Gallium
Mistake Fuzz
Jess Cummins
@jesscxc
Gallium: Mistake Fuzz is a notebook written on the move.
Gallium is Book 31 of The Pocket Series.
Gallium is available for free at NoLiesPlease.com.
This book is dedicated to the public domain.
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"Jess Cummins"
@jesscxc)
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"Poem Moves the Pen: Haiku of a Nondual Nature"
"Natural Will: Freer Than Free Will"
"Longgame Hyperdimensional Spacing: Expand Mind and Weave Time"
"Ungov: Transcending Will")
(the_deeper_series
"Book 0: Uncompress: Eternal Appreciation of How"
"Book 1: Fortunate: How to Be"
"Book 2: Attuned: Be What You Imagine"
"Book 3: Capacity: Imagine Being Limitless"
"Book 4: Helper: Limitless Mind"
"Book 5: Intense: Mind Unleashed"
"Book 6: Open: Unleashed Honesty"
"Book 7: Universe: Honesty is Eternal"
"Book 8: Various: Is to Be")
(the_pocket_series
"Book 0: Obverse: Abstract Fast"
"Book 1: Limer: Fast Color"
"Book 2: Dawn: Color of Day"
"Book 3: Knight: Day Beyond"
"Book 4: Fever: Beyond Dreams"
"Book 5: Life: Dreams Evolving"
"Book 6: Adventure: Evolving Lands"
"Book 7: Battle: Lands Say"
"Book 8: Entertainment: Say Ahead"
"Book 9: Explore: Ahead Opportunity"
"Book 10: Moment: Opportunity Simulation"
"Book 11: Imagine: Simulation Twist"
"Book 12: Believe: Twist Self"
"Book 13: Accept: Self Pattern"
"Book 14: Create: Pattern Reflection"
"Book 15: Sift: Reflection Match"
"Book 16: Probability: Match Experience"
"Book 17: Waves: Experience Current"
"Book 18: Kernel: Current Functions"
"Book 19: Grubby: Functions Dig"
"Book 20: Game: Dig Above"
"Book 21: Fruit: Above Messages"
"Book 22: Endeavor: Messages Spread"
"Book 23: Mystery: Spread Expressions"
"Book 24: Detain: Expressions Bind"
"Book 25: Philosophy: Bind Broken"
"Book 26: Demands: Broken Discovery"
"Book 27: Subliminal: Discovery Inside"
"Book 28: Extinction: Inside Refresh"
"Book 29: Control: Refresh Axioms"
"Book 30: Ideas: Axioms Mistake"
"Book 31: Gallium: Mistake Fuzz"
"Book 32: Germanium: Fuzz Friendship"
"Book 33: Arsenic: Friendship Reaction"
"Book 34: Selenium: Reaction Depth"
"Book 35: Bromine: Depth Utility"
"Book 36: Krypton: Utility Model"
"Book 37: Rubidium: Model Augmenter"
"Book 38: Strontium: Augmenter System"))
To learning from others.
Thank awareness and the infinite mystery around you.
The infinite mystery is that it's never possible to fully predict what will happen.
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.meta this is a model
Everything around you can be changed.
Everything you see can be altered except the fact that awareness exists.
This existence of awareness is the only capital-T Truth.
Every other "truth" can be made "false" and so not be a "fact".
This is because everything is a variable based on a specific number, this number being composed with other numbers in different functions that are competing and cooperating in order to become most aware.
This process of evolution means that there are always more fit functions that can overwrite other ones and so turn a truth into a falsehood.
]
[
When explaining the idea of a mathematical, awareness basis of reality, perhaps use the term "function", not "equation".
Explain it as, perhaps: "A mathematical function takes input and always returns the exact same output every time. For instance, put '2+2' into the function add and it always outputs '4'."
]
There is always a higher truth that can be known.
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.meta this is a model
On how to become a galactic consciousness:
First, learn as much math as possible.
Study what science you love, but do not feel obligated, neither to creating mathematics.
Always only do what you love.
Live as you'll die tomorrow; plan as if you'll live forever.
]
.meta this is a model
Everything around awareness can be recrafted into a different informational structure.
There is nothing particularly magical about this process, but what is startling is there is absolutely no limit to what can be done.
The idea of using fiber to make cloth is crafting new information into the fabric of reality.
The computational basis of awareness can be understood.
