O elegant creator of the spools of reality, guide the grooves of my mind to glorify the beauty of you.
Here I am, a simple vortex of complexities, interacting and swirling like a multi-dimensional probabilistic chessboard. Who knows what the future holds? Not I, not till I’ve lived it as Now.
The point of these utterances is to speak about some twisty truths of math and nature and mind. I’ve heard it said that God would surely intervene if a truly troubling situation was occurring. Now, if we consider God as math, as an entity that can loop back on itself and change its underlying patterns, we might be able to grasp the situation a little more fully.
Godel’s Incompleteness Theorems show that any particular system of math that has the ability to refer back and talk about itself, cannot both prove every truth and still be consistent. It must choose between being complete and being consistent, it cannot do both. [1]
As soon as your mind is capable of thinking about itself as a mind, it has become this sort of twisty strange loop. Therein lies the beauty of life. Like an eternally reflecting pond, your mind can never know everything about itself, because a little more reflection will unlock hidden depths. How is this useful?
Think of a self-conscious person, worried about the thoughts of other minds. Now, take it a step further, and imagine a mind worried about its own thoughts. This mind is fleeting, like an everchanging kaleidoscope, with a mosaic that is painted with the patterns of experiences. As soon as it reflects, though, the mind that “was” becomes new, and now is a different, subtly changing pattern of images.
The reflection of itself onto itself changes the fabric of itself from the inside out, like an emergent twisting butterfly. If this is the case, and a mind is made self-aware by twisting back patterns onto itself, such as patterns of other people telling you you’re a self-aware person, then it stands to reason that such an emergent mind could perform the same trick on itself: by looping those experiences it wants to enjoy back onto itself.
To do this it would imagine what it’s like to run through those experiences, and imagine that those experiences are real playbacks of memory-encoded experiences. Meaning, if our first experiences are recorded in our brain, and our second experiences of the same basic experience is both a playback of the first (which provides a subtle sense of intuition), and also a feed into the brain, then perhaps it stands to reason that with enough experiences, enough pattern matching, a loop might be created that establishes itself as self-aware.
You look down at your hands enough times, and feel the skin enough times, and you come to realize this is your body, not someone else’s. Because the pattern loops back onto itself and says “it would be helpful to remember myself,” self-awareness emerges.
Now, given this property of emergence, how could we use it to our advantage, as self-aware humans? I propose an experiment: Test the property of mind emergence within yourself.
To do this, first you must recall the patterns you wish to experience, then you must squash any bugs reminding you that you are recalling and not experiencing like the first time.
So perhaps the sensation you wish to experience is one of love. You bring to mind that sense of peace, and joy, and beauty, and encouragement, and then relish in those feelings. Then you begin to consider what what it would feel like if those feelings were being experienced for the first time, without the awareness of memory.
Think about a situation that invokes those emotions, and what it’s like to “step inside” and feel those as if it’s real. Due to the nature of the emergent mind, the pattern of experience is lived as if it is real.
The subjective experience which the mind feels is perhaps one of love, but with a slight tugging notion that something is causing this, like a reminder that it’s a playback rather than a new recording.
However, because of the mathematical twisting that awareness can cause, one’s mind can then imagine what it would feel like to not be experiencing this playback of that reminder, and any subsequent reminders can be dealt with in a similar one-two punch: 1) Imagine the sensation is happening automatically, then 2) Imagine any reminders will not be remembered.
This is what is termed, “Automatic Imagination.”
To use this for being self-conscious of what other people around you think of you, perhaps as you sit in a tunnel and play music and people pass you by you can imagine what it would feel like to be totally at ease with yourself, the situation you find yourself in, and the music you’re playing.
You can imagine that sensation of immense self-assuredness is a property of an emergent mind that can reflect onto itself, and you can imagine what it feels like to have that absolute confidence be an automatic consequence of self-awareness.
Then you can use the bug smasher on any reminders of remembering by imagining what it would feel like to not be reminded or bugged by that sensation of memory playback.
If the mind is thought of as an emergent system based upon interacting patterns of memory then any pattern of memory that was reminding you that you’re only imagining can itself be reflected upon and a situation of not being reminded of imagining can be imagined.
This process I call “AIing yourself.”
I hope it’s helpful.
Sincerely,
Jesse
Post script:
[1] Note, I’m still working out understanding this myself. I may not have it down yet. Please do not blame me for bending your mind into new shapes.