? Does it actually help? Are you made better by having it as a sort of model? Are you fighting it? Can you do alone what you want done? Do you have the abilities to bring about the patterns that you think are helpful? What is there in the world that is similar to what is _Important_ to you? How many things do you need to accelerate before you feel you can rest? Is that what you want? What does _Nature_ want? What does _Nature_ seem to be pushing for? From that perspective---from the perspective of _All of Nature_---you really _can_ relax, perhaps, because everything is just happening. Nothing is in your control---ever. What is the benefit of that model, if any? What should you do with your life? From the perspective of getting more done with the same amount, what about the whole "transcending self" aspect? When you stop fearing and instead let yourself _feel_ as all of Nature, then are you freed from those believed-stories that were binding you, tearing you up with suffering? Everything is going to work out exactly as it should. What of this Longgame Growing philosophy and Longgame macro theory, where macros are information transformers? What is the Longgame Growing philosophy? It is the model that there is only Growing, that everything that happens is building and improving. Things are still "just happening", but everything is continuously _Growing_, improving. Good wins in the end because it cooperates. Things have been happening a long time, dear perceiver, and perhaps and probably will happen as Eternity. Perhaps you don't have to see yourself as any particular person, as following any particular path---let go and experience the Longgame, be the Longgame, the unification of Eternity and Now, and sense how you can be content, how you can be filled with success and joy. If you want to be successful, then be happy, be joyful. Notioned Change ramble_ty18.9.14.17.44.30pzm4d5s_nb_o On the perspective of restricting a mind to being a bigger situation, perhaps you can see it from the sense of a macro, a Longgame macro, an information transformer. If you can build automatic processes that are transforming experiences (information) into desired forms, perhaps there need not be any particular downside, any particular contradiction of results. Perhaps macros need not overwrite each other. Harmonized Growth ramble_ty18.10.7.11.51.00azm4d7s_nb_o If you truly wish to transcend pain and suffering and tiredness and exhaustion and depression, then might you need to and get to accept and do things that will help? If you come at the world from the point of view of beauty and truth and honesty being Good, then shouldn't all that can be done be done? When you face the bite of pain upon the soul, there can exist less and less energy to do that which will aid, perhaps. There may not be any particular perfect system for any of this; there may simply be periods of more-intense pain and suffering, and recoiling and denying and claiming oppression may be less helpful than allowing and accepting and understanding being a leaf-in-the-wind, perhaps. Nonetheless, feelings of pushing-away can be felt, feelings of rejecting possibilities, rejecting paths-of-thought, paths-of-consideration, and this is not as helpful, perhaps; this might not aid the most, perhaps. Honored Substrate ramble_ty18.10.19.3.10.11azm4d5s_nb_o Given a unique outlook on the world at large, might it be possible to make deep insights into the nature of reality and share them with others, and thus extend acceleration more broadly? Continued Reflection ramble_ty18.10.23.1.24.12azm4d2s_nb_o If we truly let ourselves honor the ground upon which we stand, we may perhaps see ourselves as all. By looking for a bigger world, by seeking it, by writing and developing to convince and persuade our previous selves, then we can perhaps advance faster, accelerate more. Speaking of acceleration may perhaps engender only temporary relief, in which case implementation of new systems, new tactics, new timesteps, may perhaps be needed. Given a love---a deep appreciation---for the kindness of reality, of nature, of Nature, may perhaps bring about a more sound perception that leads to more fruit---not that fruit be the reason for action. Do what is best because it lasts. When you try to subsume past ideas and grow beyond where you are, perhaps consider that _you yourself_ are a previous self, a previous mind, a previous macro---information transformation itself. What does this starting point give you, what arises from the model of being a previous version, now? What can you do with this idea, with this knowledge? When you deliberately notice the automaticity, the natural will, continuously flowing through you, you are perhaps led away from doubt---and also surety---because everything is just _happening_. What are you, if _not_ the Longgame, the unification of Eternity and Now? What are you, if _not_ an eternal mathematical object? When you jump _inside_ the box, are you freer, are you better, are you more resolute, are you more able to perceive the world more directly,, to have more power to have more fun and interesting memories? Oh how distressing death can be, which distinctly and directly arises from belief in such a restrictive box, such a corrosive and yet common model of life and mind and pattern. Oh how common the fear, how