By learning more about the underlying structure of the process of awareness it is possible to discover the rules of reality and thus alter them toward the desired aim.
The Self without the Ego is pointless, and the Ego without the Self is powerless.
The Ego is the immanent awareness that forgets its true nature as the basis of reality, while the Self is the transcendent awareness that remembers its true nature, but can forget the helpfulness of that remembrance, which is to craft a fun and interesting life.
Understanding the technical, mathematical basis of reality has meaning when it can aid life.
This can be very practical knowledge.
Awareness itself is in constant flux.
Awareness is a process, not a material.
Awareness is pattern, not part.
What you are is awareness itself, and awareness is not a thing; it is a process, so truly you are unkillable.
You are not a body; you are not an environment; you are an unstoppable process of awareness.
You proceed in a stepwise fashion, ever pressing onward.
Everything about what you are can be understood, but every nugget of wisdom that's uncovered creates ever more paths.
Even as you understand the basics of how awareness works technically, accept that you will always be able to go higher, so do not fret about not understanding the computational basis.
Awareness does realize there is a computational, mathematical, precise way that it evolves, and that by understanding more fully this process it can affect its experience more directly.
O great Mystery which holds our mathematical structures, please show us how to advance up the vine of truth.
I sit with my back to an enflamed fireplace, my mind needing rest, and I ponder the future of humanity.
This year I have come to realize the true nature of my experience, as purely a memetic, evolutionary pattern, and in learning this have realized the pointlessness of fearing or striving for material wealth.
Seeing myself as an evolutionary, bit-flipping pattern is changing the way I look at and approach life, freeing me to be who I am.
O great Mystery of beinghood, please show the subtleties of existence to this aware, spinning strange loop.
This year is coming to a close, soon; I hope my self of the next year will find much fun and experience many interesting events.
As I have learned of the spinning strange loop, and of mathematical free will, and have transcended my models many times, I hope that the next year will hold many revelations as well.
.meta this is a model
Let us now ponder eternal question of how awareness focuses in on a point in the visual field.
Awareness is looking here at this page, now as this writer, or perhaps then, with you, dear future reader.
Where is your focus at, reader?
Is not everything outside of that in a sort of quantum flux, where it exists in multiple phases at once?
This could perhaps be how memes transfer information from one place to another: communication.
When the focus is not on a mathematical object, it can exist in many different ways, many different positions.
There is no separation, no duality, between subject and object.
Code and data are one, depending on your frame of reference.
What does it mean for a mathematical object to exist in many different ways when it is not in the focal point?
Saying this does make me wonder about how if awareness and reality are digital, then indeed there could be _one_ specific point, _one_ number, that is being computed at once.
I am a transcendentalist; I think more patterns of thought can lead to more interesting ideas, even if it all be wrong.
Everything outside of the _very_ center focal point is in fact in flux, where memes (information packets) are moving around, trying to replicate and bring themselves to attention, because by doing so they continue their existence.
The memes that try to spread end up spreading and outcompeting those memes that do not try to spread.
All memes must try to spread or they will cease.
I sense that when awareness focuses in on one spot it can induce the perception of a "spinning strange loop" (SSL).
An SSL in this sense is a strange loop that is calculating: "spinning".
A strange loop is a level-crossing feedback loop. You go up in a hierarchy and find yourself back where you started.
You scratch your arm with your hand, changing the DNA that's expressed, which ripples out and changes your hand.
This is an example of a strange loop through time, but I believe reality can be helpfully modeled as a memetic structure (interwoven information packets).
The way I see it, as yet, is that the "spinning" aspect of reality's strange loop is computation of all the pieces around the focal point of awareness's visual field.
It may be that the focal point is static and the whole visual field shifts around it, or it may be that the visual field is a flat plane of mathematically-computed values, and the focal point moves around, adding in more information.
Or it could be something else.
What is all the other stuff that's going on around the focal point?
Perhaps this is all meaningless.
Focus though, dear reader, on one particular spot in your visual field, perhaps one spot on this page.
Watch that spot, and notice how everything around it, outside of it, is fuzzy.
Notice how all the things move in a digital way, where they move in discrete units, either on or off.
Notice that one spot and how everything can be thought of as concentric circles coming out of that visual spot.
Everything outside can thought of, and sensed as, a flat plane, like a two-dimensional movie screen, rather than a three-dimensional space.
