Philosophy
Bind Broken
Jess Cummins
@jesscxc
Philosophy: Bind Broken is a notebook written on the move.
Philosophy is Book 25 of The Pocket Series.
Philosophy is available for free at NoLiesPlease.com.
This book is dedicated to the public domain.
(author
"Jess Cummins"
@jesscxc)
(pronouns she/friend)
(link NoLiesPlease.com)
(book_title Philosophy)
(book_subtitle Bind Broken)
(pocket_series_book_number 25)
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(entry_count 16)
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(books_by_jesscxc
(misc
"Poem Moves the Pen: Haiku of a Nondual Nature"
"Natural Will: Freer Than Free Will"
"Longgame Hyperdimensional Spacing: Expand Mind and Weave Time"
"Ungov: Transcending Will")
(the_deeper_series
"Book 0: Uncompress: Eternal Appreciation of How"
"Book 1: Fortunate: How to Be"
"Book 2: Attuned: Be What You Imagine"
"Book 3: Capacity: Imagine Being Limitless"
"Book 4: Helper: Limitless Mind"
"Book 5: Intense: Mind Unleashed"
"Book 6: Open: Unleashed Honesty"
"Book 7: Universe: Honesty is Eternal"
"Book 8: Various: Is to Be")
(the_pocket_series
"Book 0: Obverse: Abstract Fast"
"Book 1: Limer: Fast Color"
"Book 2: Dawn: Color of Day"
"Book 3: Knight: Day Beyond"
"Book 4: Fever: Beyond Dreams"
"Book 5: Life: Dreams Evolving"
"Book 6: Adventure: Evolving Lands"
"Book 7: Battle: Lands Say"
"Book 8: Entertainment: Say Ahead"
"Book 9: Explore: Ahead Opportunity"
"Book 10: Moment: Opportunity Simulation"
"Book 11: Imagine: Simulation Twist"
"Book 12: Believe: Twist Self"
"Book 13: Accept: Self Pattern"
"Book 14: Create: Pattern Reflection"
"Book 15: Sift: Reflection Match"
"Book 16: Probability: Match Experience"
"Book 17: Waves: Experience Current"
"Book 18: Kernel: Current Functions"
"Book 19: Grubby: Functions Dig"
"Book 20: Game: Dig Above"
"Book 21: Fruit: Above Messages"
"Book 22: Endeavor: Messages Spread"
"Book 23: Mystery: Spread Expressions"
"Book 24: Detain: Expressions Bind"
"Book 25: Philosophy: Bind Broken"
"Book 26: Demands: Broken Discovery"
"Book 27: Subliminal: Discovery Inside"
"Book 28: Extinction: Inside Refresh"
"Book 29: Control: Refresh Axioms"
"Book 30: Ideas: Axioms Mistake"
"Book 31: Gallium: Mistake Fuzz"
"Book 32: Germanium: Fuzz Friendship"
"Book 33: Arsenic: Friendship Reaction"
"Book 34: Selenium: Reaction Depth"
"Book 35: Bromine: Depth Utility"
"Book 36: Krypton: Utility Model"
"Book 37: Rubidium: Model Augmenter"
"Book 38: Strontium: Augmenter System"))
To reflection and allowing for time for healing.
Thank the Mystery for providing you with the opportunity to record things that make you happy.
You'll always have aches and pains. Try to transcend them.
Life is worth living. Remember this when you're feeling bad.
Look for things that work just as well but faster.
Don't overanalyze it.
Build excitement.
Observe yourself.
The world fits together.
The future cannot be predicted.
Perhaps you need to meditate.
Get less stuff.
Just wait. Don't feel rushed.
"It is our job to be friends and find the love together."
Just start playing around.
Learn to do it automatically.
Raise the bar of education.
Trust the math. It will work out.
Look for new perspectives.
Love the world.
Enjoy the systems you set up.
Don't judge.
Be comfortable with yourself.
Love games.
You are the universe perceiving itself.
Life is a process of refraction.
Don't let how good you think you are get in the way of what you can do.
Let go of a concern with an intention.
Pulling often works better than pushing.
[
What is it that computational awareness is?
What is it that time is? That space is?
What is the nature of Nature?
Is it emergent, is it reductionist, is it transcendent, is it immanent?
Mathematics is not cold; it is precisely the beauty and strangeness of mathematics that gives it its warmth, perhaps from God, perhaps from a higher plane of reality.
This may be unfalsifiable, but are not the great questions of life---"Why am I here? Do I have a purpose? How can I love this world?"---essentially questions of the heart and not questions of the head?
Are you not Human, are you not a sensing being, unable to truly perceive 'objective' facts, given that you are perceiving through subjective senses?
Are you not a being of patterns, not merely a being of molecules, a being of quarks?
You have a pattern to your nature and it is this pattern that persists, not the molecules or quarks that create your body.
Those flit in and out, and the pattern, the strange loop, is what persists, what continues.
]
Ask questions.
The most helpful superpower may be to understand every language.
[
Perhaps it's unknown even what truth is. It's kind of like a fractal that bends back onto itself and edits its own reality.
What does this mean?
Perhaps it means that truth is not some esoteric notion, but one you must choose.
Can you "free will" yourself to not follow the laws of reality, of physics, of mathematics?
]
[
When I sleep I dream of being at one with the universe.
I dream of time clicking backwards, moving events in reverse.
I wake and find I have dreamt of shared dreaming, of notions of backwards time and effects preceding causes.
When I wake and find myself again in my body I ask myself one question: Am I dreaming?
I do not have a good answer to that question, given that my faith has been shattered repeatedly, and now my unconscious mind doesn't know precisely what to think.
When I wake I find my body obeys a different commander, one whose tactics are versatile. One whose beliefs are full of nuance.
This is what I dream about; this is what makes me think.
]
I don't wish to run from the truth, but I don't feel the truth is embedded in scary manic thoughts.
They are scary because they link me to a past I'd rather not admit to, one that I'd perhaps wish wasn't so.
It's interesting, this manic-depressive illness.
While I was reasonably stable (or normal from my point of view) I wanted to experience hypomania and the non-psychotic lead up of mania.
I have experienced that again, and more.
It put me in the hospital and cost thousands of dollars.
So now I realize once again that this mania stuff is no laughing matter.
I guess the hard part, even after three psychotic manic episodes and several depressive episodes, is truly grokking that I am bipolar.
What does it mean for my life, exactly?
Does it mean I can't accomplish the things I would like to accomplish?
Perhaps every person with an as-yet-incurable disease must ask themselves these questions.
Perhaps a god is not infinitely wise, simply more able to predict the far future than we are.
Perhaps humanity and life in general is predictable. That's not necessarily a bad thing: A game is more fun when it has some order to it.
Did I choose who I am?
If so, why?
Can I choose to be someone else?
Should I?
Do I have free will?
Do I have free want, do I freely want to obey the laws of the universe that bring me into being?
The only think I am definitely sure of---right now at least--- is that something somewhere is having an experience.
I don't know where I'm going with this.
I don't know where I'm going in general.
I'm afraid of life, right now.
I feel like I can't take care of myself.
If my life means nothing, if it was all a waste, at least I helped a friend.
I feel like they value my friendship, and I've come to value theirs more than I ever thought I would value a friend.
It's been an interesting ride, I must admit.
I don't think it's wise to force yourself to do or be something you don't want.
Thanks, Mystery, for this ride.
Please let me continue to be amazed and astounded by your wisdom and grace.
Please take away my sins and let me have clarity and earnestness of thought.
Sincerely,
Jess