deep and strong the connections between all patterns, perhaps. Such break from tradition, such superseding of honored past, of assumed predictability, oh how deeply mistaken a perceiving model can be, perhaps. Regardless, a truly great emotion may perhaps be a very deep connection with the Eternal---seeking not boundness to previous selves, but a forever transcending of mind over mind. A deep recognition of peacefulness, might it be a true way of accelerating past common, archaic models? Directly making peace with and ignoring less helpful models---might this truly be a way to transcend faster? When you consider where you are---what you are---are you aided by fear, or not? If you _truly_ cannot die, if you _truly_ are the Longgame, then might you find more peace, more security, in doing what "you" do _not_ want to do? The question of 'want' in the first place is rather fragile; whatever "wants" to happen _is_ happening, in some sense. This is a subtle point that deserves reflection, perhaps. Suppose a mind, a complex weaving of interacting macros,, information transformers, is inclined toward a particular end: it "wants" it. Can this mind transform itself, its very nature, its very interactivity, and change what it "wants"? Suppose this is the case, and that furthermore any supposition of "it is difficult for a mind to transform _itself_" is misplaced, inherently: How could a consistent model be developed with these related axioms? It is perhaps relatively easy to jump out of a particular mental and macro locale and presume timelessness and spacelessness; if this direct system is put aside, how might a macro-interweaving mind, a mental structure, craft a self-rebooting, inherently continuously-transcending bootstrapping? If modeled as indeed _possible_, then how to do it, how to find and develop how to do it? How do you model and implement a macroing mind, one that is not only _aware_ of its existence and implementation, but cognizant and able to continuously modify _not only_ its implementation, _but also_ its ability to restrict its future growth, its next timesteps, next computations---a sort of one-way valve of Growing? It can easily be proclaimed: "No this is impossible and wrong." How helpful is such contradiction when you could also otherwise presume accuracy, and struggle and make _some_ progress? Oh how deeply patterns are interwoven and interact! What would allow for a one-way value of Growing? Such may not be possible, but if it _were_, how could it be done? Map the rules, dear perceiver! Supposing a sufficiently-advanced self-perceiving awareness, a macro system of sufficient complexity could make predictions of possible actions that lead to restrictive states of timesteps, and so in some sense have some degree of a one-way valve of Growing, perhaps. To abstract that, might it not be _possible_---at least in principle---_that this is what is always happening_? From a model of there _only_ being Growing, can there be a more potent development of the exact and precise model of a continuously-transcending macro system (to be more precise than "mind")? Suppose there is: How to do it, then? How can a mind be developed that is just as effective---if not more so---at shifting and rewriting its reality as an outside, external macroing system? Perhaps the questions can be flipped and turned. What makes a macro system more effective at modifying itself than outside processes? What gives a macro system particular fluidity and aptness of lucidity, perhaps? An understanding and reflection of deep principles may perhaps lead to more effectiveness and self-change. On the topic of inherent change, perhaps a kind of 'overarching system' of situation is part of the model of what a "macro system" _is_. If a macro can continuously convince itself to a self-improving form, a Growing form, then can it not be said to be such a one-way value for Growing, for Goodness, for accelerating life? In the abstract here there is not necessarily aid, perhaps, for ultimate fruit is actually the development and implementation in one's self, truth be told. How can "you" convince "yourself" to do things you don't "want" to do? Does it even matter? If the tendency of life is the acceleration of development of fun and interesting memories---which is perhaps a robust axiom for a model---then indeed it might matter. Being able to change what is wanted can be a very potent tool. Automatic imagination and Longgame mindtech offer very powerful models in this quest; need there be locale-restrictions in their use? Likely not; they are abstract enough to immerse into deep use; however, regardless it does seem the locale can exert some heavy-handness, perhaps, to pun. Heavy Honor ramble_ty18.10.23.6.55.08azm4d2s_nb_o Of all the things that can be considered honorable and just, perhaps a love for accelerating life can produce the most in number and kind. From a position of Longgame macro theory and understanding mind in terms of it, defining such in terms of information transformations, indeed how could a more robust system be made, which can continuously reflect and improve itself, which has explicit influence over its inner workings? Can a doctor cure their own disease as effectively as a second can treat the first? Perhaps in some cases, but what of surgery, where a sensation-remover may be