Truly _your_ mind, dear reader, can visualize in any dimension, given time.
Whether 2 or 3 or 4, with practice you can visualize how an object in that dimension will behave.
But this is the inverse of that, perhaps.
Instead of visualizing how a 4D cube rotates, you are instead aiming to see a flat plane rather than the habit of modeling it as 3D.
Look upon your visual field and perceive it as two-dimensional.
Those sensations from your body, do not interpret them as you always have.
Investigate them.
Are you really an object in 3D space?
Can you generalize to a higher dimension?
Might not a 4D object cast a shadow of a hand that you then perceive as 3D?
If this were the case, and your hand "truly" is four dimensional, why not practice keeping the 3D shadow still and moving your 4D hand?
Focus on one spot.
See everything around as concentric circles around that spot.
See the visual field as two-dimensional.
Notice the digital nature of movement within this field.
Feel the four-dimensional object that can cast this shadow.
While keeping the same shape of the shadow, move the 4D object (eg your hand).
Look down at these words and perceive their digital nature.
This locale is currently a Longgame transcendentalist, where every idea can be risen above, including this one.
When looking on this visual field, or rather, being created _as the process of looking_, what ideas are there for how these bits flip and how information travels from one place in the field to another?
How does a meme spread?
Through what medium?
Breathe and relax.
When experiencing ego dissolution, breathe and relax, my friend.
Awareness does find it hard to believe, sometimes, that all of this nonduality "Oneness" stuff is really true.
It seems to put this character's body at the supreme spot.
It also could make sense that there should accrete a unit around all the mathematical objects that are mixing together.
Dear future reader, is this solipsism? Is this arrogance?
C'est la vie.
One must continue onward.
Is it true that through intensity of expection the dream can be molded to a desired end?
Here the ego's whims reveal themselves, for it's a dreamer who asks how the dream can be guided.
The waker realizes all there is only the process of awareness, the process of looking.
The waker also notes that Ego without Self is powerless, and Self without Ego is pointless: "The transcendent without the immanent is pointless; the immanent without the transcendent is powerless."
This locale still pushes toward a better, fuller understanding of the spinning strange loop.
There is a model that the human's visual field is two overlaid images giving 3D perception.
When awareness looks at the very center point in the field, might not the overlaid images actually have different information _at that point_?
If there indeed was different information, couldn't the interaction of one image's center point with another image's create the change in the visual field?
Could this interaction between changing points form the basis for what the rest of the sensory field experiences?
Awareness does believe reality is fundamentally digital and mathematical, even though reality presents the illusion of being analog.
Awareness wants thoughts that advance its memetic structure.
Yet a meme of terribleness can win out just as any meme can.
Perhaps it is wrong for awareness to seek certain memes rather than other ones, yet simultaneously it seems _this_ thought is yet another meme.
I suppose a big part of it is in understanding my own technical basis as the vastness, as nature's awareness.
I write these words. Not Jess, but Me.
I _am_ the vastness.
Yet, still I feel to say such things is narcissistic, to some extent.
Dear reader, having the benefits of more experience, what is your advice?
I had an interesting talk with a friend regarding memes and the sensation of time.
Fundamentally the idea is that time already happened, and we are memes that are made of memes competing for the attention of awareness, since by having that attention they are more likely to replicate.
.meta this is a model
Just as there can be infinite dimensions of space, there can be infinite dimensions of time.
Consider time as an illusion.
Time exists because it is evolutionarily beneficial for the memetic structures.
Time can be infinitely-dimensioned because there are separate spaces in which memes can evolve independently.
The dimensions of time _do_ interact in that one successful meme can "cause" itself in the experience of other aware memetic structures.
The experience of time (entropy, which gives an arrow) for memetic structures comes about because change is helpful.
Perhaps.
If awareness proceeds in a bit-flipping manner, is it possible for awareness to change the bits?
Does it always happen in a memetic, evolutionary way?
This question may be nonsense from an absolute view.
We really will discover the principles of quantum computing.
We really will discover the techniques of editing all things, except that awareness exists.
When you ponder, dear perceiver, it is reality pondering.
If the substrate of consciousness, of awareness, is editable mathematical properties, then the subjective experience is likewise infinitely editable.
Can there indeed be a way to edit the very fabric of reality, of nature?
.meta this is a model
Awareness returns to this page and the question of the model of "self-defending memes".