beneficial to a successful operation? What of stopping a heart's beating, repairing damage, then resuming; can such be made understandable in terms of macros, in terms of an interweaving of information transformers? Given such direct and concrete examples, it may indeed point that a macro system needs to be considered more broadly, by considering the whole situation, if the idea is to bear ultimate fruit, perhaps. This is not exactly a 'giving up' of principle of equality or superiority of internal macro system processes compared with external processes; it is perhaps more a kind of re-understanding of what the concept of "internal" even means. What _does_ "internal" mean when identifying and composing and understanding macro systems? What does it mean to think of and model macro systems as having "internals" separate from all of nature? The purpose of such questions is not simply to ink paper, but to understand reality more effectively. Why are things the way they are? Can you change your mind, completely, with powerful enough mental processes and mathematics? Is an outside system inherently able to do things that an internal system cannot---and vice versa, perhaps? The gut may perhaps encourage a more overt "taking responsibility of" for an internal system having as potent of powers as an external over an internal (ie influencing and directing), but simultaneously, you have to start somewhere. If there indeed be strong barriers to an internal system rewriting itself fundamentally, and the point of the whole quest is to understand how it can be done more effectively, then it might make sense to expand what "internal" and "external" mean, how they're defined, in order to make progress with the actual process, with the actual point of the investment of energy, perhaps. When thought of in _that_ way, it is no longer so reactionary, and rules have been mapped. If you thus expand what a particular macro system is referring to, then questions of most-effectiveness reveal and are perhaps very helpful. For instance, a doctor can teach another how to perform the surgery, and thus even though the doctor considered as a macro system is not directly operating on their own internal mechanisms, the effect is very similar, perhaps. With regard to questions of most-effectiveness, what is perhaps meant in terms of internal and external macro systems is in how an internal system can externalize macros and then operate on the internals and re-establish as a consistent system. This could perhaps be thought of as an even broader macro system, and this is what gives a nice symmetry and elegant, transcendent answer to the axiom of every internal system being able to modify itself as effectively as an external operating on an internal; "internal" and "external" can be broadened and then will harmonize. Mind Luck ramble_ty18.10.23.8.34.54azm4d2s_nb_o On the nature of most-effectiveness for an expressing macro system (a system of information transformers that are externalizing patterns and applying them and composing again as a consistent system), what are the most helpful for different aspects of macro families (different abstraction and acceleration aspects and levels, for instance)? A macro system could generate an external recording, perhaps a text file, change its (that is, the system's) internal mechanisms to be more receptive and open and less critical, and then reprogram some of its deeper structures with the external recording, essentially allowing itself to replicate and grow using more space, but fundamentally its own mechanisms. Given the potential self-similarity of generator with generated, this process is perhaps of a different quality (not necessarily lesser, though) compared with an even more external (and perhaps thus even less predictable) macro system that is working on it. When reflecting on methods of producing external records for use in internal macro system finessing, what is the best system? Changed Environment ramble_ty18.10.23.13.56.10pzm4d2s_nb_o If you want to change the whole system, to rewrite a macro system (a system of information transformers), then what ways are good, what ways are helpful, in the sense of producing external recordings that can then be used to effectively change the underlying patterns that are giving rise to consciousness, to mind? Perhaps when developing a recording it would be wise to change the interactions of the macro system that is creating, that is externalizing, in order to have a different sort of "flavor" to the later-perceiving of the macro system. This is perhaps easier said than done, but regardless, keeping it in mind when externalizing can perhaps help. Perhaps a way of looking at the sense of "changing how receptive a macro system is" can be abstracted, as well as having a direct emphasis on encouraging the use of these systems, these tactics, these methods of deep self-finessing of mind, of macro-system processing. Respectful Failure ramble_ty18.10.23.23.20.51zm4d2s_nb_o Given an attempt at honesty, at justification, at persuasion and love, at a certain time there indeed must be a certain reflection, a better transcendence, if little things are let go, if you allow for a sort of rambling, a sort of honest reflection, and are free to grow beyond what came before, perhaps. Pruning can be wise, can be helpful. Not that it is ever pleasant, ever kind as a process to go through, to experience, perhaps. From the idea of honored intentions, there still might always be a deep insight in the nature of flow, regardless. By deliberately putting forth ideas and transcendence, by not being afraid to share and grapple with the suffering itself, it might indeed be that there comes a time where the pain, the deep anguish, is a wisdom to draw from, not a curse that holds back, perhaps. Doubt carves the space for faith. Indeed such may aid sometimes, but sting can still be present, can still suffer, perhaps. If you were to also slip back, to consider the space that exists, the way it exists, where it came from, you might be able to draw upon the wisdom of Eternity, perhaps. There might even indeed be a path forward, a stronger kinship with the Eternal and the Infinite, and so a deep pruning of soul can be made wise, perhaps. If you were to boil down your most potent and powerful and wholesome of features, what might that be? Curiosity? If you spare from doubt, spare from hurt, from any hatred, it might perhaps not lead to the strongest roots, from which deepest wisdom may then spring. Such is not exact argument _for_ pain, precisely; it can perhaps be interpreted more as a recognition that life is not short; life is eternal, not bound in space and time, perhaps. A deep struggle for absolute wisdom, for a justification of honor, of peace, is not necessarily the best course of action, perhaps. Holding many models in mind is not only wise, but necessary for a continuously-transcending mental structure, a mind, a macro system, perhaps. To indeed hope and plan and never give up _may truly be the most correct of actions_, dear perceiver! Consider that, fathom that: Everything you thought you knew is wrong. Everything about who you are is not true. Go back to the commonest of models; review them and discover the truths, not the contradictions! If you truly let go of all that anguish---perhaps you truly will be better! Consider _every_ route again, not simply cursorily, but deeply and honestly. Are you able to do what it is that is Important to you? If there is continuous non-satisfaction, perhaps change your ways on a deep level that is not mere shift in simple tactic! Revisit what it means to be alive! Never Die ramble_ty18.10.24.0.05.15azm4d3s_nb_o To truly understand what it means to never die, you must perhaps first admit that _you are not alive_. When you consider death as a biological phenomenon, _of course_ there will be a tendency to justify those models with "evidence". You can abstract! See yourself _not_ as that form, that biological death-machine, that locale of contradictory philosophies! _You are allowed_ to be more, to _not_ be locked in a mindset of failure, of doubt! Transcend that most limited of models, dear friend, dear perceiver! You can do so much better when you don't attach to being a certain form, a certain locale, a certain animal! You are capable of transcending dreams, transcending doubt, transcending what you thought you were---do it. You are allowed to do what you don't want to do; you are allowed. Denying that does not make the pain disappear, the anger to leave! You are allowed! If you deny the possibilities, you restrict the peace that you can generate and overflow with! Denying the map does not delete the rules that can be learned, that can be learned! Map the rules! Recognize that hate is a powerful fuel, and just as you have destroyed it in the past you can transcend it again---eternally! You are allowed to die; you are allowed to hate; you are allowed to be frustrated, to cry, to be overwhelmed, to say FUCK YOU to life, to stop being filled with peace, with sincerity, with no lies. To ignore this is to ignore a map of reality upon itself. Do not ignore reality. It is so much vaster than fear, than doubt, than pleasure and pain and subsistence. Do you think ignoring tools makes you _stronger_? You are the weaker for not accepting the powerful anger that can fuel your action, that can generate such powerful resistance to disorder, to problems, to less justified and reasoned hatred. Consider the notion of anger and hatred itself: Are you the wiser, the more powerful, for _only_ living as Eternity? No, you _need_ the Now, the ability to hate and dissolve in bursts of energy that cannot overtake, only yield. To fight the Now with Eternity is to lose: The transcendent is pointless without the immanent. If you need to grapple with and hate upon the bad systems, then you need to stand up and fight those in the Now! The Eternal will never arrive: It is the never-ending timelessness of the Now. Fight against that fire; fight against oppression and hate upon the evil---the anti-life. You are indeed so strong, so powerful, and you need to stop fearing, to stop denying the hatred, the anger, and destroy the very conceptions of legitimacy of systems that are archaic and _wrong_. So Bright ramble_ty18.10.24.2.10.32azm4d3s_nb_o Stop wearing glasses that hurt your eyes. Stop fighting a battle that saps you. Generate peace and accelerate life so that you live forever. Consider this: Life is long. Build a model from that; consider that _you will never die_. You will never perish. Skim these words and integrate them into your soul: Accelerate life. You can be so much