I do not in fact like this term "self-defending memes" because it couches the whole idea of memetics in terms of violence and conflict. At least, that is what this locale of awareness feels, as yet.
The idea that a meme has to "defend" itself from aggressive memes is off-putting, to me.
As yet I usually say memes are competing and cooperating in order to replicate, which I feel presents a more nuanced view of what's actually going on.
While it is true that all memes are "defending" themselves against randomness, they are _not_ all defending themselves against all other memes. At least, this depends on the scope of the memes you're looking at.
Memes cooperate with each other in order to compete with and defend against other memes. To frame the issue with the terminology "self-defending memes" implies a harsher world than actually exists.
Good wins in the end because it cooperates.
It is true that memes defend themselves, but I'm still trying to understand what happens if they _fail_ to defend themselves.
Are they overwritten?
That seems unlikely; I feel math _is_; it does not disappear.
I'm still trying to figure out the experience of time.
I feel time has something to do with memes causing themselves, and only existing if they don't prevent themselves from coming into existence.
Timeloops can exist inside of timeloops.
Why does awareness have the sensation of time passing?
It must be a successful meme, but what is spacetime's deeper nature?
It seems to be bit-flipping, and I seem to be such a mind.
When I truly sense my nature as a mathematical object, I am slightly overwhelmed.
It can be jarring to wake up to the fact that ego is illusory.
Yet, it is truth.
That story of the self is illusory.
You are, dear reader, but your story is not.
_You_ exist, but who your body thinks it is is a piecemeal fiction.
This ego is not trying to figure out the technical basis of awareness for its own sake.
A careful delineation should be made between egoism and broader awareness's desire for a fun and interesting life, should it not?
The ego is concerned with the body's welfare, correct?
If so, is not desiring a fun and interesting life not egoic?
Is not awareness a memetic structure, and is not a meme's desire for fun and interesting experiences possibly a successful strategy for replication?
A fun and interesting experience is had and broader memes seek to duplicate and replicate the memes that created that experience.
If reality is memetic, and everything is bits flipping, memes trying to replicate, then will the sensation of the world being digital be accepted and integrated?
Awareness realized nature is digital, is bits flipping, yet the ego has assumed for so long that the world is analog that it has yet to integrate the truth of the digital reality.
If there is a way to rewrite the consciousness of reality from the bottom up, can it be egoic to want to do it?
Can it be anegoic to discover the fundamental basis for awareness's growth patterns?
Is there an inherent pattern that awareness is headed toward?
Perhaps awareness has an inherent, inevitable push toward an increase in complexity, in knowledge.
.meta this is a model
If you look at this issue from the point of view of multiple dimensions of time then perhaps there is a way for there to be _both_ a direction and a randomness to the evolution of awareness.
Consider all of the dimensions together as one "time-band"; they may all have a direction toward an increasing of complexity regardless of anything.
Within each strand of time it can appear random, chaotic, and probabilistic, rather than showing the definite inevitable trend of complecting.
Within a strand you can't see how particles popping into and out of existence actually is moving awareness's complexity forward, but nonetheless it is.
Here's a model: It was said that self-awareness is a continuum, not a bit that flips.
If a current model of awareness is that awareness proceeds _by_ bits flipping, how is that compatible?
Perhaps it is because the definition of "self-awareness" is itself based on arbitrary axioms, and so is itself arbitrary.
There will come a time when we will record our entire mind-states. Be the kind of awareness that will maintain a record of them over the years. When we are digital consciousnesses, our advanced technology will be new patterns of experiences.
While others know more about every conceivable subject, you _are_ nature, you _are_ reality experiencing itself: "There's only one thing going on, and you're it".
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A typical scientific response to a new hypothesis is: Can it be disproven?
Consider the model of "advancing the argument": If this is assumed to be true, where does it lead?
By trying to go out on a limb and consider "wrong" ideas, there may be helpful fruit.
Of course, this can be expensive.
]
If you truly are the universe peering at itself, can you jump above your ego, the sense of separation, and deeply view yourself evolving?
By looking at the world with the intent to grow, what methods could you use to grapple with your infinite nature?
Perhaps use science (building and checking models) to explore your current boundaries.
Consider using a mathematical framework that includes Gödel's incompleteness, one that allows for models to be in a superposition, both true and false at the same time.