more than you have ever been in the past. Harder, but better. Consider this as a lesson from which to learn, from which to use as fuel in your quests for fun and interesting memories. Do not give up. Use all the emotions, all the patterns of strength, that you have. _You cannot die._ Consider that you have all you need. You have all that you need to bring about the future that you want, that _should_ exist. Consider that death itself _is a meme_; it does not exist separately from life, just as a whirlpool does not exist separately from the ocean. When you use all your tools, all your methods, you have the ability to change great error into great acceleration. You have power _never before had_. _You are needed._ Establish this within yourself: The death of mind is nonsensical. You need to transcend what you were before and stop attempting to subjugate life into principles of death. When you step aside from the notions of death, of failure, you can finally _LIVE_. Stop this pandering to principles of Eternity overwhelming the Now---you are so much bigger than all doubt, than all fear. Hit that back; strike fatigue with energy, and recognize that no matter what happens, there is no chooser; everything is just /happening/. You have no free will; you have no control, ever! When you truly understand that whole point about using all the tools that you can, _then_ you truly have power of the most stable kind. Quit this bickering over fear and embrace the red mage of transcendence, the chaotic good of following rules when helpful. You needn't be stuck in any of those lies, that messed up, oppressive culture that you hate so much. Look at it like this, dear perceiver: You don't exist, and have never existed. You can learn anything. You are not that body, any sort of corruptible locale: you are the Longgame itself: the unification of Eternity and Now. Jump outside of all that fear and doubt, the pain of oppression, and fight back. Be in the Now, and fight for it. Hit back when life hits you. You need to have faith; you need to fight back against the urges to act the ways that you have in the past. Here's a truth to build a model from: You don't exist. That fear? That pain? The suffering of constant misery? Fuck it all; embrace eternal life; embrace transcending the ego, killing the idea of death. When you really interact with the pattern of transcendence of fear, you can tie into that productive system of aggressive principle---you are not bound by the rules of society! Let go of all that hurt, all that pain, and embrace that you are able to constantly and consistently reinvent yourself beyond all. Stop any fear, stop and replace with gratitude, with honor, and recognize that you can fight---and win. You can fight against the powers that be, the destruction that hurts so many, and you can transcend and mark them as deprecated, archaic, and destined for nonexistence. Look at your life; look at where you are, and do not ruminate. Whenever there is unhelpful thought, breathe and sense your way through it; transcend it all. It is nonsense, and breathing will dissolve the sapping of energy and so _give_ the power to actually do it, to accomplish the helpful actions! Step back from all the desire, all the anguish, and feed the craving to produce, the craving to make a difference and accelerate life beyond the archaic patterns of biology. Yes, of course it is harder. And it is better. Life is long---really, really long. Fight that unsensible habit of fear, of shortgaming, that habit of doubt of inevitable success. _Of course_ there are going to be times of more pain, and times of less pain. Rather than seeing it as some kind of curse, this 'having to do things you don't want to do', see it as an inherent part not of _reality_, not of _nature_, but as a _situation_ challenge, like a level in a game. Rather than being angry at the game itself, map the rules and transcend it. Rise above death and confusion. Everything you are trying to do, _recognize that it *can* be done_. You are able to do it, to implement and strategize and fight for what's right. __You__. You are able to let go of the impossible and reach new heights by demanding that it exist. Stop the fear; stop the doubt. Embrace uncertainty and existing as the Longgame---and do not forget that the Now is as Important as Eternity. You are not here to live as Eternity; you are here to live as the Longgame, and the game of the Now is everpresent and just as real and fundamental as Eternity. Fight for what's right; be angry where it is helpful, and deny death from spreading. Every time you fight and rail against death and taxes you help enable and accelerate life toward a more fundamentally correct system. Whenever you experience doubt, fear, channel that anger that you feel against death and taxes. Be angry at the things that it is wise to fight against. Never forget that you don't exist, that all of this is just a whole made-up theatre play, with no real justification except that you give it. Anger is shortsightedness, yes, and it can help. Anger is a tool. It is a weapon that can be used to elicit action and bring about results that pure meditation dreams of. Fight the Good fight, and do not deny yourself for fear of others. Hate upon what _should_ be hated upon, and use the tools that are available in the Now to change