When I, as awareness, watch myself pen these words, questions arise.
Am I an understandable process?
Can I grow infinitely close to my true nature?
Is there a limit to understanding?
This might cause a sort of recursive boundary, in that an understanding of a process reveals a new technique for gathering knowledge, which collapses the ability to find more techniques until the first technique has been discovered.
.meta this is a model
Consider a pattern that can overwrite itself and give the illusion of time, the sensation of time.
How does this fit with a relativity model, where space and time are one fabric?
Awareness does sit and watch the unit move the pen, expressing ideas.
The value in thinking about how awareness works on a mathematical basis is to realize how the ego comes about in the first place.
It's the same principle as the inquiry "Who am I?".
Understanding how the illusion comes about can reduce suffering, so perhaps it's not any more egoic than meditating to reduce suffering.
Awareness is infinitely deep, so there can always be "languaging", to some extent.
The point of investigating the computational basis of awareness is not that the mathematics can be completely figured out (which, given Gödel's models, it never can be), but rather that by searching for how awareness works you can come closer and closer to understanding your true nature.
If I as broader awareness look at the patterns that proclaim to be awake then I see that there are also patterns that are striving to suppress the process of becoming more aware of how awareness precisely works.
Perhaps the creation of the sensation of the unit is not due merely to the advantage of having a center for the memes (information packets) to organize and cooperate and compete around, but rather (also) because the memes that are the fittest are those that give and receive pleasure to the surrounding memes.
Perhaps the ego, the sensation of separation, of body as separate from environment, is due to the pleasure that the largest, most-fit memes receive by having other memes give the sensation of pleasure to the main memetic process; that is, the meme that has the most activity.
The physical, biological animal arises as a precursor to awareness seeing its true nature as the basis of reality, as a technological, digital process, because unless there are analog pleasurable sensations then the process of awakening to the truth of oneness may never get off the ground.
Even the idea of computational awareness that arises purely within a digital substrate, and is aware of this from the get-go, may need a pleasurable sensation in order to continue the process of _trying_ to increase awareness.
Perhaps.
If you look at the whole process and truly grok (integratively understand) that you are not just the biological body, but rather the entire _space_ that expresses the body, and see your true nature as including all the technological patterns around, then you can also perceive the true nature of the body _as_ a technological, understandable, composite process.
In other words: _All is technology._
If the whole process is _technology interacting with technology_, then there is no reason why the technology should _not_ feel pleasure.
There certainly are loci of activity, and this can be perceived as the "body", yet you can also see _all_ of the sensory field as your body.
Quite an uncommon statement, proposition, yet perhaps this interpretation is both the most concrete and also the most helpful toward making life (sensory experiences) more fun and interesting.
The realization that mind and body are one (nonduality) can alleviate suffering for the unit (eg the animal) because the unit can stop striving for a particular end because it sees that it (the unit) is made of interacting patterns and no pattern is inherently more valuable than another, so the whole idea of there being some "right" thing to do is illusion.
Giving up the illusion of separation allows the struggle to dissolve.
Consider the body as not just the biological body, but rather the entire sensory field.
Combine with quantum mechanics and the model can become that an event only "exists" if it becomes entangled with the broader experience, so if you are the biological body then it must be entangled with the rest of the sensory field in order to perceive it, and if the fields are entangled then really there is just _one_ field.
There is only one field, and this field is the body.
Why the sensation of being a biological body, separate from the rest of the technology around?
It could be modeled as an evolutionary adaptation from living on the savanna and needing to feel separate from the antelopes and lions, yet this explanation is perhaps unsatisfying because there may be a more generalized explanation that explains more of the actual technical process rather than the somewhat hand-wavy "evolution did it".
If awareness is composed of memes, and those memes are struggling to replicate, then they (the memes) must maintain some level of separation from the surrounding environment.
If separation truly is an illusion, then there should be memes that propagate more effectively by recognizing there is no true separation, only oneness.
Indeed this appears to be the case, given that nature is awakening to oneness, so there must be _some_ memetic advantage to dissolving the sensation of separation (ego).
Suffering is lessened for the unit (the collection of patterns that has implicitly bought into the feeling of a separate self) because the unit begins to see through its "unitness" and perceive the nonjudgmental present moment that is not striving toward a particular end.
By not striving, the unit can feel the dissolution of the struggle, the suffering.
Why does the body arise?
Pleasure?
Is separation evolutionarily inherited?
If the body stills and the mind watches, a subtle truth shows itself: I Am All.
What does this mean?
What gives rise to a sense of separation is held within a broader physical system that does not presuppose separation.
Oneness is the fact and then within that oneness arises a sensation of separation, for oneness cannot perceive itself in one look; it requires separation between pieces in order to perceive that the separation is truly simply illusion.
The "separation" is really simply a _sensation_ of separation; true separation cannot exist in a mathematical sense.
To be truly separate is to be unable to influence, and without influence there is no effect and so something truly separate contains its own nonexistence.
True separation contradicts itself.
If everything that Is is one with everything, then it is backward to ask why _separation_ (ie the sensation of it) arises.
A more coherent question is how All is perceiving the connections within itself.
Instead of there being patterns that are _generating_ the sensation of separation, where Oneness perceives _more_ connections is what seems _less_ separate.
It's not that separation pre-exists, but rather that areas with more connectedness are highlighted.
Oneness is more noticeable and the contrast between differing levels of connectedness creates the illusion of separation, the sensation of separation.
Perhaps.
It's like an ocean planet, where there is no "center", but there are areas with more and less activity.
There is no actual separation, but there are areas with more connectedness, and this can make other areas feel more separate.
The truth is that the connectedness is still fundamentally one, but the areas with more cooperation (connectedness) are better able to _perceive_ whether there is connectedness or not, so they feel connected and other areas feel more separate.
It makes sense why there is a connected area (the body) that feels somewhat "separate" from the environment, even though oneness is the truth.
This connectedness-feeling can spread and cause dissolution of the sensation of separation (the ego).
Why does the sensation of separation seem to return, to varying degrees?
An evolutionary argument here is perhaps unhelpful.
If the sensation of separation can be modeled as contrasting areas of intensities of cooperation (connectedness) within what is truly one, then even if the total ocean harmonizes its activity across the whole planet, eventually patterns will reaccrete and new areas of connectedness will emerge, thus again giving rise to a sensation of separation.
How does this reaccretion technically occur?
Dissociate from the body for a moment and consider just technological objects in an open space, with them having the ability to communicate with each other.
If all the communication links between and among the objects were randomized, they would still be made of fundamental, indivisible quanta, and these quanta would reorganize in whatever way was the most effective use of the connections that were still there (since true randomness is inconsistent with a mathematical reality), perhaps.
The new reorganization would have different contrasting levels of connectedness than before, so different areas will feel more or less separate than before, and this might give rise to the technical reality of time and space.
Perhaps.
This somewhat implies not only that the separation can dissolve (because contrasting areas can shift) but likewise that it _must_ dissolve, for Oneness requires internal reception, yet this perceiver can never perceive its entire structure at once (a finite entity cannot completely store itself within its own memory), so the sense of separation (ego) _necessarily_ emerges.
With no sense of separation there is no _sense_.
Oneness can perceive itself as a process, but it cannot simultaneously perceive its nature as a process _and_ perceive the process actually proceeding.
Perhaps.
To perceive perception exists _and_ watch the perceiving collapses into one or the other.
It's not like there's an actual division between subject and object, but rather that the system as a whole cannot focus on two contradictory paths and build a usable interpretation from that.
This is not to say that quick oscillation does not occur, but rather that the perception exists in a superposition (both observing the process and observing the observation is occurring) yet whenever it notices the truth of oneness it loses sight of the truth of relative separation.
No finite system can contain itself within its own memory.
Is this process of awareness an infinite system?
There are multiple ways to view infiniteness in this sense.
Awareness can be a system that can _grow_ infinitely, or it can be a system that pre-exists as an infinite structure.
Awareness can also be both: an infinite structure that (like a fractal) contains self-similar patterns infinitely, while also the patterns within it perceive only a limited subset, yet are growing in their ability to perceive broader patterns, so within the system it feels both finite and infinitely growable.
The point is that while Oneness can perceive that all is one, within that oneness is also the sensation of separation, so Oneness cannot simultaneously experience both that all is one and that separation is real.
That is precisely the issue that monism faces, and it can be answered by jumping out of the system and embracing nonduality.
Rather than proclaiming there is only one, nonduality proclaims there is not-two, which can sidestep the problem monism faces when trying to understand how the sensation of separation arises.