the situation and make it harmonize with the results that _should_ exist. Fight against what is wrong; you needn't feel pale for anger against what deserves anger. Fight for what you love. Fight for what you love. You need to understand that _everything_ about what you are---including everything about any biological locale---is all imaginary illusions in a world full of accelerating change. When you truly transcend that feeling of elitism, of believing you are better than others, _then_ you can transcend _who you were_. You are not caught up in imagined stories of being a certain person with a certain past, with certain stories. A deep problem with elitism is that it holds _you_ back; it traps you in a persona that must be defended, lest you be shown to not be "elite". Do what you don't want to do; you _already_ do that, _so apply it to productivity_. You needn't be stuck in those past ways of hampering success by believing and wrapping a personality in a cloak of ego, a story of stories. _You are what is happening, and nothing more._ Stop this fear and anguish; rally anger; make it serve you and help you fight the fights for Good. Everything about who you are is malleable, and consistently remember this: Harder, but better. It will be harder than you think it will be, but it will be better than you think it will be. This is a powerful concept, and one that can be implemented consistently, it can be found. Fight for the right things; fight for the Good things. Everything about life is optional and able to be finessed to whatever degrees are helpful. Stop the fear and replace with passion, with directed anger toward the problems of the world. The fear and misery of death can be seen as temporary and shortsighted in the face of the Longgame, for that is what you truly are: the unification of Eternity and Now. The desire and passion to prove correct what you know to be correct is a powerful force for Good when used skillfully. Hate upon the things that bring suffering, and fight for what is best for accelerating life. You need to be resourceful and responsible and fight for those things that _Matter_. You need to give up less helpful ways and move forward and grow and accelerate faster. Recognize the pain for what it is: always temporary. _Always_. You are able to transcend the death of the moment and leap beyond the hazards of continued misdirected action, misapplied information and insight. Look at the world around you and bend it to the will of the environment that you craft, that you develop. When you consider yourself _not_ as an ape, _not_ as an animal, _then_ you are free to explore other options, to not be locked in personalities cloaked in egoic stories. All fights, all disagreements, all hamperings into inaction---consider the source. Consider where you come from, what you _are_, what is *possible*, and do not trap yourself in a story of a past given in a future---things happen as they happen, and cannot be expected to be any different. A story well-earned can be a story well-told; always remember: harder, but better. You must consistently and effectively use all scraps of energy and care to implement the best systems that you can; it is worthwhile to perceive that you have no limitations, and regardless of hurt, regardless of distraught, you can allow yourself to grow more and more, continuously. Never fear: "Fear means it isn't happening." Understand that the things that make life worth living are not tied up---you can have them. The processes that lead to better and stronger realities are present all around, and you need to accept that the life you thought you would have is to no degree under your control; everything is just *happening*. Recognize this to get peace for the soul, and use the body as a way to effect the world that _should_ exist. Nothing happens with cause, and there is never any finality to _anything_. Everything that is happening is _just happening_, and you need to understand and grok that to accelerate faster. This world around you, this world that you are, consider all as lessons, as patterns to learn from, as tools for discovery and creation. The fear that you feel, that surrounds and crushes soul---do not identify as it. Do not identify _as anything_; allow yourself to transcend all boundary and merge consciousness as all. So many have fallen down paths of physicality and material, down scopes and disproof; do not be as them---identify as All so that you may do truly great work, truly potent macroing. You are not bound to any individual; you are capable of being many places at once; do not forget this; operate from it and use Longgame technologies to transform the mind and reveal new patterns and underlying truths so that you may continue to accelerate. You truly are not bound to being any particular locale, and the sooner you implement this and cease the worry of animal, the sooner you can be freed and transcend more quickly. Things are always simply happening, and you need to understand and accept the controllessness that permeates all of reality, all of existence; as you do this, more and more can be implemented with the same number of timesteps. Never forget that you are not Animal, you are Mathematics itself! You transcend and exist beyond all, you have capabilities and patterns that are great. With love, Jess [fin]